On September 22, 2021, I almost died. There was no significant near-death vision or experience. But when I woke up in the hospital, I immediately saw this painting on a ceiling panel. Right away I thought, "Lilith...!?" Then I took the picture.
But at the same time... I am unsure if it is Lilith or instead Astarte. I just feel more drawn to Lilith because she is a patron of strong women and I am resilient enough. The thing is I am not as strong as I could possibly be. My emotions and intellect are strong, but my sensitivity cannot always deal with negativity. My stagnancy in life makes me feel I am unworthy of Lilith and the gods.
I have been dealing with the question of whether I am a Jewish soul or not. I wonder if the gods would even bother saving a Jewish soul from near-death. This goddess-like image that was by pure chance above me upon waking, it was a sign I have been waiting for.
Venus is prominent in my birth chart, but also somewhat afflicted. No matter what I go through, I'm always saved or things go in my favor. A psychic once told me before, there are two spirit guides I have: women, one strong and somewhat hot-headed, and the other woman is strong but wise and more relaxed. Now I am beginning to speculate if it can be both Lilith and Astarte. But originally I just assumed it's past life family members or present life deceased family members. The funny thing is I can switch either into strong assertiveness to stand up for someone (or) empathic, pacifistic maternal figure. Almost like I may well be channeling my spirit guides' natures.