I am a 27 year old veteran of the US Marine Corps, and it was during my service to this country that I discovered many truths and lies.
I signed up as a devout xian and super-patriot. And it was during training where I began to open my eyes. How they were transforming us to machines.
I was trained to disassemle and re-assemble my M-16 rifle in 90 seconds, eat a meal in no more than 2 minutes, shower in 2 mins, shave and brush my teeth in 2 mins. Marching in rank and file, memorizing songs and sayings--indoctrination, shooting, hand to hand combat--my actual favorite.
So with all that, I got to see the inner workings of the force that goes behind the empire. It disgusted me that I could be so deceived into being so devout. It made me sick to my stomach, I lost sleep, and eventually made it to the psyche ward so I could get out early at age 20.
Whine in my constant search for truth, I have considered expatriating to other countries. Any country. I had friends from Jamaica and considered going there with them, but they never left/went back. And now I consider France, Germany, Spain, Japan, and others.
My dominant race is Native North American and it is very visible in my red-brown skin and facial features, however, there has been race-mixing that occurred several generations ago on my mother and father's side with the Spanish. Mom's side--5 gens ago, Father's side--3 or more--kinda unknown.
I seek to have blessed offspring, free of defects such as autism, cerebral palsy, etc--which I have observed to occurr in children of mixed races. A half-bro of mine with cerebral palsy, where my father breeded with a woman of a different race, and no such defects in myself or full-blood siblings, whom are "more pure".
I didn't want to believe the issues about race-mixing, but more and more, I am finding sound advise in "sticking with ur own". It has been difficult for me because I am attracted to a certain race of women and tend to attract those women to myself. . . Now I am praying to Satan that if it is true, what is said by the HPs and others about race-mixing on JoS, to lead me to the path he would have me walk. To let me find ways to breed with my own and find my own as attractive and to let me attract my own. It is happening.
But I still have a great disgust with the country I was born in and used to feel so benevolent towards. This "xian nation" that now suffers as a direct result--in my opinion of their nasty anti-life beliefs and practices, as well as a curse to the way my ancestors were destroyed and removed from their lands. This is no longer the land of MY ancestors. It is a land that has become infected and cursed. And the only way to get relief from this pervasive disease is to get away from it.
If I am wrong, I hope to find out soon.
I imagine it might be better to be a part of a nation that is not so filled with the culture of violence and disrespect. I definitely don't want to raise MY future offspring in this type of culture. And I have even considered having surgery so I can prevent myself from having kids.
I haven't seen any JoS articles discussing the matter of choosing to not have kids or having the surgery done to do that. I'd like to reason that it's ok to not have kids since JoS doesn't have problems with same-gender couples.
I would post to JoS 666, but I find it difficult to relate to that group, as they seem noticeably younger and less mature than the individuals in this group.
I signed up as a devout xian and super-patriot. And it was during training where I began to open my eyes. How they were transforming us to machines.
I was trained to disassemle and re-assemble my M-16 rifle in 90 seconds, eat a meal in no more than 2 minutes, shower in 2 mins, shave and brush my teeth in 2 mins. Marching in rank and file, memorizing songs and sayings--indoctrination, shooting, hand to hand combat--my actual favorite.
So with all that, I got to see the inner workings of the force that goes behind the empire. It disgusted me that I could be so deceived into being so devout. It made me sick to my stomach, I lost sleep, and eventually made it to the psyche ward so I could get out early at age 20.
Whine in my constant search for truth, I have considered expatriating to other countries. Any country. I had friends from Jamaica and considered going there with them, but they never left/went back. And now I consider France, Germany, Spain, Japan, and others.
My dominant race is Native North American and it is very visible in my red-brown skin and facial features, however, there has been race-mixing that occurred several generations ago on my mother and father's side with the Spanish. Mom's side--5 gens ago, Father's side--3 or more--kinda unknown.
I seek to have blessed offspring, free of defects such as autism, cerebral palsy, etc--which I have observed to occurr in children of mixed races. A half-bro of mine with cerebral palsy, where my father breeded with a woman of a different race, and no such defects in myself or full-blood siblings, whom are "more pure".
I didn't want to believe the issues about race-mixing, but more and more, I am finding sound advise in "sticking with ur own". It has been difficult for me because I am attracted to a certain race of women and tend to attract those women to myself. . . Now I am praying to Satan that if it is true, what is said by the HPs and others about race-mixing on JoS, to lead me to the path he would have me walk. To let me find ways to breed with my own and find my own as attractive and to let me attract my own. It is happening.
But I still have a great disgust with the country I was born in and used to feel so benevolent towards. This "xian nation" that now suffers as a direct result--in my opinion of their nasty anti-life beliefs and practices, as well as a curse to the way my ancestors were destroyed and removed from their lands. This is no longer the land of MY ancestors. It is a land that has become infected and cursed. And the only way to get relief from this pervasive disease is to get away from it.
If I am wrong, I hope to find out soon.
I imagine it might be better to be a part of a nation that is not so filled with the culture of violence and disrespect. I definitely don't want to raise MY future offspring in this type of culture. And I have even considered having surgery so I can prevent myself from having kids.
I haven't seen any JoS articles discussing the matter of choosing to not have kids or having the surgery done to do that. I'd like to reason that it's ok to not have kids since JoS doesn't have problems with same-gender couples.
I would post to JoS 666, but I find it difficult to relate to that group, as they seem noticeably younger and less mature than the individuals in this group.