What the f%ck is happening

[ShadowW]

Everything seemed to be going my way for a bit......now it seems like it's all veering towards reversal......there's been this black fucking cloud over me since Tuesaday,like I've been so upset that I can barely focus on Satan or the demons trying to tell me shit....I even felt angry at Satan even though I know there's no use in that cause even if he won't give me exactly what I'm asking he's still better than anything else i ever worshipped......but I can barely stop being pissy and angry for 5 minutes as of late.......and I kept having randomn thoughts like hgow I can't wait to die and shit,which is odd cause I was enjoying life up untill Tuesday......Do you think somehow someone or something sent me the black cloud.......I thought after I did a ritual and cleansed my aura and shit that it would go away but it's still here.......and I keep having other weird feelings like I feel pissed that Satan even bothered putting me here (cause i know he did for some reason) and shit..........So like WTF should I do with myself to get over this?........shadowwhispr

 

[restoredinea]

Is it still bothering you?

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "ShadowW" <shadowwhispr7@... wrote:

Everything seemed to be going my way for a bit......now it seems like it's all veering towards reversal......there's been this black fucking cloud over me since Tuesaday,like I've been so upset that I can barely focus on Satan or the demons trying to tell me shit....I even felt angry at Satan even though I know there's no use in that cause even if he won't give me exactly what I'm asking he's still better than anything else i ever worshipped......but I can barely stop being pissy and angry for 5 minutes as of late.......and I kept having randomn thoughts like hgow I can't wait to die and shit,which is odd cause I was enjoying life up untill Tuesday......Do you think somehow someone or something sent me the black cloud.......I thought after I did a ritual and cleansed my aura and shit that it would go away but it's still here.......and I keep having other weird feelings like I feel pissed that Satan even bothered putting me here (cause i know he did for some reason) and shit..........So like WTF should I do with myself to get over this?........shadowwhispr

 

[Shades_of_chaos]

That my brother would be the brainwashing that xitianty has been doing to every single one of us. It sounds like you may have gotten the attention of a nasty angel. These things fade you have a purpose bro, I've felt the despair and this is how the enemy wants you to feel they want you to be weak and defensless. I had a Time when I was attacked badly when I was physically weak. And I reached out to a fellow sister of mine and she helped me get back into my normal energy levles. I've found it's good to set up defense shields around yourself. And brother Satan has a reason and it's great. It's your choice to get up dust yourself off and make your life the life you want. Satan will not help those who cannot help themselves now if you can stand up and will that cloud to sway away he will help you break those chains use your own willpower and visulize your own power blowing it away and watch it dissipate into nothing. You have the power may the gods of hell guide you to peace hail Satan and hail haures!!!

On Nov 28, 2009, at 3:37 PM, "ShadowW" <shadowwhispr7@... wrote:

  Everything seemed to be going my way for a bit......now it seems like it's all veering towards reversal.... ..there's been this black fucking cloud over me since Tuesaday,like I've been so upset that I can barely focus on Satan or the demons trying to tell me shit....I even felt angry at Satan even though I know there's no use in that cause even if he won't give me exactly what I'm asking he's still better than anything else i ever worshipped.. ....but I can barely stop being pissy and angry for 5 minutes as of late.......and I kept having randomn thoughts like hgow I can't wait to die and shit,which is odd cause I was enjoying life up untill Tuesday..... .Do you think somehow someone or something sent me the black cloud....... I thought after I did a ritual and cleansed my aura and shit that it would go away but it's still here.......and I keep having other weird feelings like I feel pissed that Satan even bothered putting me here (cause i know he did for some reason) and shit........ ..So like WTF should I do with myself to get over this?....... .shadowwhispr

 

[Cat Fish]

I know how you feel. I have those days to. in situations like that meditate a bit on your third eye till you can sense energy around you then "will" the events you want to happen then predict things .  Soon you will be able to move certain things your way... that is if you’re smart enough to figure out exactly how to do it.  If you have trouble what helps is to just relax and while lying down say what you want to yourself. There are times where we have the power to do what is necessary for ourselves.  Good luck and I hope you get what I am talking about.  Power meditation and sleep are good.  The speed of this depends on your skill. Taking it slow makes things go faster for the next day.   really hope this helps. sorry if it doesn't.

From: ShadowW <shadowwhispr7@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Sat, November 28, 2009 6:37:24 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] What the f%ck is happening

  Everything seemed to be going my way for a bit......now it seems like it's all veering towards reversal.... ..there's been this black fucking cloud over me since Tuesaday,like I've been so upset that I can barely focus on Satan or the demons trying to tell me shit....I even felt angry at Satan even though I know there's no use in that cause even if he won't give me exactly what I'm asking he's still better than anything else i ever worshipped.. ....but I can barely stop being pissy and angry for 5 minutes as of late.......and I kept having randomn thoughts like hgow I can't wait to die and shit,which is odd cause I was enjoying life up untill Tuesday..... .Do you think somehow someone or something sent me the black cloud....... I thought after I did a ritual and cleansed my aura and shit that it would go away but it's still here.......and I keep having other weird feelings like I feel pissed that Satan even bothered putting me here (cause i know he did for some reason) and shit........ ..So like WTF should I do with myself to get over this?....... .shadowwhispr

 

[corpsedefiled]

Don't let doubt set in, I actually had the same thing happen until yesterday. It started on a day when this lady called the office and told me she'd only schedual an appointment with me if I came to church with her...so I was like ok sure I'll go I need to spend some time working on paperwork anyways. I showd up blaring "God of Forbidden Light" in the parking lot, hit some dudes mirror and walked in. I've never felt so dirty and disgusting in my life and it also didn't help that everyone was staring at me, but that could have been cause..my eyes were bloodshot. Anyways, I got home and din't clean my aura and I knew it was dirty...bad fucking idea. Just always know that what you're doing will have an affect in some way. Don't get angry about it either just be patient, you don't have to go searching for The Demons, as if everything you see is sign from them.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "restoredinea" <restoredinea@... wrote:

Is it still bothering you?

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "ShadowW" <shadowwhispr7@ wrote:

Everything seemed to be going my way for a bit......now it seems like it's all veering towards reversal......there's been this black fucking cloud over me since Tuesaday,like I've been so upset that I can barely focus on Satan or the demons trying to tell me shit....I even felt angry at Satan even though I know there's no use in that cause even if he won't give me exactly what I'm asking he's still better than anything else i ever worshipped......but I can barely stop being pissy and angry for 5 minutes as of late.......and I kept having randomn thoughts like hgow I can't wait to die and shit,which is odd cause I was enjoying life up untill Tuesday......Do you think somehow someone or something sent me the black cloud.......I thought after I did a ritual and cleansed my aura and shit that it would go away but it's still here.......and I keep having other weird feelings like I feel pissed that Satan even bothered putting me here (cause i know he did for some reason) and shit..........So like WTF should I do with myself to get over this?........shadowwhispr

 

[garimevil]

If you go on the JoS website,click satanic wichcraft.Then on the first collumn,a link at the top should say"magic and self-esteem".Now,Im not saying that you have self-esteem issues,just that in that link you will find the answer to your situation.

It apparently seems that you some reppressed anger that comes out every once in a while because when you meditate,your open your mind,and with all the hidden emotions too.

you dont hate Satan obviusly and it should be just your angry thoughts manifesting.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "ShadowW" <shadowwhispr7@... wrote:

Everything seemed to be going my way for a bit......now it seems like it's all veering towards reversal......there's been this black fucking cloud over me since Tuesaday,like I've been so upset that I can barely focus on Satan or the demons trying to tell me shit....I even felt angry at Satan even though I know there's no use in that cause even if he won't give me exactly what I'm asking he's still better than anything else i ever worshipped......but I can barely stop being pissy and angry for 5 minutes as of late.......and I kept having randomn thoughts like hgow I can't wait to die and shit,which is odd cause I was enjoying life up untill Tuesday......Do you think somehow someone or something sent me the black cloud.......I thought after I did a ritual and cleansed my aura and shit that it would go away but it's still here.......and I keep having other weird feelings like I feel pissed that Satan even bothered putting me here (cause i know he did for some reason) and shit..........So like WTF should I do with myself to get over this?........shadowwhispr

 

[ShadowW]

Thanks I enjoyed reading that but I'm a sister not a bother....Oh but shits gotten better since then....Satan had my back the whole time...as usual..I just had briefly lost sight of things....HailSatan...shadowwhispr

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Shades_of_chaos <shadows6of6be6@... wrote:

That my brother would be the brainwashing that xitianty has been doing to every single one of us. It sounds like you may have gotten the attention of a nasty angel. These things fade you have a purpose bro, I've felt the despair and this is how the enemy wants you to feel they want you to be weak and defensless. I had a Time when I was attacked badly when I was physically weak. And I reached out to a fellow sister of mine and she helped me get back into my normal energy levles. I've found it's good to set up defense shields around yourself. And brother Satan has a reason and it's great. It's your choice to get up dust yourself off and make your life the life you want.. Satan will not help those who cannot help themselves now if you can stand up and will that cloud to sway away he will help you break those chains use your own willpower and visulize your own power blowing it away and watch it dissipate into nothing. You have the power may the gods of hell
guide you to peace hail Satan and hail haures!!!

On Nov 28, 2009, at 3:37 PM, "ShadowW" <shadowwhispr7@... wrote:

Everything seemed to be going my way for a bit......now it seems like it's all veering towards reversal......there's been this black fucking cloud over me since Tuesaday,like I've been so upset that I can barely focus on Satan or the demons trying to tell me shit....I even felt angry at Satan even though I know there's no use in that cause even if he won't give me exactly what I'm asking he's still better than anything else i ever worshipped......but I can barely stop being pissy and angry for 5 minutes as of late.......and I kept having randomn thoughts like hgow I can't wait to die and shit,which is odd cause I was enjoying life up untill Tuesday......Do you think somehow someone or something sent me the black cloud.......I thought after I did a ritual and cleansed my aura and shit that it would go away but it's still here.......and I keep having other weird feelings like I feel pissed that Satan even bothered putting me here (cause i know he did for
some reason) and shit..........So like WTF should I do with myself to get over this?........shadowwhispr

 

[ShadowW]

Thankyou for suggesting I read that,I might have some experience but there's certain shit I need to be reminded of from time to time........HailSatan...shadowwhispr

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "garimevil" <garimevil@... wrote:

If you go on the JoS website,click satanic wichcraft.Then on the first collumn,a link at the top should say"magic and self-esteem".Now,Im not saying that you have self-esteem issues,just that in that link you will find the answer to your situation.

It apparently seems that you some reppressed anger that comes out every once in a while because when you meditate,your open your mind,and with all the hidden emotions too.

you dont hate Satan obviusly and it should be just your angry thoughts manifesting.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "ShadowW" <shadowwhispr7@ wrote:

Everything seemed to be going my way for a bit......now it seems like it's all veering towards reversal......there's been this black fucking cloud over me since Tuesaday,like I've been so upset that I can barely focus on Satan or the demons trying to tell me shit....I even felt angry at Satan even though I know there's no use in that cause even if he won't give me exactly what I'm asking he's still better than anything else i ever worshipped......but I can barely stop being pissy and angry for 5 minutes as of late.......and I kept having randomn thoughts like hgow I can't wait to die and shit,which is odd cause I was enjoying life up untill Tuesday......Do you think somehow someone or something sent me the black cloud.......I thought after I did a ritual and cleansed my aura and shit that it would go away but it's still here.......and I keep having other weird feelings like I feel pissed that Satan even bothered putting me here (cause i know he did for some reason) and shit..........So like WTF should I do with myself to get over this?........shadowwhispr

 

[ShadowW]

Thanks dude......shit has gotten better since then......HailSatan.....shadowwhispr

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Cat Fish <aphilous55@... wrote:

I know how you feel. I have those days to. in situations like that meditate a bit on your third eye till you can sense energy around you then "will" the events you want to happen then predict things .  Soon you will be able to move certain things your way... that is if you’re smart enough to figure out exactly how to do it.  If you have trouble what helps is to just relax and while lying down say what you want to yourself. There are times where we have the power to do what is necessary for ourselves.  Good luck and I hope you get what I am talking about.  Power meditation and sleep are good.  The speed of this depends on your skill. Taking it slow makes things go faster for the next day.
 
really hope this helps. sorry if it doesn't.




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From: ShadowW <shadowwhispr7@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Sat, November 28, 2009 6:37:24 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] What the f%ck is happening

 
Everything seemed to be going my way for a bit......now it seems like it's all veering towards reversal.... ..there's been this black fucking cloud over me since Tuesaday,like I've been so upset that I can barely focus on Satan or the demons trying to tell me shit....I even felt angry at Satan even though I know there's no use in that cause even if he won't give me exactly what I'm asking he's still better than anything else i ever worshipped.. ....but I can barely stop being pissy and angry for 5 minutes as of late.......and I kept having randomn thoughts like hgow I can't wait to die and shit,which is odd cause I was enjoying life up untill Tuesday..... .Do you think somehow someone or something sent me the black cloud....... I thought after I did a ritual and cleansed my aura and shit that it would go away but it's still here.......and I keep having other weird feelings like I feel pissed that Satan even bothered putting me here (cause i know he did
for some reason) and shit........ ..So like WTF should I do with myself to get over this?....... .shadowwhispr

 

[lightofthedawn69]

that reminds me i may have stumbled across the secret to streghtening ones will

it seems the same chakra that boosts the ego also holds the power to somehow strngthen ones will
i speak of the solar plexus magick demands will power intent and desire
desire is used fr attracting energy will allows control of that energy and intent is what allows casting of energy

yup i was right

THE THIRD THE SOLAR CHAKRA (MANIPURA)

LOCATION: Slightly above the naval near the solar plexus
ELEMENT: Fire
COLOR: Yellow
NUMBER OF PETALS: 10
PLANET: Sun
DAY: Sunday
METAL: Gold
FUNCTION: Will, power, manipulation
INNER STATE: Willpower, timing
The solar plexus chakra known in Sanskrit as the "Manipura" is the chakra of the will. This is where the fighting power emanates. It rules over the digestive system, the stomach, the pancreas, and the muscles. The solar chakra is yellow in color and ruled by the Sun. Its element is fire and its metal is gold. Here is the chakra one uses to impress one's will upon another.

thats the chakra to meditate on when your will and self esteem seems too low oh speaking about low i found out that depression and broken heart or sadness basically any mood or event that creates a tramatic experience lowers bioelectricity

it seems when one feels sad and down it tends to weaken their will power

i also found desiring helps strengthen the will also the energy flow from this chakra goes directly up into the heart chakra so if you meditate on this solar plexus try using energies that relate in appearance to that of fire and earth


at any rate if you don't know how to meditate or focus well enough to go anywhere just meditate on astaroths sigil apparently her sigil is designed to make the mind get all the chakras at once

damnit i cant think straight

oh well

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "ShadowW" <shadowwhispr7@... wrote:

Thanks dude......shit has gotten better since then......HailSatan.....shadowwhispr

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Cat Fish <aphilous55@ wrote:

I know how you feel. I have those days to. in situations like that meditate a bit on your third eye till you can sense energy around you then "will" the events you want to happen then predict things .  Soon you will be able to move certain things your way... that is if you’re smart enough to figure out exactly how to do it.  If you have trouble what helps is to just relax and while lying down say what you want to yourself. There are times where we have the power to do what is necessary for ourselves.  Good luck and I hope you get what I am talking about.  Power meditation and sleep are good.  The speed of this depends on your skill. Taking it slow makes things go faster for the next day.
 
really hope this helps. sorry if it doesn't.




________________________________
From: ShadowW <shadowwhispr7@
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Sat, November 28, 2009 6:37:24 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] What the f%ck is happening

 
Everything seemed to be going my way for a bit......now it seems like it's all veering towards reversal.... ..there's been this black fucking cloud over me since Tuesaday,like I've been so upset that I can barely focus on Satan or the demons trying to tell me shit....I even felt angry at Satan even though I know there's no use in that cause even if he won't give me exactly what I'm asking he's still better than anything else i ever worshipped.. ....but I can barely stop being pissy and angry for 5 minutes as of late.......and I kept having randomn thoughts like hgow I can't wait to die and shit,which is odd cause I was enjoying life up untill Tuesday..... .Do you think somehow someone or something sent me the black cloud....... I thought after I did a ritual and cleansed my aura and shit that it would go away but it's still here.......and I keep having other weird feelings like I feel pissed that Satan even bothered putting me here (cause i know he did
for some reason) and shit........ ..So like WTF should I do with myself to get over this?....... .shadowwhispr