Does magic and meditation really help?

[Sta_Satanama]

hello everyone. Honestly, I have doubts creeping in. I made squares of the sun and cleaned my soul for 40 days in a row and meditated, I cleaned auras every day.
But I don't see any magic in my life. Moreover, I can't even change internally. Neither character, nor behavior, nor become more positive. I was addicted to marijuana, and I still am. As it was problematic, it has remained so.
Since I didn't start working honestly, I continue to engage in petty theft. (And I'm already quite a few years old).
Nothing in my life has changed at all. It's sad (

 

[May Flower]

I had made a post in this thread https://www.ancient-forums.com/thre...e-your-zevist-experience.304832/#post-1173226, about my experience.

Cleaning your soul is good, but not enough. Besides the obvious push from me here to just return to meditating, I am trying to speak from my experience. Drugs have been a constant battle for me. I still smoke. NOT advocating here. It's stupid, and it makes me feel stupid. But I hate the addiction and what it is stealing from me. Slowly doing my best to hate my problem, instead of myself.

My point being, your efforts matter. We are what we repeatedly do. Provided you have Dedicated, your momentum can find wings with the assistance of the Gods. It will be very difficult to heal alone. There is a whole community here too. Reach out. Don't be a stubborn, isolated old fool like me.