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i had a night mare , a terrible one , in my nightmares theirs a shadowing tall figure , in the corner of my room'in the dreams it sends me to the worst moments of my child hood or places in my child hood like my parents old house, in the dreams im aware im dreaming. but i cant wake up , everything is so real i cant tell whats a dream and whats not till i see it.after my night mare i woke up to whispering something saying im not through with you. now before my dream in my room i instantly feel sick and hot and weighed down like im being forced to sleep almost. but something in y mind or subconscious or just something told me draw your guardians sigil on your arm.
do it now and use a dark marker i did what my gut told me and then fell asleep.
I woke up my paintings were off the walls and bow ties were too every thing was disorderly
I feel like somthing is watching me and I dont like it
But in the dream I had I was with my mother
And this thing
Same thing from all the dreams I have
Grabbed my legs its nails dug into my skin me and my mother were sleeping on the couch in the dream.she is christain i wanted to yell lucifer will protect me, lucifer save me , and even hail satan at it. i wanted to use a spell on it , but it idk like in my mind i could hear it say your really going to yell that with your mother here? instead i did the unthinkable and i feel shame for it, i prayed , i started praying to the christain god in front of my mother in the dream it didnt do anything instead the thing laughed .
And it grabbed me started to pull me and I screamed for my mom but in the dream she was screaming too
Trying to hold onto me so it wouldn't take me
The sigiI i drew on my arm was in the dream on my arm but was burnt into my skin and I looked at it and Remember saying this is my dream .and this is my subconscious and your not going to do shit to me
the sigil of my guardian glowed and this thing was hurt badlly by it , cause when it glowed i saw a whisper of light attack it.and i heard a voice say it wont hurt you while im here. i thought i saw my guardians face turn to look at me while hovering over the now fucked up figure.
And the figure was pinned laughing it looked at the symbol on my arm and said its disrespectful to pray with that on your arm and gave me a cold smirk
and the look on my guardians face is haunting me cause when the figure said that i prayed to the false god my guardian looked at me with confusion and disappointment.
but i think he understood , but i feel like ive betrayed him , everytime ive summoned my guardian ive become close to him hes like the father figure ive never had,and he even told me why i daydream see visions somtimes and more. the figure before it went away said Ive been haunting you and you dont even know what religion you are.
It said your gonna pray to a god you dont believe in just because your mother is in your dream she's not even real .least I dint have to hide anything
My paintings fell off the walls my belongings were scattered
I don't feel well I feel burnt out
And my pet cat was hissing at my door
From where I was grabbed in the dream is bruised
The symbol on my arm is the symbol of IPos/anubis
My guardian demon
i now draw his sigil every night on my arm
but now every time i look at it i rember the look i saw on my guardians face ,did i betray him is father going to be mad at me. how can i redeem myself. i cant banish the figure ive tried everything nothing works
when im alone in my room and house i hear whispers say how can yourself a satanist now. the gods wont want you now. some one tell me what to do
do it now and use a dark marker i did what my gut told me and then fell asleep.
I woke up my paintings were off the walls and bow ties were too every thing was disorderly
I feel like somthing is watching me and I dont like it
But in the dream I had I was with my mother
And this thing
Same thing from all the dreams I have
Grabbed my legs its nails dug into my skin me and my mother were sleeping on the couch in the dream.she is christain i wanted to yell lucifer will protect me, lucifer save me , and even hail satan at it. i wanted to use a spell on it , but it idk like in my mind i could hear it say your really going to yell that with your mother here? instead i did the unthinkable and i feel shame for it, i prayed , i started praying to the christain god in front of my mother in the dream it didnt do anything instead the thing laughed .
And it grabbed me started to pull me and I screamed for my mom but in the dream she was screaming too
Trying to hold onto me so it wouldn't take me
The sigiI i drew on my arm was in the dream on my arm but was burnt into my skin and I looked at it and Remember saying this is my dream .and this is my subconscious and your not going to do shit to me
the sigil of my guardian glowed and this thing was hurt badlly by it , cause when it glowed i saw a whisper of light attack it.and i heard a voice say it wont hurt you while im here. i thought i saw my guardians face turn to look at me while hovering over the now fucked up figure.
And the figure was pinned laughing it looked at the symbol on my arm and said its disrespectful to pray with that on your arm and gave me a cold smirk
and the look on my guardians face is haunting me cause when the figure said that i prayed to the false god my guardian looked at me with confusion and disappointment.
but i think he understood , but i feel like ive betrayed him , everytime ive summoned my guardian ive become close to him hes like the father figure ive never had,and he even told me why i daydream see visions somtimes and more. the figure before it went away said Ive been haunting you and you dont even know what religion you are.
It said your gonna pray to a god you dont believe in just because your mother is in your dream she's not even real .least I dint have to hide anything
My paintings fell off the walls my belongings were scattered
I don't feel well I feel burnt out
And my pet cat was hissing at my door
From where I was grabbed in the dream is bruised
The symbol on my arm is the symbol of IPos/anubis
My guardian demon
i now draw his sigil every night on my arm
but now every time i look at it i rember the look i saw on my guardians face ,did i betray him is father going to be mad at me. how can i redeem myself. i cant banish the figure ive tried everything nothing works
when im alone in my room and house i hear whispers say how can yourself a satanist now. the gods wont want you now. some one tell me what to do
