My ex gf and I got into a fight while I was drunk and I used death energy without thinking and she killed herself the same night. I feel worse than I have ever felt. I do not blame anyone but myself. I want to try and communicate with her. The night I found out she died I felt a presence in my room. I have had insomnia for over 48 hours and I would give anything for her to know how truly sorry I am. Sorry does not make up what I caused and I take the blame but she was the love of my life and I have been crying non stop. My eyes are droopy and red and I lost my apetite for a little bit earlier. where is my ex if she committed suicide? Where can I find her? There has to be a way I can see her. Please someone answer me. I need her to know that I really do love her and what can I do to get a hold of her? Someone help please?