FierySoul
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I am asking because I don't really see effects of being more sensitive to the spiritual energy and also I just see here on forums people writing that they had more or less spiritual experiences before they even became Zevists. And me? I never have had one. I mean I get it, they were meditating very much in their previous lives, so they just have these things now. But still, I would be very happy to have just one experience like that.
Only thing I became better at and only just a little bit, is being self-disciplined. I have been Zevist for few years, my meditations were on and off, because I was giving up often. Probably because I matured a bit and I was doing self hypnosis, I have more perservance and more willpower to become better now. I am not skipping meditations, or at least not yet. However, I view meditations as a chore, which may or may not bring results and I just hate, to some extent, doing them. I still do them, but after I am done with meditations, I just get relived that I finally got over with them.
In addition, my tempo is very slow. By this I mean that I have a problem with keeping attention and building habits (was born with dominance of air element). So, I have to do small amounts of meditations and I have to keep that way for a long time.
Do you even guys saw progress of doing meditations? I mean, some of you surely yes. But the idea of being more energy sensitive seems unreachable for me. I just don't know what to do at this point. I guess I will still meditate but it feels pointless.
It's like a Sisyphean task.
TL;DR: I feel powerless when it comes to achieving more sensitiveness to spiritual energy. Achieved small progress of self discipline is only one thing that keeps me going.
Only thing I became better at and only just a little bit, is being self-disciplined. I have been Zevist for few years, my meditations were on and off, because I was giving up often. Probably because I matured a bit and I was doing self hypnosis, I have more perservance and more willpower to become better now. I am not skipping meditations, or at least not yet. However, I view meditations as a chore, which may or may not bring results and I just hate, to some extent, doing them. I still do them, but after I am done with meditations, I just get relived that I finally got over with them.
In addition, my tempo is very slow. By this I mean that I have a problem with keeping attention and building habits (was born with dominance of air element). So, I have to do small amounts of meditations and I have to keep that way for a long time.
Do you even guys saw progress of doing meditations? I mean, some of you surely yes. But the idea of being more energy sensitive seems unreachable for me. I just don't know what to do at this point. I guess I will still meditate but it feels pointless.
It's like a Sisyphean task.
TL;DR: I feel powerless when it comes to achieving more sensitiveness to spiritual energy. Achieved small progress of self discipline is only one thing that keeps me going.