slyscorpion said:
The Gods are that much forgiving? Although what I've done was a result of anger and resignation, it does not excuse me. I'd never do such things if this curse or whatever it is didn't happen, I'm fully sure about this. I regret it. The more time has passed the more I realise how horrible it was to do so from my side.
What you wrote about that viccan is scary. In my eyes that had to be a powerful curse. Like a fatum, some sort of a bad predestination was brought upon her. To be honest it's exactly what I'd love to do to the viccan who's messed me up.
I've never been into occult before, so it's unlikely what is happening is partly because my actions. And I'm afraid I'm not able to leave past in the past - because my past was beautiful and the current is pathetic.
Yes, I don't think this being has bad intentions. What it does is comforting and I can even say that it gives me a hope of some kind. That something big may happen soon. That everything will be alright. It's actions don't make me feel worse.
It's possible it may be part of a christian programming. My belief in christianity was strong back then. Thinking about it now, I even started to pray with quite exhausting prayers not long before it all happened. But was it really it? If it didn't happen I'd probably still be a christian. What happened started my great rebelion against christianity and you know the rest. Was it what the enemy wanted?
This reply of yours really cheer me up, thank you for it.
Stormblood said:
I'm no moderator here but I can tell you everyone is on moderation here, except moderators. So, do not take it personally.
No, I don't take it personally. No

I just wanted to be able to reply faster, that's all. But if everyone is under moderation here then I understand.
deadman s whisper said:
Maybe she is weak or powerful but I can say based on my experiences with them(non-spiritualists magicians), enemy can see her and you, they know you are close to truth and gain experience from this 5 year battle when you recover you are a problem them too. Probably they helped her and continue to fuck your life. If you fight for satan of course satan and gods want to help you you are tired need recover and you are angry them for what they/her done to you, make a decision and get your revenge
I appreciate your support, guys

All of you.