Hi. I've been dedicated for a while now. I am heartbroken, I am on probation for something I didn't do, I am in a low paying dead end job and can't find a better one, I am in debt, my life is an overall mess and I just can't take it anymore. 4 years ago I sobered up, and got a job. My ex died, so I got back on nicotine, a few months later I manned up and moved out, and for a few years I was fine on my own. I got a new girlfriend girlfriend a couple of years later, and she beat the shit out of me and flipped the script and put me in jail. A year later, I got into a very happy relationship, very intimate, made me feel loved, my job stopped paying as well, i moved back in with my grandparents, and I can't get one anywhere. Few months later, good girlfriend ghosts me out of nowhere. Long term healthy happy relationship cut off out of nowhere. This was recent. What ive been doing to fix it: cleansing the hell out of my aura and chakras. Rituals to advance Satan's will. Picked up a rise philosophy where I try to do better every single day. I tell myself "pain brings wisdom" and been learning from it. The thing is, with all the advancement, rituals, workings, and everything else, I am getting absolutely nowhere. This years of struggling for nothing. No matter how clean I keep my soul, no matter how much I advance, no matter how much magick or hard work I put in, shit just gets worse and worse. I haven't asked for help, in all my years, stubbornly wanting to achieve on my own. Today, I put my pride down, and come to you, my brothers and sisters, and ask in sincerity for guidance, for advice, for redirection. To be shown where to put my efforts. I ask you, show me how to struggle properly, and help me rise from this misery so I may be a better Satanist.