unbound1978
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Hello everyone,
I am new to this and have over the last few weeks been reading over the Joy of Satan website, to which I have found fascinating and has struck a note with me. Although being christened as a child I never really considered the whole aspect of christ and such until a few years ago in my life, yet even at a young age always felt there was something else other than what would be deemed as "normal" .When going through a bad patch in my later life I turned to "the good book" which I would imagine would be a common trap for people on the bottom to fall into. I did at a point begin to get sucked into this but always felt an unease at some of the things that I was reading in the bible and more often than not (especially in the old testament) found myself thinking what an absolute cunt this "God" was, although at the time I sadly tried to blank out what my instinct was telling me regarding the apparent bloodthirsty nature of what i was reading.
I've always been of a curious nature and decided to cast my net a bit further & started to listen and watch some of the David Icke stuff, some of which I can identify with, other stuff like the everybody being a "whole" does not, the thought of me ultimately not being me in the end is not something I can identify with. Once again I looked at other things which led me to look into Gnosticism which in turn led me to read Alexander Romanov's 666. I, at that point, really began to open my eyes into other perspectives of what might ultimately lead to a truth that for some reason I cannot help myself stop searching for. My concept of what is supposedly the powers of good and evil began to take on a new light, which at one point seemed set in stone, was turned on its head.
The point of my post I am trying to put across is that there is so many sources with that many different takes on things that are out there that a person could become so disillusioned from it all that they may give up trying to find what they are searching for. This is from my own perspective of course, always having the feeling of yearning for something but never being able to put my finger on it or find it. Many a time I have found myself saying "fuck it!" to the lot of it but still couldn't help myself coming back for more. The above two names I mentioned, could they be people who are inadvertently misleading people believing they are doing right or outright misleading through smatterings of truth here and there to seem to bring some validity.
My apologies for the long winded post but I would imagine that many people are of a confused nature because of all the crap we have been polluted with since birth. My own mind has reeled in circles many a time in search of a true peace that has so far avoided me, but I will say here & now that there is something that is burning inside me that will never allow me to give up & fuck any "messiah or god" that ever thinks they can turn me into a slave.
I am new to this and have over the last few weeks been reading over the Joy of Satan website, to which I have found fascinating and has struck a note with me. Although being christened as a child I never really considered the whole aspect of christ and such until a few years ago in my life, yet even at a young age always felt there was something else other than what would be deemed as "normal" .When going through a bad patch in my later life I turned to "the good book" which I would imagine would be a common trap for people on the bottom to fall into. I did at a point begin to get sucked into this but always felt an unease at some of the things that I was reading in the bible and more often than not (especially in the old testament) found myself thinking what an absolute cunt this "God" was, although at the time I sadly tried to blank out what my instinct was telling me regarding the apparent bloodthirsty nature of what i was reading.
I've always been of a curious nature and decided to cast my net a bit further & started to listen and watch some of the David Icke stuff, some of which I can identify with, other stuff like the everybody being a "whole" does not, the thought of me ultimately not being me in the end is not something I can identify with. Once again I looked at other things which led me to look into Gnosticism which in turn led me to read Alexander Romanov's 666. I, at that point, really began to open my eyes into other perspectives of what might ultimately lead to a truth that for some reason I cannot help myself stop searching for. My concept of what is supposedly the powers of good and evil began to take on a new light, which at one point seemed set in stone, was turned on its head.
The point of my post I am trying to put across is that there is so many sources with that many different takes on things that are out there that a person could become so disillusioned from it all that they may give up trying to find what they are searching for. This is from my own perspective of course, always having the feeling of yearning for something but never being able to put my finger on it or find it. Many a time I have found myself saying "fuck it!" to the lot of it but still couldn't help myself coming back for more. The above two names I mentioned, could they be people who are inadvertently misleading people believing they are doing right or outright misleading through smatterings of truth here and there to seem to bring some validity.
My apologies for the long winded post but I would imagine that many people are of a confused nature because of all the crap we have been polluted with since birth. My own mind has reeled in circles many a time in search of a true peace that has so far avoided me, but I will say here & now that there is something that is burning inside me that will never allow me to give up & fuck any "messiah or god" that ever thinks they can turn me into a slave.