Other #80810 Burnout and Zevism

[Ask Satya Operator]

Greetings to all,

Years ago, when I was initiated into Zeus, I was very young and excited. I knew nothing about life and didn't interact much with people. I was living in a fantasy world. I thought life was all about fairies, fun, and crystals. My only concern was losing a few more pounds and buying the dress I wanted. I enjoyed talking to Zevists and doing RTR.

When I first started meditating, I would jot down those magical moments when I witnessed the gods' miracles and relive the excitement for days on end. After a while, everything started to feel very ordinary, and nothing was as fascinating as it used to be.

Now I realize that I haven't visited the forums in over a year and have distanced myself quite a bit from the gods. For the past two years, I've been going through a truly difficult time; my life has been turned upside down in every way. Of course, my intention isn't to make excuses to justify drifting away from the gods, but I struggled greatly to find them while I was lost. During this time, I made promises to them time and again but failed to keep them and acted disrespectfully.

I've been in two relationships where I was heavily manipulated-relationships that came between me and the gods and pushed me away from them. I watched myself fade away day by day, yet I was so deeply attached that I couldn't bear being blamed by him. I was certain of the gods' existence; I never fully denied it, but l'm convinced my initiation is no longer valid. I want to recommit, but I can't find my old courage or my old excitement. I don't want to be tied to forums; I don't feel like I belong here.

I can feel the strength of my spirit fading, but I don't know how I can be the same as I used to be in this state.
While I'm so attached to the material world, how can I find my way back to you?

Thanks

 

[High Priestess Lydia]

I also didn't feel like I belonged in the forums, but the Gods kept telling me to participate here. And now I feel like this is my Home Perhaps the same will happen for you. Community is very important, and these forums are our community. Being active here will also help you feel more connected to our Gods, as we hold each other accountable in our Path.

You can also join our Temple chat on VT platform and participate in group rituals for the Gods, held at least 5 times through the day/night by Clergy, SGs, and TGs.

Virtue 4: Society

 

[Epiphany]

Thia is a step in the right direction. Your heart calls for community despite the feelings that try to convince you otherwise. I also had feelings of being out of place and not belonging for a very long time, here and beyond. I don't have as much enthusiasm for participating anymore, but I still read when I can.

 

[Epiphany]

I accidentally posted the last one before I was ready.

There is no downside to participating in the community and I think it would be healing and revitalizing for you. Your perspective is worth sharing for the reason that it's unique to you. Your dedication is still valid, the Gods understand if you make mistakes or stumble along the way but you are still on the path despite this. It's up to you to pick yourself up and move forward, we are here and the Gods are here for you when you're ready to stand up and take the next step.