AskSatanOperator
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I'll continue with this thread(https://ancient-forums.com/threads/...tacks-i-dont-know-how-long-can-i-last.300587/), but I'll complain here for the last time.The problem mentioned in this thread is still not solved.In addition, I'm starting to feel that I really can't take it, because I think I'm starting to get burnout symptoms (strong palpitations and dizziness). And no, I do 5 or 7 rituals a day not because it is so good for me or because I have the time, but because I feel I have no choice.Of course I would be happiest if I didn't have to do so many rituals. I've tried to do fewer Rituals, but if I don't do so many Protecting God Rituals, the negativity is so unbearable that I literally break down and feel indescribably bad. However, now I'm almost attacked with lethargy(one of the worst, I can almost write back the anxiety and intrusive thoughts, LOL), but with this lethargy and feeling of weakness too excruciatingly.Sometimes with unexplained nervousness and intense tension, too.
When I participated in the Group Rituals Schedule, it only intensified what I just described, so I no longer participate in the Group Rituals Schedules anymore unfortunately, to give myself a chance.
In addition, my parents are angry with me (mostly my father) because they think I don't do anything, I don't take part in any work (I work whit my father and he is my employer). Because I have to go to clean, protect and do rituals all the time.If I don't do it, the negativity is unbearable.
They hardly let me sleep because they wear me out, all I feel is that my heart beats harder and my pulse increases.I thought it must be the "overload" but as soon as I do a Ritual I can go back to sleep for about 2 hours.But now I have to do 2-3 Rituals because one Ritual is not enough. Anyway, when I was first attacked at night, I would just pray Zeus and the attack would stop, but now I have to do at least 2 Rituals to even stop the enemy attack and go back to sleep.But as soon as I wake up, it starts all over again...
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The only thing I don't understand is why Zeus, my Guardian and the Gods allow this????
I'm trying to understand what it is that is giving me this or why I have earned this for myself to be so harshly and over exposed to the enemy????
Where can I look for answers and how can I understand my situation?Would the Gods punish me because I did something wrong?Maybe I am a Jew?But I wouldn't think I am a Jew, because when I used to do a lot of RTRs, I always felt so good from RTRs and the feeling of bliss that came from RTRs was indescribable.
I really don't understand, but I VERY really want to understand this agonizing situation I am going through.What else can I do for myself besides these things to make it better? Or would that be the end for me???
I don't want to see what so many people have misread, that I used the wrong Runes to protect myself, or that I am just imagining it, BECAUSE AS I SAY, ONLY PROTECTION AND RITUALS ARE THE SOLUTION.BUT ONLY UNTIL NOW.AND IF THAT HAPPENS THEN I CAN BURN OUT OR I CAN BE NEGATIVITED/CURSES.
When I participated in the Group Rituals Schedule, it only intensified what I just described, so I no longer participate in the Group Rituals Schedules anymore unfortunately, to give myself a chance.
In addition, my parents are angry with me (mostly my father) because they think I don't do anything, I don't take part in any work (I work whit my father and he is my employer). Because I have to go to clean, protect and do rituals all the time.If I don't do it, the negativity is unbearable.
They hardly let me sleep because they wear me out, all I feel is that my heart beats harder and my pulse increases.I thought it must be the "overload" but as soon as I do a Ritual I can go back to sleep for about 2 hours.But now I have to do 2-3 Rituals because one Ritual is not enough. Anyway, when I was first attacked at night, I would just pray Zeus and the attack would stop, but now I have to do at least 2 Rituals to even stop the enemy attack and go back to sleep.But as soon as I wake up, it starts all over again...
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The only thing I don't understand is why Zeus, my Guardian and the Gods allow this????
I'm trying to understand what it is that is giving me this or why I have earned this for myself to be so harshly and over exposed to the enemy????
Where can I look for answers and how can I understand my situation?Would the Gods punish me because I did something wrong?Maybe I am a Jew?But I wouldn't think I am a Jew, because when I used to do a lot of RTRs, I always felt so good from RTRs and the feeling of bliss that came from RTRs was indescribable.
I really don't understand, but I VERY really want to understand this agonizing situation I am going through.What else can I do for myself besides these things to make it better? Or would that be the end for me???
I don't want to see what so many people have misread, that I used the wrong Runes to protect myself, or that I am just imagining it, BECAUSE AS I SAY, ONLY PROTECTION AND RITUALS ARE THE SOLUTION.BUT ONLY UNTIL NOW.AND IF THAT HAPPENS THEN I CAN BURN OUT OR I CAN BE NEGATIVITED/CURSES.