Okay, so, I'll preface this by saying that I'm pretty new to Satanism. I've never been one for the Xian church and found myself more drawn to peaceful Wiccan practices as I was growing up. However, that magic, while comforting and easy to handle, just isn't giving me the answers I need, nor the strength to persue my questions. When I was just getting into the swing of Wiccan magic, I must have been around 12 so this was a good 7 or 8 years ago, I had the strangest dream ever. I woke up and my room was filled with a soft light, kind of like the light from a sunset, and at the foot of my bed there was standing a winged man who looked to be in his early twenties. I remember feeling the strangest swelling of pure joy at seeing him. It wasnt like I knew him or that I felt we were familiar but I just knew that he was someone I should feel happy at getting to meet and just his presence made me giddy. I immediately sprang from the bed and ran over to embrace him. His hair was relatively long and i remember being curious about his eyes because they were hidden under his bangs. Here's where I feel like it wasn't really a dream. To this day I still remember the feel of his skin against my cheek when I hugged him and the feel of his hair when I pushed aside his bangs to see his eyes. After this point he looked over my shoulder and his expression changed to something like regret and he told me he had to leave me now but promised we would meet again someday. Then he was just gone. And when I woke up, I felt like some very soft, very dark blanket was slowly pulled off my face and body and I was coming back from somewhere far away. Never before or after that night have I ever experienced anything like that.
So here's where the questions come in. Satanism piqued my interest because of how closely this man seemed to match some of the descriptions of the Goetic demons. He was tall and very beautiful, almost Egyptian looking, with glossy black wings and hair, and the most striking turquoise eyes I've ever seen. So I'm wondering of any of you all have any suggestions for me on finding this being. I feel like we are supposed to meet again, but I feel kind of like the ball is in my court on this one. Like, he made the first move and now it's my turn. I'm not sure why he came to me or what he wants. But I am determined to find him again, no matter what it takes. So guys, does his appearence ring a bell with any beings you've encountered? Or maybe you have some idea of where I should start?
So here's where the questions come in. Satanism piqued my interest because of how closely this man seemed to match some of the descriptions of the Goetic demons. He was tall and very beautiful, almost Egyptian looking, with glossy black wings and hair, and the most striking turquoise eyes I've ever seen. So I'm wondering of any of you all have any suggestions for me on finding this being. I feel like we are supposed to meet again, but I feel kind of like the ball is in my court on this one. Like, he made the first move and now it's my turn. I'm not sure why he came to me or what he wants. But I am determined to find him again, no matter what it takes. So guys, does his appearence ring a bell with any beings you've encountered? Or maybe you have some idea of where I should start?
