Uncontrollable rage...

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Greetings: for some time now I've been feeling the most disgusting, and very possibly dangerous anger that I believe I every have. In 3 days I will be seeing my son, turning 7 today, for the 1st time in 4 years. This is all because of my soon to be X's family. I really don't want to go into details here about the situation as there's just too much crap that they've put me through, as well as my own family. I don't know what variables are pertinent here, but everyone around me is basically in danger. If it weren't for my son, I would have simply killed someone by now and just have myself put away. Ok, let me just ask right here, as I don't want this to be unproductive, if anyone has any idea what I could do about this. Do to my physical condition, it is an impossibility for me to leave the house, I don't even have a room w/ doors, all the rooms are upstairs, the verbal shit is nonstop...I'm just in serious danger of COMPLETELY loosing my shit at any second of the day! Please help-as much as I hate to say that...
HAIL SATAN!!!
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[Shannon Outlaw]

ok what do you mean physical condition? why dont you ask father for peace of mind and furcas the daemon. breathe an relax!
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Date: Wednesday, March 23, 2011 3:48:42 pm
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Subject: Uncontrollable rage...

Greetings: for some time now I've been feeling the most disgusting, and very possibly dangerous anger that I believe I every have. In 3 days I will be seeing my son, turning 7 today, for the 1st time in 4 years. This is all because of my soon to be X's family. I really don't want to go into details here about the situation as there's just too much crap that they've put me through, as well as my own family. I don't know what variables are pertinent here, but everyone around me is basically in danger. If it weren't for my son, I would have simply killed someone by now and just have myself put away. Ok, let me just ask right here, as I don't want this to be unproductive, if anyone has any idea what I could do about this. Do to my physical condition, it is an impossibility for me to leave the house, I don't even have a room w/ doors, all the rooms are upstairs, the verbal shit is nonstop...I'm just in serious danger of COMPLETELY loosing my shit at any second of the day! Please help-as much as I hate to say that...
HAIL SATAN!!!
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August '09 I "fell off" a bridge breaking my back, I'm paraplegic and in constant, excruciating pain. I have always seemed to be a magnet to negativity, am surrounded by it 24/7. It was the cause of 2 1/2 years of incarceration, there's never an opportunity do the simplest of meditations, there are 7 other people here wich include both parents, sister and her s kidsSent via BlackBerry by AT&TFrom: "Shannon Outlaw" <soutlaw92@... Sender: Date: Wed, 23 Mar 2011 15:04:15 CDTTo: ReplyTo: Subject: RE: Uncontrollable rage...
  ok what do you mean physical condition? why dont you ask father for peace of mind and furcas the daemon. breathe an relax!
-----Original Message-----
Date: Wednesday, March 23, 2011 3:48:42 pm
To:
From: eremoslukos8@...
Subject: Uncontrollable rage...

Greetings: for some time now I've been feeling the most disgusting, and very possibly dangerous anger that I believe I every have. In 3 days I will be seeing my son, turning 7 today, for the 1st time in 4 years. This is all because of my soon to be X's family. I really don't want to go into details here about the situation as there's just too much crap that they've put me through, as well as my own family. I don't know what variables are pertinent here, but everyone around me is basically in danger. If it weren't for my son, I would have simply killed someone by now and just have myself put away. Ok, let me just ask right here, as I don't want this to be unproductive, if anyone has any idea what I could do about this. Do to my physical condition, it is an impossibility for me to leave the house, I don't even have a room w/ doors, all the rooms are upstairs, the verbal shit is nonstop...I'm just in serious danger of COMPLETELY loosing my shit at any second of the day! Please help-as much as I hate to say that...
HAIL SATAN!!!
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[blackkat_411]

..Hail Satan!! Have you tryed closing your chakras to give you some relief from the anger??

--- In , eremoslukos8@... wrote:

Greetings: for some time now I've been feeling the most disgusting, and very possibly dangerous anger that I believe I every have. In 3 days I will be seeing my son, turning 7 today, for the 1st time in 4 years. This is all because of my soon to be X's family. I really don't want to go into details here about the situation as there's just too much crap that they've put me through, as well as my own family. I don't know what variables are pertinent here, but everyone around me is basically in danger. If it weren't for my son, I would have simply killed someone by now and just have myself put away. Ok, let me just ask right here, as I don't want this to be unproductive, if anyone has any idea what I could do about this. Do to my physical condition, it is an impossibility for me to leave the house, I don't even have a room w/ doors, all the rooms are upstairs, the verbal shit is nonstop...I'm just in serious danger of COMPLETELY loosing my shit at any second of the day! Please help-as much as I hate to say that...
HAIL SATAN!!!
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[Shannon Outlaw]

im sry to hear. so you dont have time for anything, not even meditation at all?
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Date: Wednesday, March 23, 2011 4:15:47 pm
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August '09 I "fell off" a bridge breaking my back, I'm paraplegic and in constant, excruciating pain. I have always seemed to be a magnet to negativity, am surrounded by it 24/7. It was the cause of 2 1/2 years of incarceration, there's never an opportunity do the simplest of meditations, there are 7 other people here wich include both parents, sister and her s kids
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ok what do you mean physical condition? why dont you ask father for peace of mind and furcas the daemon. breathe an relax!
-----Original Message-----
Date: Wednesday, March 23, 2011 3:48:42 pm
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From: eremoslukos8@...
Subject: Uncontrollable rage...

Greetings: for some time now I

 

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Well, yes, I do get periodical moments of privacy, the thing is I fear getting too much into anything involving trance, making communication w/ any god an impossibility as at any given second I could have something dropped on the floor directly over my head- purposely. My sister will pull something, or even if someone stubs their toe I'm blamed for "cursing" or sending a demon. With a house full of paranoid, clumsy pill-heads, and an alcoholic, all xians, and the fact that even before coming to Father, my entire life I've been the "scape-goat"-well you can imagine what I go through!Sent via BlackBerry by AT&TFrom: "Shannon Outlaw" <soutlaw92@... Sender: Date: Wed, 23 Mar 2011 15:41:37 CDTTo: ReplyTo: Subject: Re: Uncontrollable rage...
  im sry to hear. so you dont have time for anything, not even meditation at all?
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Date: Wednesday, March 23, 2011 4:15:47 pm
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Subject: Re: Uncontrollable rage...

August '09 I "fell off" a bridge breaking my back, I'm paraplegic and in constant, excruciating pain. I have always seemed to be a magnet to negativity, am surrounded by it 24/7. It was the cause of 2 1/2 years of incarceration, there's never an opportunity do the simplest of meditations, there are 7 other people here wich include both parents, sister and her s kids
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ok what do you mean physical condition? why dont you ask father for peace of mind and furcas the daemon. breathe an relax!
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Date: Wednesday, March 23, 2011 3:48:42 pm
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Subject: Uncontrollable rage...

Greetings: for some time now I

 

[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]I don't know if this will help or not,but this is what Father Satan brought me threw.I met and married a woman that I worked with four years ago.We were married for three years,and working at the same retail store,still do by the way.Before we were divorced,as anyone who has been threw it knows,it brings out the worst in people.

She wanted me to sell my house,and give her half the money.My lawyer laughed at that one.She stalked me for months,while leaving her things in my house,all the time dating a friend that works with us.One day she walk up to me and physically abused at work,on the clock.

After working the rest of my shift,I went to the local police station and filed a police report on her.The next day she came to my house again and abused me,in my living room.She has finally stopped all the bullshit,except treating like shit everyday,for the last four years,and still does.Now that I am a Satanist,I am aware that I don't have to put up with any abuse,and neither do you.Remember that Father loves you,and that you are not alone.He gives us the tools such as black magic,and power meditation to protect yourself,and to fight back.Thanks for reading,and allowing me to share.Hope it helps a little.

Hail Satan!
BG

--- On Wed, 3/23/11, eremoslukos8@... <eremoslukos8@... wrote:

From: eremoslukos8@... <eremoslukos8@...
Subject: Uncontrollable rage...
To:

  Greetings: for some time now I've been feeling the most disgusting, and very possibly dangerous anger that I believe I every have. In 3 days I will be seeing my son, turning 7 today, for the 1st time in 4 years. This is all because of my soon to be X's family. I really don't want to go into details here about the situation as there's just too much crap that they've put me through, as well as my own family. I don't know what variables are pertinent here, but everyone around me is basically in danger. If it weren't for my son, I would have simply killed someone by now and just have myself put away. Ok, let me just ask right here, as I don't want this to be unproductive, if anyone has any idea what I could do about this. Do to my physical condition, it is an impossibility for me to leave the house, I don't even have a room w/ doors, all the rooms are upstairs, the verbal shit is nonstop...I'm just in serious danger of COMPLETELY loosing my shit at any second of the day! Please help-as much as I hate to say that...
HAIL SATAN!!!
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[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]Yes I am considered the black sheep alsr to put it another way,I never did good with rules,and questioned everything.
Hail Satan!
BG

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  Well, yes, I do get periodical moments of privacy, the thing is I fear getting too much into anything involving trance, making communication w/ any god an impossibility as at any given second I could have something dropped on the floor directly over my head- purposely. My sister will pull something, or even if someone stubs their toe I'm blamed for "cursing" or sending a demon. With a house full of paranoid, clumsy pill-heads, and an alcoholic, all xians, and the fact that even before coming to Father, my entire life I've been the "scape-goat"-well you can imagine what I go through!Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T<hr>From: "Shannon Outlaw" <soutlaw92@... Sender: Date: Wed, 23 Mar 2011 15:41:37 CDTTo: ReplyTo: Subject: Re: Uncontrollable rage...
  im sry to hear. so you dont have time for anything, not even meditation at all?
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August '09 I "fell off" a bridge breaking my back, I'm paraplegic and in constant, excruciating pain. I have always seemed to be a magnet to negativity, am surrounded by it 24/7. It was the cause of 2 1/2 years of incarceration, there's never an opportunity do the simplest of meditations, there are 7 other people here wich include both parents, sister and her s kids
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ok what do you mean physical condition? why dont you ask father for peace of mind and furcas the daemon. breathe an relax!
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Subject: Uncontrollable rage...

Greetings: for some time now I

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[Micama Gmicalzoma]

Try sending out energy, Use your anger to sway the situation in your favor. I did this at work, I was tired of hearing others bad mouth me. I saw my aura as flame red, and then just blasted out the negative energy into the shop. I tried to see my aura as big as the whole room, I just kept sending out angry energy. Everyone at work within five minutes shut up about me, started looking discouraged, and angry themselves. Breathe with your diaphragm, and lower your blood pressure a bit. Just try to calm down, Meditate. A great one to calm down with is Blue Light Meditation.You need to invest in some ear plugs as well.

From: "eremoslukos8@..." <eremoslukos8@...
To:
Sent: Wed, March 23, 2011 2:48:22 PM
Subject: Uncontrollable rage...

  Greetings: for some time now I've been feeling the most disgusting, and very possibly dangerous anger that I believe I every have. In 3 days I will be seeing my son, turning 7 today, for the 1st time in 4 years. This is all because of my soon to be X's family. I really don't want to go into details here about the situation as there's just too much crap that they've put me through, as well as my own family. I don't know what variables are pertinent here, but everyone around me is basically in danger. If it weren't for my son, I would have simply killed someone by now and just have myself put away. Ok, let me just ask right here, as I don't want this to be unproductive, if anyone has any idea what I could do about this. Do to my physical condition, it is an impossibility for me to leave the house, I don't even have a room w/ doors, all the rooms are upstairs, the verbal shit is nonstop...I'm just in serious danger of COMPLETELY loosing my shit at any second of the day! Please help-as much as I hate to say that...
HAIL SATAN!!!
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[Neill House]

My friend, my brother.. I have felt like you. Like a balloon that
someone has sat on, you wait for it to burst but no not where or when it
will happen. You are taking needles from all sides, poking and pointing,
and by instinct you fight them off.. you don't want the balloon to
burst!... and this makes you angry.. almost as if they are trying to set
you up for a fall!

I know you said you didn't have much time to yourself, and that is
fine.. you are obviously a thinker and this is useful if you have no
physical space to call your own... you always have your mind.. this is
one space that only the invited can come to, and the space that you are
in charge of. Speak to father.. ask his opinion on what these people are
trying to do, and explore the avenues that they are trying to reach. He
will help, and he will clarify.. but it needs you to maintain control.
Always. Be strong, ask for guidance.

Leviathan

On 03/23/2011 08:20 PM, blackkat_411 wrote:
..Hail Satan!! Have you tryed closing your chakras to give you some relief from the anger??

--- In , eremoslukos8@... wrote:
Greetings: for some time now I've been feeling the most disgusting, and very possibly dangerous anger that I believe I every have. In 3 days I will be seeing my son, turning 7 today, for the 1st time in 4 years. This is all because of my soon to be X's family. I really don't want to go into details here about the situation as there's just too much crap that they've put me through, as well as my own family. I don't know what variables are pertinent here, but everyone around me is basically in danger. If it weren't for my son, I would have simply killed someone by now and just have myself put away. Ok, let me just ask right here, as I don't want this to be unproductive, if anyone has any idea what I could do about this. Do to my physical condition, it is an impossibility for me to leave the house, I don't even have a room w/ doors, all the rooms are upstairs, the verbal shit is nonstop...I'm just in serious danger of COMPLETELY loosing my shit at any second of the day! Please help-as much as I hate to say that...
HAIL SATAN!!!
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Hi there, I know I don't post on here too often (although I do greatly enjoy reading posts) but let me tell you something, I had a back injury and f*cked up surroundings when I was called by father. Don't fear a trance! Start by going into a light trace. Due to the back issue I would both meditate and sleep flat on my back so no one was able to tell. Being brought back from a light to medium trance isn't that horrific of an experience - at least for me, so what if you get a headache. You don't even need a trance to clean your aura. Just do little things when you can. 10 minutes is all I started out with, eventually I was able to ignore my surroundings entirely (I'm now out of those surroundings). Father and the demons understand your situation; they aren't going to randomly show up and compromise you (unless you are alreadly in some sort of dire situation and that is the only option to save you). Father and the demons will come to you in other ways (like for me it was dreams and still is actually). The people you are living with can't read your dreams. Unless you write them down dreams stay inside your head (if you do keep a journal of some sorts keep it locked up safely and then lock it some more and hide it). Eventually I was able to mediate for longer and without taking painkillers. After that it was only a baby step to no more painkillers entirely. I was able to do yoga for the first time, it felt amazing! I look forward to not refilling the rest of the back medications. Once you actaully heal the injury you will need to strengthen your back (this is where I am now). So, look at the healing mediations and find the best one for you (the injury I had wasn't as bad as your's). If you aren't up to healing yet, get there taking baby steps at first but soon you'll be mediating and might even have trouble remembering what the problem was in the first place. Put on headphones and music (personally I listen to Burzum while mediating) to drown out those distractions. You may not want to think about it now but there will come a time when you don't need msuic to ignore what's around you.

If your family say your cursed them when they stub a toe or something stupid laugh it off. Joke with them about it. It will eventually lighten them up. It won't happen over night but they'll start laughing too.

As for your rage (a lot of people seem to be feeling rage, sometimes unwarrented, lately) try to channel it into something constuctive. I know it is harder than it sounds but it is very possible (or the murder rate wouldve considerably increased over the past week or so lol). If you can't use that energy to harm an enemy then draw a picture, write a book, doing something positive with something like rage is the best answer. Keep photos of your kid everywhere you can. Don't focus on how much you despise your ex's family, they can be dealt with later when you can do it calmly (if it won't negatively impact upon your child), but focus on how much you love him. Think of good times you'll share with him, yes really, you will have good times together - I know that seems distant now but you are a Satanist and can make it possible for yourself, Father and your GD will tell you how.

Got too many negatives swimming around in that brain of yours that you can't focus on amything else? Pick up a fictional book! Don't watch a film or switch on the telly. Pick up a fiction book. Read it. It helps. Then once you've read whatever fictional book you fancy. Calmly and distantly focus on one negative thought at a time. Only one. Turn it around. Did someone hurt you on purpose? Curse them, problem solved. Oh boo-hoo, woe is me, blah blah. Why is woe you? (One thought at a time) and change how you see yourself. You miss your kid? Focus on seeing him again. Your family are being annoyingly negative, do you really care? It is their lives, let them attract negativity into their own lives, not your's. I don't know your entire life story, so you'll have to put your own examples here.

Hope that helped. Good luck to you.

Hail Satan------------------From: eremoslukos8@... Sender: Date: Wed, 23 Mar 2011 21:05:13 +0000To: ReplyTo: Subject: Re: Uncontrollable rage...
  Well, yes, I do get periodical moments of privacy, the thing is I fear getting too much into anything involving trance, making communication w/ any god an impossibility as at any given second I could have something dropped on the floor directly over my head- purposely. My sister will pull something, or even if someone stubs their toe I'm blamed for "cursing" or sending a demon. With a house full of paranoid, clumsy pill-heads, and an alcoholic, all xians, and the fact that even before coming to Father, my entire life I've been the "scape-goat"-well you can imagine what I go through!Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T<hr>From: "Shannon Outlaw" <soutlaw92@... Sender: Date: Wed, 23 Mar 2011 15:41:37 CDTTo: ReplyTo: Subject: Re: Uncontrollable rage...
  im sry to hear. so you dont have time for anything, not even meditation at all?
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Date: Wednesday, March 23, 2011 4:15:47 pm
To:
From: eremoslukos8@...
Subject: Re: Uncontrollable rage...

August '09 I "fell off" a bridge breaking my back, I'm paraplegic and in constant, excruciating pain. I have always seemed to be a magnet to negativity, am surrounded by it 24/7. It was the cause of 2 1/2 years of incarceration, there's never an opportunity do the simplest of meditations, there are 7 other people here wich include both parents, sister and her s kids
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Subject: RE: Uncontrollable rage...

ok what do you mean physical condition? why dont you ask father for peace of mind and furcas the daemon. breathe an relax!
-----Original Message-----
Date: Wednesday, March 23, 2011 3:48:42 pm
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From: eremoslukos8@...
Subject: Uncontrollable rage...

Greetings: for some time now I