Please post this to the actual thread.
To user #purplered , Don't you tell me what I fucking need or not , are you fucking serious ? The same system that fucks you and everyone else up , yea sure , I should call upon the jew Gov's for help to give me usless pills , wake up you ... whatever.
#HPS Lydia, just once , when I had to release myself after a relationship , I tried killing myself twice and the detach worked like wonders but nothing more then that and I understand what are you saying about relasing the Mars energy and so on , but I think this is more 'serious' towards a Plutonic way.
I have concluded , altough some things are at their time I ain't gonna wait until 31 years old to meet my wife at a pool , it will be TOO LATE, TOO FUCKING LATE.
I will try go out and scream my lungs out until I pass out, see if that helps , if not, I have decided , this will be certanly be my last year on this planet , sooner then latest December , my life has been crap , worse than Tartarus , Il send myself there willingly or even worse 'whatever destryoed'
Important : This is my LAST! 'Begging' for help , I don't know what ritual to do , Baal or Satan's or Both , but as for what I had my in mind for so long I think I have been may be left be over by the God's and for this I do not judge, I have had enough , in my 'mind' this 'life' can't be worse then already is , Il do it 10000x worse , il do the ULTIMATUM act , the worst act/acts. It will be very influencial so to say at least.
I don't know what to do anymore, I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't do jackshit. Yes , I will be happier with a wife/gf , when? Where the fuck , never, time has past , the many years have been nearly got me gone entierly , I want to at least be couscinesss of my last acts , Hail the God's and I am sorry that They have helped me , I doubt I deserved Their attention , I don't judge Their actions I am just juding myself by myself , I have enough , people bitchin about my desparation and problems , let's see who bitchin when life hits ,ha? Let's fucking see. FUCK IT