Joshua Cuono
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Last night, I did a ritual to father, asking him to assist me in banishing the angel(s) that I spoke of in my last summoning recollection. This time, however, I came more prepared than last time. I did the following before the ritual:
-Candle and Match Prep
-Preparing all black clothes
-Drawing out the sigils of Orobos and Flauros to aid in warding off any unwanted presences
-Bathing (full cleanse)
I commenced the ritual, and as I expected, my little angel friend showed up. However, this time I was ready for her. I had her look at my walls, and somehow, she vanished (though not for good, it seems).
I used a page from the Xtian book as the paper onto which I wrote my request (as I didn't have anything else to turn to, and I thought that perhaps burning something like that might show Father how desperate I was).
I was able to drive her away for the duration of the ritual, and for once, I could actually enter a psuedo-trance state (I was able to move my limbs during the time, so it wasn't complete trance, but my mind was clear for the first time). However, I've noticed that the sigils don't seem to have an effect during times when the sun is out (daytime). However, my mind does become clearer (especially during those times when I listen to music).
And yet, for some reason, I'm having difficulty meditating frequently because I feel like I'm handicapped needing Flauros and Orobas around every time I do (she'll poke and prod my mind if I try, although the duo more or less prevented her from doing anything else).
I'm not sure if it's just me, or if there's something deeper going on. I can't define my personality, and for some reason, whilst looking at the enemy's words makes me furious, I cannot speak out against it whatsoever. Also, I've been constantly told the Holo-hoax DID happen (even when I present facts) by a certain enemy. This particular enemy calls you all a bunch of liars, and as you've helped me recently, it took me a while before I decided that I would not stand for it.
Unfortunately, I cannot get Mr. Soul Ripper to leave, though the energy drain isn't as bad as it was when I couldn't tell him how I felt in his presence (telling him was half the work, I couldn't even utter the words - they seemed "stuck" in my stomach, for some reason).
I seriously, honestly want to curse these particular assholes, yet for some reason, the power to do so won't appear (I even tried HP Vovim's "Severing the Link" ritual, and I didn't experience what he did - though I did notice that the wires felt like they were growing back).
The enemy doesn't want to let me go for some god-damn reason, and I myself can't figure out why. I suspect it's something to do with a past life, or maybe it's my soul that's doing it - I dunno.
But if anyone could give me some tips on destroying these guys AND getting the angels off my back FOR GOOD, I'd appreciate it.
(Note: One thing I SHOULD mention, might be of use - my middle name is Mykle, which is somewhat after one of the 10 Archangels of the Sephirot - I'm starting to think that name was not placed there for the hell of it. My own mother KNOWS the connection, and she keeps avoiding telling me that that is why she gave me the name - and I know she did this).
-Candle and Match Prep
-Preparing all black clothes
-Drawing out the sigils of Orobos and Flauros to aid in warding off any unwanted presences
-Bathing (full cleanse)
I commenced the ritual, and as I expected, my little angel friend showed up. However, this time I was ready for her. I had her look at my walls, and somehow, she vanished (though not for good, it seems).
I used a page from the Xtian book as the paper onto which I wrote my request (as I didn't have anything else to turn to, and I thought that perhaps burning something like that might show Father how desperate I was).
I was able to drive her away for the duration of the ritual, and for once, I could actually enter a psuedo-trance state (I was able to move my limbs during the time, so it wasn't complete trance, but my mind was clear for the first time). However, I've noticed that the sigils don't seem to have an effect during times when the sun is out (daytime). However, my mind does become clearer (especially during those times when I listen to music).
And yet, for some reason, I'm having difficulty meditating frequently because I feel like I'm handicapped needing Flauros and Orobas around every time I do (she'll poke and prod my mind if I try, although the duo more or less prevented her from doing anything else).
I'm not sure if it's just me, or if there's something deeper going on. I can't define my personality, and for some reason, whilst looking at the enemy's words makes me furious, I cannot speak out against it whatsoever. Also, I've been constantly told the Holo-hoax DID happen (even when I present facts) by a certain enemy. This particular enemy calls you all a bunch of liars, and as you've helped me recently, it took me a while before I decided that I would not stand for it.
Unfortunately, I cannot get Mr. Soul Ripper to leave, though the energy drain isn't as bad as it was when I couldn't tell him how I felt in his presence (telling him was half the work, I couldn't even utter the words - they seemed "stuck" in my stomach, for some reason).
I seriously, honestly want to curse these particular assholes, yet for some reason, the power to do so won't appear (I even tried HP Vovim's "Severing the Link" ritual, and I didn't experience what he did - though I did notice that the wires felt like they were growing back).
The enemy doesn't want to let me go for some god-damn reason, and I myself can't figure out why. I suspect it's something to do with a past life, or maybe it's my soul that's doing it - I dunno.
But if anyone could give me some tips on destroying these guys AND getting the angels off my back FOR GOOD, I'd appreciate it.
(Note: One thing I SHOULD mention, might be of use - my middle name is Mykle, which is somewhat after one of the 10 Archangels of the Sephirot - I'm starting to think that name was not placed there for the hell of it. My own mother KNOWS the connection, and she keeps avoiding telling me that that is why she gave me the name - and I know she did this).
