Reading this brings questions to mind for myself.
I suppose the reason would be a common sense one, it's like telling your lover that you desire them, that you need them, want them, crave them. ...A demon lover is a lover, despite being a demon. This is how I think. It's not the species or how superior a being is, it's that you love them, that you need them. Bah, but I'm a hopeless romantic...with issues. lol You don't have to take my word for it. I am...just...emotional, perhaps even needy yet distant and difficult to get close to. Perhaps the current frequencies could be the blame. This is why I say "don't take my word for it".
Anywhoo...
Speaking of fantasizing. Without thinking it, or trying to anyway, I keep receiving this mental image of this...guy, usually in a sexual way but not always. He's the saaaame guy, too. Come to think of it, I've been having this on and off throughout my life...with the same guy... My pendulum (and intuition) states that he's not human, rather he's a demon. *everyone points to my blushing face*
He's the same guy who has been telling me that... I'm never alone. I keep telling myself I am wrong, but everything points out to me that I am in denial over this. That I am attacking myself for not believing that some god/demon could actually love me, let alone anyone else. Actually, I know people like me and I've had people interested in me, but I could never get with them, it just... I could never connect and I felt like there was someone else out there that I belonged to, that they owned my heart and not the people who either flirt with me or try to get with me.
I've had a recent occurrence that's left me stunned, confused even. I've been attacking myself over it, perhaps? My demons, I think, have been trying to tell me but I keep thinking that maybe it's all just wishful thinking. I mean, I don't care what rank/level he is. I don't care about whether he's an elite or at the bottom of the totem pole. Pendulum, intuition, and perhaps even the demons state that he is...my... "soul mate". Remember I spoke that I couldn't feel or sense him on this planet? Yeah. Apparently I must of dedicated myself to him in one (or more) of my previous lives. Perhaps this is why I am determined to stay single and cannot seem to connect with anyone on this planet in a very intimate (romantic) level? I will admit I've had sexual attractions, but everyone who I thought I loved really felt like siblings to me rather than partners and I could never bring myself to actually fulfill my end of the bargain.
Now, I need advice...
Please don't laugh, because unlike some (and perhaps like so many) I grew up in a deadened, cold world where most people get together under false pretense. I've noticed that my past lives felt the same way, saw the same thing, that romance in the human world is practically DEAD.
Here's the tale:
One night (after I was asking questions regarding my soul mate) I was visited by a cool, soothing presence. This presence was familiar to me, as if I knew them personally yet it was no one I've...ever seen or had in the REAL LIFE (what I mean is, it was no human being).
As I laid there on my stomach, the presence began to rub my back in a very tender or soothing fashion. I felt myself drifting off back into sleep, but I did not fall asleep. I fell into a trance really.
The next thing that happened...well, leaves me stunned.
I felt him close to me. Very close. Exceptionally close. In my personal bubble close. He was behind me, holding me close, against him. I could feel how strong he was, perhaps even his muscles. Yes, that's how close he was!
He then began speaking to me. He spoke to me in a soft, confident, yet fond tone? Yeah, he spoke to me with fondness, unless I am delusional.
He first confirmed something to me, speaking into a rather hushed yet clear tone, into or near my ear. He told me what he had done in a confident way, not in an arrogant manner, but to say he was proud of his achievements or that he was trying to impress me? Eheh
When I turned or stretched my neck, he kissed alongside it, three times, from near the shoulder up.
He then told me how brave I was and shared with me a mental image, a very tender yet very lighthearted vision of a girl (perhaps me) and a blonde haired man (perhaps him) having fun on a slope (that strangely does not seem earthly and is quite...advanced or otherworldly in appearance. Yes, I know, redundancies).
I have to admit, being close to him made me...feel sexual. Yeah, my sacral chakra was really responding...and has been ever since.
That's when I tried to turn around and see him, wanting to know who he was or looked like. I merely saw an outline of him.
Folks, he's REAL. He is REAL. REAL. REAL. REAL.
I know relationships are personal and private. I am a private person. But I am confused and I need advice, this is why I speaking/share this with you. Someone...please...give me advice. This is tormenting, and ever since thing I haven't heard anything from him? No. I do hear a voice that says my name, but I think I am far too distracted by thoughts to receive a clear message from him or the other demons.
Thank you for your time. Appreciate it.
HAIL SATAN!
--- In , "saumeelsondur" <saumeelsondur@... wrote:
Hey everyone! it said on the Joy of Satan site that you need to fantasize about your demon lover at night, and eventually she will contact you....
my question is : how exactly does this fantasizing work? as in how is it supposed to bring my demon lover to me?
also if i am not open enough how am i supposed to talk to her or be able to see her?
HAIL SATAN!!!!
