Advice needed from brothers and sisters.

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I have for a long time been very dedicated with my daily power meditations etc. then beginning of September my work started getting slow and I started loosing clients. To make up for it I started advertising and promoting myself whilst doing spiritual work on the side (Runes, Squares and specific meditations) to enhance my actions. Nothing changed. I then increased my daily Kundalini Yoga practice to over 3hrs a day whilst doing my other spiritual work along side the yoga. Nothing changed. I started taking even more action in terms of PR and advertising, but nothing changed and things started going from bad to worse. I tried calling up Father, I tried calling upon my GD many, many times - no answer. I am now down to surviving on 1 client, there's no $$ coming in. The other week I finally hit the wall and thought; F*ck it! I stopped everything, power meditations, daily yoga , everything. I felt nothing was working and that all my actions were unappreciated. I felt very removed from Father and my GD - and I still feel that way. I have taken all the action but nothing has worked, I feel I'm about to give up. I try not to loose faith, but it's difficult when things around you aren't working accordingly to one's input of energy and effort. I get the impression that my own energy isn't enough to shift this situation, unsure what to do tbh. and my $$ have pretty much run out.

 

[ToZ Forum Contributions]

<var [/IMG]</var>You should probably use the saturn square more, you might simply be in a transit.

From: Lamia Sacerdos <lamiamortis@...
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Sent: Monday, December 12, 2011 11:07:53 AM
Subject: Re: Advice needed from brothers and sisters.

  well what exzactly is your job it might just be because depending on where your at its winter or summerthat and its getting close the the holiday season you have the winter solstice for some and hannaka and kawanza and then xmas and depending on the religion of you clients they probly are spending their money eles where becauseit is the holidays. dont feel withdrawn from father sometimes we just need a break beacuse as much as we try and we think we are listening we really arnt so just try taking a break from everything like a little vaca to reflect on the year and how much you have already changed and advanced and what you have done
From: "upbydawn@..." <upbydawn@...
To:
Sent: Thursday, December 8, 2011 12:26 PM
Subject: Advice needed from brothers and sisters.

  I have for a long time been very dedicated with my daily power meditations etc. then beginning of September my work started getting slow and I started loosing clients. To make up for it I started advertising and promoting myself whilst doing spiritual work on the side (Runes, Squares and specific meditations) to enhance my actions. Nothing changed. I then increased my daily Kundalini Yoga practice to over 3hrs a day whilst doing my other spiritual work along side the yoga. Nothing changed. I started taking even more action in terms of PR and advertising, but nothing changed and things started going from bad to worse. I tried calling up Father, I tried calling upon my GD many, many times - no answer. I am now down to surviving on 1 client, there's no $$ coming in. The other week I finally hit the wall and thought; F*ck it! I stopped everything, power meditations, daily yoga , everything. I felt nothing was working and that all my actions were unappreciated. I felt very removed from Father and my GD - and I still feel that way. I have taken all the action but nothing has worked, I feel I'm about to give up. I try not to loose faith, but it's difficult when things around you aren't working accordingly to one's input of energy and effort. I get the impression that my own energy isn't enough to shift this situation, unsure what to do tbh. and my $$ have pretty much run out.

 

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From: Forums Contributor You should probably use the saturn square more, you might simply be in a transit.

From: Lamia Sacerdos <lamiamortis@...
To:
Sent: Monday, December 12, 2011 11:07:53 AM
Subject: Re: Advice needed from brothers and sisters.

  well what exzactly is your job it might just be because depending on where your at its winter or summerthat and its getting close the the holiday season you have the winter solstice for some and hannaka and kawanza and then xmas and depending on the religion of you clients they probly are spending their money eles where becauseit is the holidays. dont feel withdrawn from father sometimes we just need a break beacuse as much as we try and we think we are listening we really arnt so just try taking a break from everything like a little vaca to reflect on the year and how much you have already changed and advanced and what you have done
From: "upbydawn@..." <upbydawn@...
To:
Sent: Thursday, December 8, 2011 12:26 PM
Subject: Advice needed from brothers and sisters.

  I have for a long time been very dedicated with my daily power meditations etc. then beginning of September my work started getting slow and I started loosing clients. To make up for it I started advertising and promoting myself whilst doing spiritual work on the side (Runes, Squares and specific meditations) to enhance my actions. Nothing changed. I then increased my daily Kundalini Yoga practice to over 3hrs a day whilst doing my other spiritual work along side the yoga. Nothing changed. I started taking even more action in terms of PR and advertising, but nothing changed and things started going from bad to worse. I tried calling up Father, I tried calling upon my GD many, many times - no answer. I am now down to surviving on 1 client, there's no $$ coming in. The other week I finally hit the wall and thought; F*ck it! I stopped everything, power meditations, daily yoga , everything. I felt nothing was working and that all my actions were unappreciated. I felt very removed from Father and my GD - and I still feel that way. I have taken all the action but nothing has worked, I feel I'm about to give up. I try not to loose faith, but it's difficult when things around you aren't working accordingly to one's input of energy and effort. I get the impression that my own energy isn't enough to shift this situation, unsure what to do tbh. and my $$ have pretty much run out.

 

[High Priestess Lydia Coventina]

HP Don has a very good point, I came to the conclusion that I am sabotaging myself too. I came across this affirmation on JoS, it can apply to anything: "I want and deserve the best for myself in every way that will bring happiness and joy into my life".

Hail Satan!

--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:

Also you might wanted to work on your unconscious mind you might acutally be handicapping your own efforts unconsciously. This happens more then people think due to the enemy influence over the centuries in society.



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Sent: Monday, December 12, 2011 1:30:39 PM
Subject: Re: Advice needed from brothers and sisters.


 
You should probably use the saturn square more, you might simply be in a transit.



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From: Lamia Sacerdos <lamiamortis@...
To:
Sent: Monday, December 12, 2011 11:07:53 AM
Subject: Re: Advice needed from brothers and sisters.


 
well what exzactly is your job it might just be because depending on where your at its winter or summerthat and its getting close the the holiday season you have the winter solstice for some and hannaka and kawanza and then xmas and depending on the religion of you clients they probly are spending their money eles where becauseit is the holidays. dont feel withdrawn from father sometimes we just need a break beacuse as much as we try and we think we are listening we really arnt so just try taking a break from everything like a little vaca to reflect on the year and how much you have already changed and advanced and what you have done


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From: "upbydawn@..." <upbydawn@...
To:
Sent: Thursday, December 8, 2011 12:26 PM
Subject: Advice needed from brothers and sisters.


 
I have for a long time been very dedicated with my daily power meditations etc. then beginning of September my work started getting slow and I started loosing clients. To make up for it I started advertising and promoting myself whilst doing spiritual work on the side (Runes, Squares and specific meditations) to enhance my actions. Nothing changed. I then increased my daily Kundalini Yoga practice to over 3hrs a day whilst doing my other spiritual work along side the yoga. Nothing changed. I started taking even more action in terms of PR and advertising, but nothing changed and things started going from bad to worse. I tried calling up Father, I tried calling upon my GD many, many times - no answer. I am now down to surviving on 1 client, there's no $$ coming in. The other week I finally hit the wall and thought; F*ck it! I stopped everything, power meditations, daily yoga , everything. I felt nothing was working and that all my actions were
unappreciated. I felt very removed from Father and my GD - and I still feel that way. I have taken all the action but nothing has worked, I feel I'm about to give up. I try not to loose faith, but it's difficult when things around you aren't working accordingly to one's input of energy and effort. I get the impression that my own energy isn't enough to shift this situation, unsure what to do tbh. and my $$ have pretty much run out.

 

[Mary Okaa]

I personally have nothing to contribute to your predicament, but I feel you, and I absolutely dread the feeling of being in dire need of response, but not getting it.

If this thread doesn't get replies, or at least a quality one, then I suggest you take this up directly to one of the Clergy personally (via direct email).

I really, truly wish you all the best.
Stay strong and adapt.
"Make Darwin proud." as I always say.

-Mary Okaa

--- In , "upbydawn@..." <upbydawn@... wrote:

I have for a long time been very dedicated with my daily power meditations etc. then beginning of September my work started getting slow and I started loosing clients. To make up for it I started advertising and promoting myself whilst doing spiritual work on the side (Runes, Squares and specific meditations) to enhance my actions. Nothing changed. I then increased my daily Kundalini Yoga practice to over 3hrs a day whilst doing my other spiritual work along side the yoga. Nothing changed. I started taking even more action in terms of PR and advertising, but nothing changed and things started going from bad to worse. I tried calling up Father, I tried calling upon my GD many, many times - no answer. I am now down to surviving on 1 client, there's no $$ coming in. The other week I finally hit the wall and thought; F*ck it! I stopped everything, power meditations, daily yoga , everything. I felt nothing was working and that all my actions were unappreciated. I felt very removed from Father and my GD - and I still feel that way. I have taken all the action but nothing has worked, I feel I'm about to give up. I try not to loose faith, but it's difficult when things around you aren't working accordingly to one's input of energy and effort. I get the impression that my own energy isn't enough to shift this situation, unsure what to do tbh. and my $$ have pretty much run out.

 

[Brian Gibbons]

Sounds like we both are going through a Saturn transit upbydawn.Everything in my life is very challenging right now too.Time to do not only standard ritual,and talk to Father about it all.But I think it is time to work another square too.Hail SatanBrian

From: "upbydawn@..." <upbydawn@...
To:
Sent: Thursday, December 8, 2011 12:26 PM
Subject: Advice needed from brothers and sisters.

  I have for a long time been very dedicated with my daily power meditations etc. then beginning of September my work started getting slow and I started loosing clients. To make up for it I started advertising and promoting myself whilst doing spiritual work on the side (Runes, Squares and specific meditations) to enhance my actions. Nothing changed. I then increased my daily Kundalini Yoga practice to over 3hrs a day whilst doing my other spiritual work along side the yoga. Nothing changed. I started taking even more action in terms of PR and advertising, but nothing changed and things started going from bad to worse. I tried calling up Father, I tried calling upon my GD many, many times - no answer. I am now down to surviving on 1 client, there's no $$ coming in. The other week I finally hit the wall and thought; F*ck it! I stopped everything, power meditations, daily yoga , everything. I felt nothing was working and that all my actions were unappreciated. I felt very removed from Father and my GD - and I still feel that way. I have taken all the action but nothing has worked, I feel I'm about to give up. I try not to loose faith, but it's difficult when things around you aren't working accordingly to one's input of energy and effort. I get the impression that my own energy isn't enough to shift this situation, unsure what to do tbh. and my $$ have pretty much run out.

 

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Thank you for the responses. I took a complete 4 week break from everything, my mind and body was exhausted from all the extra work and energy....couldn't even get myself to do my usual chakra cleaning. Father spoke to me in my dream this morning and I knew it was time to get back to my daily Power Meditations and Kundalini Yoga.

My situation has improved slightly thanks to someone else adding in a bit of magic on my behalf.

This little break has brought me even closer to Father.

Hail Satan!

--- In , "upbydawn@..." <upbydawn@... wrote:

I have for a long time been very dedicated with my daily power meditations etc. then beginning of September my work started getting slow and I started loosing clients. To make up for it I started advertising and promoting myself whilst doing spiritual work on the side (Runes, Squares and specific meditations) to enhance my actions. Nothing changed. I then increased my daily Kundalini Yoga practice to over 3hrs a day whilst doing my other spiritual work along side the yoga. Nothing changed. I started taking even more action in terms of PR and advertising, but nothing changed and things started going from bad to worse. I tried calling up Father, I tried calling upon my GD many, many times - no answer. I am now down to surviving on 1 client, there's no $$ coming in. The other week I finally hit the wall and thought; F*ck it! I stopped everything, power meditations, daily yoga , everything. I felt nothing was working and that all my actions were unappreciated. I felt very removed from Father and my GD - and I still feel that way. I have taken all the action but nothing has worked, I feel I'm about to give up. I try not to loose faith, but it's difficult when things around you aren't working accordingly to one's input of energy and effort. I get the impression that my own energy isn't enough to shift this situation, unsure what to do tbh. and my $$ have pretty much run out.