DXM damage? Spiritual Setback?

[satanforeternity]

Before I came to Satan, I used to abuse DXM on a regular basis. I stayed high on it for about a year until I could know longer trip on it. I know it had to have damaged my brain in some way. But, my main worry is that I won't be able to advance spiritually in Satanism. I've tried to do breathing exercises and work on going into a trance. I've had no success. I completely believe in spiritual Satanism and everything Joy of Satan has to offer. I'd just like some feedback from somebody who might know what may be going on?

 

[hafischer9501]

stop worrying and relax yourself and you will be fine just try and do not expect results anytime think of this people quit working out because they dont see results immeaditly and say o it doesnt work well this is basiclly the same thing stick with it and you will get it the biggest loser (the tv show) look at them they come in sometimes at 286 pounds and at the end of the show they stuck with it and most of them are physically fit have muscles and look great and they worked there asses off its unhealthy too lose that much weight in that 4 wee time but yea its a game show they gotta lose it fast pace yourself if something doesnt go right then figure out what went wrong and try again

 

[hafischer9501]

stop worrying and relax yourself and you will be fine just try and do not expect results anytime think of this people quit working out because they dont see results immeaditly and say o it doesnt work well this is basiclly the same thing stick with it and you will get it the biggest loser (the tv show) look at them they come in sometimes at 286 pounds and at the end of the show they stuck with it and most of them are physically fit have muscles and look great and they worked there asses off its unhealthy too lose that much weight in that 4 wee time but yea its a game show they gotta lose it fast pace yourself if something doesnt go right then figure out what went wrong and try again as for the drugs it shouldnt step you back

 

[eddiel]

I had a similar experience. I did DXM a lot but only for a couple months not a year like you said. I think when I came to Satanism He made me stop it. It will definitely hold you back, it has with me. Sometimes I can just feel like holes in my brain like a "scar" from the dxm like a burn kinda, does that make sense? At the top of both hemispheres. Anyways it was very hard for me to first do the meditations but eventually I got my pineal gland activated a little bit, not the way Maxine says hers is but I can see stuff with my third eye sometimes, feel blissful and go into trances but that's about it and Ive been meditating for two years. I would recommend going to erowid.org and read about the long term effects of DXM, it is really bad, Im glad you stopped it. The DXM for me caused to me to have a low level of bioelectricity and blocked my awareness of energy and it took many many long hours of meditation to be able to even try and understand and experience the meditations at the same time. Does that make sense? What you can do now is not worry about it. I would worry and feel sorry for myself for being stupid but that will not help. Just keep trying and working hard to open up those areas of your mind. Draw a picture or play an insrtument, be creative and think of ways to get to your subconscious, that is what worked for me. I hope I could offer some advice or help to you. Let me know if there's anything else you want to know. Good luck.

Hail Satan!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "satanforeternity" <satanforeternity@... wrote:

Before I came to Satan, I used to abuse DXM on a regular basis. I stayed high on it for about a year until I could know longer trip on it. I know it had to have damaged my brain in some way. But, my main worry is that I won't be able to advance spiritually in Satanism. I've tried to do breathing exercises and work on going into a trance. I've had no success. I completely believe in spiritual Satanism and everything Joy of Satan has to offer. I'd just like some feedback from somebody who might know what may be going on?

 

[satanforeternity]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "eddiel" <l67f54jf576@... wrote:

I had a similar experience. I did DXM a lot but only for a couple months not a year like you said. I think when I came to Satanism He made me stop it. It will definitely hold you back, it has with me. Sometimes I can just feel like holes in my brain like a "scar" from the dxm like a burn kinda, does that make sense? At the top of both hemispheres. Anyways it was very hard for me to first do the meditations but eventually I got my pineal gland activated a little bit, not the way Maxine says hers is but I can see stuff with my third eye sometimes, feel blissful and go into trances but that's about it and Ive been meditating for two years. I would recommend going to erowid.org and read about the long term effects of DXM, it is really bad, Im glad you stopped it. The DXM for me caused to me to have a low level of bioelectricity and blocked my awareness of energy and it took many many long hours of meditation to be able to even try and understand and experience the meditations at the same time. Does that make sense? What you can do now is not worry about it. I would worry and feel sorry for myself for being stupid but that will not help. Just keep trying and working hard to open up those areas of your mind. Draw a picture or play an insrtument, be creative and think of ways to get to your subconscious, that is what worked for me. I hope I could offer some advice or help to you. Let me know if there's anything else you want to know. Good luck.

Hail Satan!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "satanforeternity" <satanforeternity@ wrote:

Before I came to Satan, I used to abuse DXM on a regular basis. I stayed high on it for about a year until I could know longer trip on it. I know it had to have damaged my brain in some way. But, my main worry is that I won't be able to advance spiritually in Satanism. I've tried to do breathing exercises and work on going into a trance. I've had no success. I completely believe in spiritual Satanism and everything Joy of Satan has to offer. I'd just like some feedback from somebody who might know what may be going on?

Should I focus on breathing exercises, meditation, and going into a trance before I begin power meditations. I've had some results with power meditations. But, I don't do them on a regular basis.(daily) (more like weekly) I've also done opiates and xanax since then as well. I'm also prescribed to Adderall. Should I quit taking the Adderall. It makes me nervous. I used to take it so I wouldn't eat because I had an eating disorder and I did everything I could to lose weight. I know I'm never going to get in control of my mind if I can't learn self-control. I feel more at peace after coming to Satan, but I've still given into my urges to do drugs because I always take the easy way out. I'm tired of myself and all my flaws. I'm a very weak in character. I need to help myself more before Satan can help me. I know complete abstinence of drugs will have a majorly positive effect on me spiritually if I stick to a meditation program. I just get frustrated when the results take so long. I'm so eager to develop spiritually, feel energy, communicate astrally, and everything Satan wants us to be able to do. Would you recommend exercise or yoga with my meditation program?

 

[eddiel]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "satanforeternity" <satanforeternity@... wrote:

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "eddiel" <l67f54jf576@ wrote:

I had a similar experience. I did DXM a lot but only for a couple months not a year like you said. I think when I came to Satanism He made me stop it. It will definitely hold you back, it has with me. Sometimes I can just feel like holes in my brain like a "scar" from the dxm like a burn kinda, does that make sense? At the top of both hemispheres. Anyways it was very hard for me to first do the meditations but eventually I got my pineal gland activated a little bit, not the way Maxine says hers is but I can see stuff with my third eye sometimes, feel blissful and go into trances but that's about it and Ive been meditating for two years. I would recommend going to erowid.org and read about the long term effects of DXM, it is really bad, Im glad you stopped it. The DXM for me caused to me to have a low level of bioelectricity and blocked my awareness of energy and it took many many long hours of meditation to be able to even try and understand and experience the meditations at the same time. Does that make sense? What you can do now is not worry about it. I would worry and feel sorry for myself for being stupid but that will not help. Just keep trying and working hard to open up those areas of your mind. Draw a picture or play an insrtument, be creative and think of ways to get to your subconscious, that is what worked for me. I hope I could offer some advice or help to you. Let me know if there's anything else you want to know. Good luck.

Hail Satan!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "satanforeternity" <satanforeternity@ wrote:

Before I came to Satan, I used to abuse DXM on a regular basis. I stayed high on it for about a year until I could know longer trip on it. I know it had to have damaged my brain in some way. But, my main worry is that I won't be able to advance spiritually in Satanism. I've tried to do breathing exercises and work on going into a trance. I've had no success. I completely believe in spiritual Satanism and everything Joy of Satan has to offer. I'd just like some feedback from somebody who might know what may be going on?


Should I focus on breathing exercises, meditation, and going into a trance before I begin power meditations. I've had some results with power meditations. But, I don't do them on a regular basis.(daily) (more like weekly) I've also done opiates and xanax since then as well. I'm also prescribed to Adderall. Should I quit taking the Adderall. It makes me nervous. I used to take it so I wouldn't eat because I had an eating disorder and I did everything I could to lose weight. I know I'm never going to get in control of my mind if I can't learn self-control. I feel more at peace after coming to Satan, but I've still given into my urges to do drugs because I always take the easy way out. I'm tired of myself and all my flaws. I'm a very weak in character. I need to help myself more before Satan can help me. I know complete abstinence of drugs will have a majorly positive effect on me spiritually if I stick to a meditation program. I just get frustrated when the results take so long. I'm so eager to develop spiritually, feel energy, communicate astrally, and everything Satan wants us to be able to do. Would you recommend exercise or yoga with my meditation program?

Yes, that sounds like a good idea. The breathing exercises are definitely mandatory. You should start to do those at least 5 minutes everyday. At some point when you are ready do the power meditations everyday. Vibrating runes helped me a lot as it was the first time I was able to see and feel the energy at the same time. So when you are ready I would recommend breathing exercises and the foundation meditation, then the beginner chakra exercises and vibrating runes. This is what I did. Also yoga would be excellent. I started yoga after I quit drugs as well so this may help you too. Any kind of exercise would be beneficial as it will help to raise your bio electricity which you want to amplify. The two runes I used to get over my problems were Sowilo and Ansuz, I think they might help you.

As for for the Adderal if you are prescribed it then you should not stop taking it but it effects your nervous system as well. Being addicted to drugs is very hard, I have been there. I felt the same way like I was weak and had no strengths or aspirations. Satanism inspired me to a point where I quit doing drugs, started eating healthy, and caring about myself. These drugs you are doing sound kind of "hard". If you are that addicted maybe you should look for some help or try to wane yourself off with weed. I would just smoke a bowl every other day then wait an extra day until I quit cold turkey. Otherwise it is up to you to quit the drugs. I know it is very hard. The best advice I can give you is to find a hobby like do something you like to do you know instead of doing drugs all the time. When I finally activated my pineal gland and right side of my brain I felt bliss that I never felt or experienced with any drug. I can tell you it will be worth it in the long run if you decide to quit drugs and really follow Satanism. And yes it does take long. I wish you the best of luck though, let me know if there is anything else I can help you with.