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Kamron Walton

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I have faith that what is written in plain sight on the Joy of Satan website is absolutely true. I see no flaw in the methods but I do see a flaw in myself. I'm so incompetent that I absolutely hate myself! I can't possibly be worthy to Father. It's not possible for me to progress as I am but to get to where I need to be I must progress. It's so confusing and frustrating that I don't know how I'm still trying
 
There are times when I doubt myself. My self-esteem and faith in myself isn't where I'd like it to be. I understand that building oneself takes time, and doesn't happen overnight. What matters is that you start and keep at it, daily. 
No one is perfect. But I don't believe that you are completely incompetent. Don't be so hard on yourself. There's only one of you to go around and you ARE of worth to Satan and the Gods of Hell. They already see this, but it may take some time for you to see it and believe it, and in yourself, too.Satan drew you to him, and still does; you dedicated, right? Already you  are on a higher level than the rest of the people who are without, because you know the truth, you meditate.
I find that these exercises below helped with my mood. Are you doing these daily?


Returning Curses [/TD] [/TR] [/TABLE]
http://dawn666blacksun.angelfire.com/1-2-17.htm


On Monday, May 22, 2017 5:50 AM, "Kamron Walton waltonkamron99@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  I have faith that what is written in plain sight on the Joy of Satan website is absolutely true. I see no flaw in the methods but I do see a flaw in myself. I'm so incompetent that I absolutely hate myself! I can't possibly be worthy to Father. It's not possible for me to progress as I am but to get to where I need to be I must progress. It's so confusing and frustrating that I don't know how I'm still trying

 
Appears you are suffering from years and years of feeling you can't be what is expected of you.
That is something you need to get over. Father is interested in sincerity! If your heart is in the
right place, and you sincerely and truly want to be a Spiritual Satanist, that is what counts.


Don't ever let anyone tell you that you aren't worthy. And most of all don't tell yourself that!
As one of Father Satan's children you will grow to respect yourself and learn that you DO
have a place! You have a place with Father Satan! Now start studying, meditating, and
learning, and Father Satan and the Gods will help you all along the way.


Hail Father Satan/Lucifer!


Sims


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On Sun, 5/21/17, Kamron Walton waltonkamron99@... [JoyofSatan666] <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:


Subject: [JoyofSatan666] A flaw
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Sunday, May 21, 2017, 5:26 PM


 










I have faith that what is written in plain sight on
the Joy of Satan website is absolutely true. I see no flaw
in the methods but I do see a flaw in myself. I'm so
incompetent that I absolutely hate myself! I can't
possibly be worthy to Father. It's not possible for me
to progress as I am but to get to where I need to be I must
progress. It's so confusing and frustrating that I
don't know how I'm still trying










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Thank you I am dedicated to Father but I'm hard on myself because of the urgency of the situation the world and we are in. I want to be able to contribute greatly someday. 
On Mon, May 22, 2017 at 10:44 AM, Magus Immortalis magus.immortalis@... [JoyofSatan666]<[email protected] wrote:   There are times when I doubt myself. My self-esteem and faith in myself isn't where I'd like it to be. I understand that building oneself takes time, and doesn't happen overnight. What matters is that you start and keep at it, daily. 
No one is perfect. But I don't believe that you are completely incompetent. Don't be so hard on yourself. There's only one of you to go around and you ARE of worth to Satan and the Gods of Hell. They already see this, but it may take some time for you to see it and believe it, and in yourself, too.Satan drew you to him, and still does; you dedicated, right? Already you  are on a higher level than the rest of the people who are without, because you know the truth, you meditate.
I find that these exercises below helped with my mood. Are you doing these daily?


Returning Curses [/TD][/TR][/TABLE]
http://dawn666blacksun.angelfire.com/1-2-17.htm


On Monday, May 22, 2017 5:50 AM, "Kamron Walton waltonkamron99@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  I have faith that what is written in plain sight on the Joy of Satan website is absolutely true. I see no flaw in the methods but I do see a flaw in myself. I'm so incompetent that I absolutely hate myself! I can't possibly be worthy to Father. It's not possible for me to progress as I am but to get to where I need to be I must progress. It's so confusing and frustrating that I don't know how I'm still trying
 
You want to be great, and you feel this way because you are not living to the realization of the greatest heights you have set for yourself.

Realize there is a reciprocal relationship between the individual and our movement at large which you can claim pride from. When you see all that we accomplish you can bask in that glory as well because you were a part of that. Even if today you aren't where you want to be, our movement is accomplishing great things that you helped create. And later when you are stronger you fuel this movement at large with your new found higher capabilites.

Draw strength and glory from the movement, and give back to that movement according to your abilities. The gifts of National Socialism flow from the strength of the individual towards the movement, and from the strength of the movement towards the individual.

Realize this and you will always be happy in your place along your path. See this reciprocity and be content as long as you are moving forward, because ANY advance you make advances the whole as well as yourself.

National Socialism is not an individual sport.There is a bigger picture to see.
 
@kamron & others feeling *unworthy*
Feeling unworthy, depression and lacking the self confidence needed for positive SS advancement is common among new Spiritual Satanists.
All these ills can be fixed through daily meditation. This we know. However, when one is feeling really down on themselves it is difficult to meditate consistently. 
There is help! The problem you are experiencing is twofold. Let me explain.
1- Dealing with enemy attacksDealing with Enemy Attacks/Spiritual Entities : JoyofSatan666 [/TD] [/TR] [/TABLE] [/TD] [/TR] [TR] [TD] [/TD] [/TR] [/TABLE] [/TD] [/TR] [/TABLE]
One of the problems is that the enemy wants you back. Until you complete the magnum opus the enemy will still have a chance to keep your soul. They think! So you must deal with the enemy attacks. 
Johnson Akemi published a great explaination and workings to deal with the enemy on a daily basis. Believe me, once you get the hang of it and *see* the enemy *sizzle or run*, it can actually be fun!
2- Saturn is the scapegoat for all things bad that happen to Gentiles. Some of the time this claim is justified. Most of the time we help the negatives get worse. Through joo-poo programming we perpetuate the erroneous philosophy that Gentiles are *worthless goy cattle*. This must be programmed out of us.
Ms Lydia published a perfect explanation and workings to rid us of this negativity. How to Obliterate Your Saturn : JoyofSatan666 [/TD] [/TR] [/TABLE] [/TD] [/TR] [TR] [TD] [/TD] [/TR] [/TABLE] [/TD] [/TR] [/TABLE]
Don't forget to continue your AoPs, the chakra cleansing and the RTRs. 
Hail SatanHail Lilith
Dehna
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On Mon, May 22, 2017 at 5:55 PM, Sims336 simsmotal@... [JoyofSatan666]<[email protected] wrote:   Appears you are suffering from years and years of feeling you can't be what is expected of you.
That is something you need to get over. Father is interested in sincerity! If your heart is in the
right place, and you sincerely and truly want to be a Spiritual Satanist, that is what counts.

Don't ever let anyone tell you that you aren't worthy. And most of all don't tell yourself that!
As one of Father Satan's children you will grow to respect yourself and learn that you DO
have a place! You have a place with Father Satan! Now start studying, meditating, and
learning, and Father Satan and the Gods will help you all along the way.

Hail Father Satan/Lucifer!

Sims

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On Sun, 5/21/17, Kamron Walton waltonkamron99@... [JoyofSatan666] <[email protected] wrote:

Subject: [JoyofSatan666] A flaw
To: [email protected]
Date: Sunday, May 21, 2017, 5:26 PM


 









I have faith that what is written in plain sight on
the Joy of Satan website is absolutely true. I see no flaw
in the methods but I do see a flaw in myself. I'm so
incompetent that I absolutely hate myself! I can't
possibly be worthy to Father. It's not possible for me
to progress as I am but to get to where I need to be I must
progress. It's so confusing and frustrating that I
don't know how I'm still trying




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@kamron. Ref being hard on yourself
How to Obliterate Your Saturn : JoyofSatan666 [/TD] [/TR] [/TABLE] [/TD] [/TR] [TR] [TD] [/TD] [/TR] [/TABLE] [/TD] [/TR] [/TABLE]
This is Ms Lydia's meditation to cure self hatred and being too hard on self.
Try it! You'll love the results!
HS88

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On Mon, May 22, 2017 at 5:55 PM, Kamron Walton waltonkamron99@... [JoyofSatan666]<[email protected] wrote:   Thank you I am dedicated to Father but I'm hard on myself because of the urgency of the situation the world and we are in. I want to be able to contribute greatly someday. 
  There are times when I doubt myself. My self-esteem and faith in myself isn't where I'd like it to be. I understand that building oneself takes time, and doesn't happen overnight. What matters is that you start and keep at it, daily. 
No one is perfect. But I don't believe that you are completely incompetent. Don't be so hard on yourself. There's only one of you to go around and you ARE of worth to Satan and the Gods of Hell. They already see this, but it may take some time for you to see it and believe it, and in yourself, too.Satan drew you to him, and still does; you dedicated, right? Already you  are on a higher level than the rest of the people who are without, because you know the truth, you meditate.
I find that these exercises below helped with my mood. Are you doing these daily?


Returning Curses [/TD][/TR][/TABLE]
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On Monday, May 22, 2017 5:50 AM, "Kamron Walton waltonkamron99@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  I have faith that what is written in plain sight on the Joy of Satan website is absolutely true. I see no flaw in the methods but I do see a flaw in myself. I'm so incompetent that I absolutely hate myself! I can't possibly be worthy to Father. It's not possible for me to progress as I am but to get to where I need to be I must progress. It's so confusing and frustrating that I don't know how I'm still trying
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Shaitan

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