Wanting to get Closer to Satan and my Guardian and leave past mistakes behind

[Daemontech [NG]]

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Are you doing cleaning and protection meditations? Those are really important
If it can console you, i'm pretty sure that i'm under attacks rn, since i keep seeing enemy numbers (especially 22) and I'm in a situation where I can't meditate for at least 2 weeks except very basic stuff that I can do just with my mind

Despite everything, i still feel loved because I know that is will end and a good Gentile is always welcome in Spiritual Satanism, even if he has a very long path in front of him and a lot of defects, but you gotta keep up the good work

And btw, remember that communicating with our Gods is very difficult, and it usually happens through "strange" "unusual" events or "coincidences" which are ALWAYS positive and never otherwise

 

[Eric13]

It really comes down to consistency. Usually you only have these doubts and loneliness when you’re undeveloped and not being consistent with the Rituals and daily practices. The meditations on the jos work. The gods are real and want to be in our lives to guide us and help us grow. The more you meditate and open your soul, the easier it will be to feel that connection.

So you MUST find a way to meditate every single day and build an empowering routine. The gods will reveal themselves, and trust me, they are there and you are not alone. Everyone who can ‘causally communicate’ as you say, didn’t start that way. They got there from consistent practice. You can get there too.

 

[Desdemona_666]

The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now.

 

[Bonedust]

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I love everything about this thread and the responses to op. The amount of meditations and rituals I've done is enough to warrant my pure disgust when these doubts come about. Its just so improbable that my mood turns to sarcasm every time i hear it.

Do not stop trying even if it feels like progress seems to take a step backwards sometimes. I refuse to stop trying simply because I am well aware of the astral, but i also have a lot of patience for it. There are a lot of little things that if i listed them out would derail this topic, suffice to say i shouldn't have a reason to think like you do, but it always comes back and the more time passes the stronger i resist it.

You are not alone with these thoughts of doubts and depression, you must fight it!

P.S. I love your avatar.