I don't know if this is Mercury:Rx or whatever. I knew joining the forums was
HUGE mistake even my desire to join ProPHP was blunted by me learning stuff(like SuttraPutran(Fire2U) finger pad counting method). But it seems the more I learn the more questions pop up.
I'm simply a person who is like 99% of the people out in the World. They are NPCs they walk around thinking and fantasizing about a better life or doing whatever in their mind. Same for me I'm just thinking, processing, talking to myself, fantasizing, and generally using my mind how every single person in the World does it. Unless I'm wrong and people don't do this and I'm the only person in the World using my mind like this.
Sheer fact is it seems on this forum. Everyone is a wizard a gigaweapon and they are the ultimate representation in Human dynamics. It seems that the emperor wears no clothes here and that they are perfected beyond words.
Sarcasm aside is everyone in here some sort of master meditator?
I've been wanting to astral project maybe as an act to have fun maybe an act to probe into the World and prove what is going on here. Not beyond reasonable proof just reasonable proof. Like the X-files memetics "I want to believe".
I don't know I've been at this since I've been on the internet '99 and before that in the early-mid 90s learning spiritual things and processing things and simply probably been in the occult most of my life maybe like 89% of my life is steeped in the occult since '93/'94 pretty much and again '99/'00s with the internet. I don't know if it's learned helpless or whatever. But I just learn about this stuff and contemplate it. Do you really expect me to do this? When I sit down and go I want to practice this stuff it's like UGH not more crap that I have to do and learn and process.
I mean I meditate thinking. I sit down surround myself with a solar ball clean my soul and I'm just there thinking and processing in and out of meditation. Hell within seconds I forget I'm cleaning with a solar ball surrounding me.
I'm just a normal thinker. I'm just a person who doesn't understand meditation. I get what I read but it's simply a mental curiosity. I just want to prove this stuff. I sit down and do the trance training I've never even proven trance. Hell is trance yet another meditation. I see these people on youtube or read about people teaching and practicing trance. And it's like why are you altering your state for a while simply to do it. If people are saying trance has metaphysical application then why are they trancing for the sake of trancing.
Either way I really don't know how to reply. I'm lazy okay cool how is that a bad thing. Most people in the World have laziness or are acting lazy or doing lazy things. If I don't have feelings of not wanting to do stuff. Why would I do it? Why do people do things without feeling. If you do stuff without feeling and do it are people just robots? Is my childhood self as far back as 7 years old saying to my parents I'm just a robot and they reply why cause I do things without feelings. I just go to school which I hated and be a robot.
I'm not a robot but also...
...How am I different from 99% of the people out there?
Again like I said joining the forums was a mistake. I checked myself off with ProPHP wanting to join and later with A-Forums when I made my account and was mass banned my Mageson. I created my current account.
Maybe I should have just remained a lurker and contemplate people's responses and simply think it over. Unable to post questions as I don't want to join the forums going okay well I guess this is life just carry on. Maybe like my usual life motto I'm just an observer I simply process and think and pass the time contemplating stuff. Not my fault I'm just a deep thinker.
I guess I should have followed the advice I've been saying since about 10 or 11 when it just popped into my head.
I'm like this, this, and that and people state so. "Oh well better luck next life".
Maybe in my next life I'll have better luck. Maybe I can finally meditate properly and do the proper procedures to actually meditate. Or I just end up the same just passing by life existing for the sake of existing just simply contemplating life.
Like I said joining the forums was a
huge mistake.
Aquarius said:
You have given all the proof about why you're an andrapod. All you have said in so many paragraphs is: "I have been a lazy fuck all my life and I don't want to change that".
And no, the Gods won't come to your house and take you to their planet and teach you to meditate, that's just a delusion of yours, you simply don't understand the Gods and what it entails to actually meet them
physically.
Have YOU met or been around the Gods physically?
Has a vimana(flying saucer) from some place on Earth come to your house? Oh Mr.Aquarius how you doing we are here to contact you and show you cool stuff we have beings of higher power at our base not ultra-high ranking but not lower-ranking either some pretty bad ass people.