I want to be self-excluded from this forum, from this group, I simply don't want it anymore. I'm fed up. All I have to do is stop this once and for all. I've been struggling with these meditations for too long that bring me absolutely nothing. I don't want to be part of this community anymore.
Nobody said our path was easy, but you had written many posts here and before, which I had to delete, where you are directly blaming the Gods for your own problems. We on ToZ, or the Gods themselves, can help you if you continue to ask and apply, but when you attack and threaten to become a Christian, you gain nothing and anger everyone who tried to help you.
You had written directly negative things about the Gods, this is like blasphemy at a point. You just said here and in another post that you gambled all your money away, but somehow this is Zeus's fault and not your own.
Don't do this again or you will be banned, and probably should be already.
Nobody is forcing you to be here, so do not come here and also try to drag everyone down with negativity as well.
To improve in certain goals, you need to apply your spiritual powers through workings and other physical efforts. None of these changes happen overnight.
If you wish to quickly get back on your feet, do the ritual of a God like Baalzebul and ask him to empower you to win.