Begginer's Struggles

[spencerlfa]

Hello brothers,

As a begginer and someone that is really dedicating my being to Father, I'd like to everyone come here and kinda talk about all the struggles you had when you first joined Satanism. I think it would be good so all the people that embraced Zevism lately can identify with this and feel motivated to overcome struggles, and realize it's not an easy and instant process, where our faith may be tested.

In my experience, It's mainly just doubts sometimes of what I am doing, negative thoughts and all the psychic fatigue I get before doing my daily meditations. Also in around 1 month I haven't, and you mostly won't have, a BIG CLEAR SIGN from the Gods. Patiente is important, the only signs I had were dreams ( very abstract) and during my dedication the flame of my candle got EXTREMELY high and strong. This is the kind of things you should look out for, Satan gives value to Patience, you mostly won't see a clear sign of one of our Gods or Satan himself after dedication. You must realize it doesn't mean they are not looking out for you and following your progress.

THE ONLY PATH IS FORWARD.

Ave Satani

 

[AdamD]

It's interesting to me that you mention having abstract dreams. I've yet to do the dedication, as I'm still in a state of deciding, but since I started researching on JoS and visiting this group, I've been having strange abstract dreams. You think this could be linked to me seriously considering the dedication ritual?

--- In , "spencerlfa" <igorbedzor@... wrote:

Hello brothers,

As a begginer and someone that is really dedicating my being to Father, I'd like to everyone come here and kinda talk about all the struggles you had when you first joined Satanism. I think it would be good so all the people that embraced Zevism lately can identify with this and feel motivated to overcome struggles, and realize it's not an easy and instant process, where our faith may be tested.

In my experience, It's mainly just doubts sometimes of what I am doing, negative thoughts and all the psychic fatigue I get before doing my daily meditations. Also in around 1 month I haven't, and you mostly won't have, a BIG CLEAR SIGN from the Gods. Patiente is important, the only signs I had were dreams ( very abstract) and during my dedication the flame of my candle got EXTREMELY high and strong. This is the kind of things you should look out for, Satan gives value to Patience, you mostly won't see a clear sign of one of our Gods or Satan himself after dedication. You must realize it doesn't mean they are not looking out for you and following your progress.

THE ONLY PATH IS FORWARD.

Ave Satani

 

[spencerlfa]

Can be signs or just your subconcious .

--- In , "AdamD" <oblivions_nightmare@... wrote:

It's interesting to me that you mention having abstract dreams. I've yet to do the dedication, as I'm still in a state of deciding, but since I started researching on JoS and visiting this group, I've been having strange abstract dreams. You think this could be linked to me seriously considering the dedication ritual?

--- In , "spencerlfa" <igorbedzor@ wrote:

Hello brothers,

As a begginer and someone that is really dedicating my being to Father, I'd like to everyone come here and kinda talk about all the struggles you had when you first joined Satanism. I think it would be good so all the people that embraced Zevism lately can identify with this and feel motivated to overcome struggles, and realize it's not an easy and instant process, where our faith may be tested.

In my experience, It's mainly just doubts sometimes of what I am doing, negative thoughts and all the psychic fatigue I get before doing my daily meditations. Also in around 1 month I haven't, and you mostly won't have, a BIG CLEAR SIGN from the Gods. Patiente is important, the only signs I had were dreams ( very abstract) and during my dedication the flame of my candle got EXTREMELY high and strong. This is the kind of things you should look out for, Satan gives value to Patience, you mostly won't see a clear sign of one of our Gods or Satan himself after dedication. You must realize it doesn't mean they are not looking out for you and following your progress.

THE ONLY PATH IS FORWARD.

Ave Satani