a little help would be greatly appreciated

[kylexcannon]

I've been a satanist for about 4 months now and am very pleased that ive gone down the left hand path. and second, i have a couple issues i need help with resolving.
fist off, im not sure if my dedication ritual worked or not, i am not yet 18 were i can do the ritual freely, but i tried it once a couple of months ago and the thing is im not sure if it worked or not. to further exlpain, i pricked my finger to write in blood, and i got a pen which i thought was dry to do it, but it turned out to be a fully loaded RED ink pen, i did dip the pen in my blood to write my name down though. so you can see how im a little confused about this. Did it work? will it be an insult if i try it again?

and second. I have been working on my astral senses for the past 2.5 months and i know that i have actually talked to Father once or twice. But after a while i noticed that communication became really really easy, and last night, the person i thought i was talking to telepathically told me that he and everyone else you've been talking to recently is a figment of my subconscious mind, arisen from my desire to communicate with the astral. How can i fix this? does that mean im a schitzo kid? is this an insult to satan and his demons? This has really done a mind job on me, i feel like i cant trust my astral senses to tell whats real and whats not.

so any help, specific meditations?
thanks
Ave Satanas

 

[shadowprometheus666]

1. Did you actually read the dedication? Yes, it works...it mean, to paraphrase it says "you don't have to do it exactly like this, it's whats in the heart that counts." I don't know why so many people second-guess their dedication.

2. You're not schitzo...in fact, having doubts about these things is what seperates us from the schitzos. There is always the chance that an imposter told you that you were communicating with yourself, though I don't know if this is truly the case. Don't worry though, the most important thing is to continue with basic meditations. Perhaps some nice, quiet void meditation would be nice.

-Dominic Wolfheart
HS/HL

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "kylexcannon" <kylexcannon@... wrote:

I've been a satanist for about 4 months now and am very pleased that ive gone down the left hand path. and second, i have a couple issues i need help with resolving.
fist off, im not sure if my dedication ritual worked or not, i am not yet 18 were i can do the ritual freely, but i tried it once a couple of months ago and the thing is im not sure if it worked or not. to further exlpain, i pricked my finger to write in blood, and i got a pen which i thought was dry to do it, but it turned out to be a fully loaded RED ink pen, i did dip the pen in my blood to write my name down though. so you can see how im a little confused about this. Did it work? will it be an insult if i try it again?

and second. I have been working on my astral senses for the past 2.5 months and i know that i have actually talked to Father once or twice. But after a while i noticed that communication became really really easy, and last night, the person i thought i was talking to telepathically told me that he and everyone else you've been talking to recently is a figment of my subconscious mind, arisen from my desire to communicate with the astral. How can i fix this? does that mean im a schitzo kid? is this an insult to satan and his demons? This has really done a mind job on me, i feel like i cant trust my astral senses to tell whats real and whats not.

so any help, specific meditations?
thanks
Ave Satanas