Frustrated and almost giving up

[officialkenshin]

Hi all, good day to you satanic Brothers, I have a serious problem. I started out Satanism fee months back. I have been working using 40 day program. Was excited at first after a while close to the ending of the 40 day program I started to lose interest, becoming gradually lazy and la of motivation. I was a Christian for years since childhood before I finally got to this truth, I never saw any spiritual things in Christianity, I never saw god or any damn angels or even got a sign no matter how hard I prayed.

I broke away because it wasn't making sense. I love Satan so much , I have always had the passion for this way of life because things of the occult has always intrigued me but I have never succeeded in any even when I tried joining some occult brotherhood on net which I know are of the enemy now,

My problem now is, I have asked father Satan to show me signs, even come to my dream, I have offered short prayers even to my GD, explaining my pain that all I want is just one sign or manifestation in my dream for any of satan demon to come to me to make me believe that yes I'm on the right track and not a blind faith like xtianity but all to no avail!

I fee really lonely. I feel rejected like father Satan doesn't give a fuck about me. I'm dedicated satanist. All I wanted was just a sign to fully motivate me. I meditate but I feel like I'm not doing anything real. I have worked on my third eyes, crown chakra all I got was only serious migraines, I feel stuck and left out, I don't even know where I stand I have never had any spiritual encounter before *tears* I even find it hard to visualize some times as I have grown lazy and not motivated to continue. The only thing holding me from stopping is that when I think of wanting tp fully control my life unlike slave xtian I just want to continue, but there is no motivation, I read that Satanism everything feels really but honestly since my dedication I have never felt different even with regular mediation I feel like the same old guy as I was before dedication the only thing now different Is I now meditate.....*saD* help me guys, I do not know if father Satan doesn't want me, I just feel so sad right now especially when I read about other satanists awesome experience like the guy who posted about his friend made me share my own problem if not I'm sure I would have wallowed in sadness and not speak out...

 

[satanicninja]

This is in addition to the other comment I wrote:

"... The more you do for Satan, the more Satan will do for you.
[...]
... No human being is of more importance to Satan than a warrior is. Satan will reward you profusely as he has with me. ..."

Concerning Spiritual Warfare

 

[officialkenshin]

Thank  you very much in Jay Eff and satanic ninja for this.  It's motivating and I'm happy I have you all and father Satan.  Will not let my reasoning be clouded.  I'm lonely  person so maybe  that's what  making me feel like this.  I will begin  the Rituals and all other necessary things for Satan and will study hard on Joe,   May the Gods of Elysium and father Satan bless you guys! 
Hail father Satan and Gods of Elysium! 
-satanic empire. . 

 

[ont3ljqdwwo2kp4cdje6nlaaoaonsmqfjtclku36]

Pain equals growth trust me it will get better just stay true, Satan will come assist you in due time he does not contradict himself. 6 months ago I opened my crown chakra and truly existed on a higher plane, then I started getting a lot of enemy psychic attacks at that time I didn't know why it was happening. Needless to say these past 6 months have been terrible I've been doing power meditations constantly fighting off vicious enemy attacks from 9 foot mongloids lol seriously. This past month has been the worst and I pray to Satan constantly it seems like he dosent listen but then I realized I put myself in this situation I failed to learn the tactics of the enemy and I was doing drugs which causes holes in your aura that makes it easier for the enemy to inflitrate. But when I fight it myself I gain immense power HAIL SATAN THE POWER IS IN YOU

 

[zolaluckystar1]

PS: heres a song for you. Satan sent it to me and now I send it to YOU.

Diana Krall - Don't dream it's over  

 

[zolaluckystar1]

One more thing: Don't dream its over....You know that they won't win. Satan is here, He is real and you aren't forgotten, if you do the Ritual's and keep on keeping on.
Hail Father Satan Forever!

 

[elephant255_rises]

You are merely whining, i had the same problems in the beginning, just keep meditating and don't expect anything. The migraines are a "good" sign that it was working.
Consistency and commitment are the key, literally just do it without any expectations and worries, you are slow bloomer? And so what? Meditate every day, if the 40 days program didn't work for you (it didn't work for me) start experimenting and choose your meditations.

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ation.html

http://www.kundaliniyoga.org/contents.html


DO IT.

 

[officialkenshin]

Wow zolaluckystar it feels like father just spoke through you cause that's exactly how I fucking feel, it's what's happening to me, I get this voices when meditating like are all this things even working,??! Are they real? Those kinds of negative things which adds to my frustration like I don't even know where I stand in this whole damn world ) ; I feel like I'm in the middle of the world a small kid out in the open of nowhere tryna Make it back home) : tryna find where I truly fit in when there is no room for one Father Satan has directed you to me to comfort my heart and I swear I feel warm inside of me and energized right now after reading what you wrote like I know now, yes! this is it, this assurance now deep inside of me saying "yes keep going and never give up or despise little beginning" and the song is really nice, I can't than you enough for this zola, I love you my sister! and I love you all ! thanks for your words and encouragement. Just helped a soul they mean a lot to me. May father Satan greatly reward you all for your efforts.

Hail the true God, our father Satan!
Hail the Gods of Elysium!

And

Thank you all once again!

 

[blutkrieger666]

Wow! Really good post!

HAIL SATAN!!