Uncertainty about my career choice - what would you do?

[Soul Wings]

Apologies... I have to be quite vague where I wish I could go into details, otherwise, I could be identified. This is kind of a venting thread as well, as I don't know who the hell to turn to about this. I hope this doesn't come across as uber entitled or offensive... it's just purely what I think.

As a woman I have always wanted a job in IT which is currently a majority male-dominated industry and in general I have no issue with this.

I love this job, I feel like I was made for this career. It is over a 200% pay increase from my last job and I have stable hours. If I can get into the niche branch of IT I wish to get into and climb higher, it pays quite decently and will be interesting for me.

I am currently partway through studying a certificate towards this goal.

I wanted to start off by saying my intuition felt like something was wrong with how easily I got this job, despite many others [apparently] being rejected for applying the same way. I did ask for help from the Gods, which I did certainly recieve here, they gave me a chance, and I was/am grateful... I am not without *some* experience or intelligence.... yet the feeling remains.

The following paragraph is speculation, but is still cause for my unhappiness, so you may read it for context if you wish.
[I have suspected this boss might have misread my friendliness and enthusiasm in the interview as potential flirting...
He talks to me basically only when we are alone [yes I have to be alone with this man constantly], shrugs me off/says nothing/doesn't care when I talk about my boyfriend [yes he is aware I have a boyfriend] yet I try to be nice and social and ask questions about his wife/family [as is normal conversation], and I do not get as much support in my work as my male co-workers [which makes me think "what am I really here for???"]. There is more, but I feel sick thinking about it and I'm just going to leave it here for now. If you have questions I can elaborate on this further but in OP.. would rather not.]

So, I have much less support from my superior than my male co-workers and I am made out to be a nuisance and/or stupid whenever I ask questions/ask for help [as they do even with plenty of experience]. I am blatantly ignored when I speak, it hasn't even been that long and it has already gotten to a point where I can't stand it. I was sitting in my car on my lunch break considering handing in my 2 weeks notice it was so bad. I have to beg my collegues for help and they do certainly help out of their own kindness. I have no choice but to go through him in my daily work [and study] even though I avoid it as much as possible to avoid the following chastising and patronising for trying to do my job properly or not knowing about every little thing.

-I originally had a paragraph here talking shit but I decided to omit it since it was just venting and provided nothing but spite to the discussion.-

Here's how it is for me - I understand you do not have to like everyone you work with. However, this is causing me to lose sleep. I want nothing more than an IT career, I have the perfect opportunity, I am training towards it, and yet this man is so fucking awful I dread to think of working for him the whole year. He is a huge roadblock to my progress and I feel partly like I am wasting my time/made a mistake and should leave, yet this would leave opportunity wasted. I can only wonder how the woman who left before me felt.

I recently discovered statistically over 50% of women leave their IT career by age 35. I can really see why. I feel like I've made a mistake and I should look for another career, despite loving my job. :/

What would you do? Or, what would you advise?

 

[Henu the Great]

If self employment / freelancing is an option for you, then that would be one path to choose from. Is there an option to finish studies in another job? If your studies would halt based on unemployment, then it would be high price to pay for resigning from the position. Magick could be an answer...

 

[Flowers of Adonis]

Perform the binding ritual on your boss: https://www.joyofsatan.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Binding_Spell.html

You don't need to walk away. Take control of the situation with magick.

Here is a spell I crafted for you. Start this on the Full Moon today, or wait until the next cycle of Waxing Moon dates. July 6th could work well when the Moon is Waxing in Libra.

Vibrate:
Raidho
Ansuz
x20

Affirm:
"I am now respected and listened to by the people I work with. I am treated fairly by the people in my life at all times."
x5

AUM

Visualize something like golden scales balancing and harmonizing the threads of your relationships and filling them with positive golden light.

 

[Aquarius]

Bind him so that he cannot harm you in any way and program his aura to be nice to you when he sleeps.

 

[Wolfsage]

How long have you been at this job? My advice only applies if it’s been less than 6 months-1 year.

If it was me, personally, I’d do a binding on your boss. Keep the job if you feel it’s something you deserve and that you know your stuff(which it sounds like you do) You have every right to it, if so. If you feel like you aren’t qualified for it, or it’s not worth the hassle, move on. You really don’t have to like anyone you work with, but it helps. If you are capable it’ll show and in time(maybe not your boss) but your other coworkers will respect you. IT males are notorious for poor social skills and that might be part of it or everyone could be swamped and people could leave that job frequently and they don’t want to get attached. There are many jobs like that where people are in and out of there and the ones who stay just don’t want to put time into working relationships. Maybe try to find out the history of the employees and understand where they are coming from? It might help with perspective. And lastly, if you do decide to stay, don’t be afraid to speak up and ask for clarifications when needed. It might annoy people in the beginning, but once they realize that you make their lives easier when you understand everything they’ll appreciate you asking.

 

[Soul Wings]

If self employment / freelancing is an option for you, then that would be one path to choose from. Is there an option to finish studies in another job? If your studies would halt based on unemployment, then it would be high price to pay for resigning from the position. Magick could be an answer...

I am in a terrible position right now and I do not want this boss to think he has power over me, lest my woes get worse.
I was thinking about doing binding/repelling curses.... or perhaps some rituals for money and opportunity... it is just so much energy for 1 buffoon I'd rather leave in the dust.It appears for now there is no other option and it appears he knows this.
As for freelancing, admittedly I am not knowledgeable enough yet but I have had thoughts about starting my own business one day.

 

[Adhiti666]

I do believe you should rethink how you should go about your career. Your intuition and statistics are right.

Being employed in the IT would necessarily mean being in a male dominated environment. Thus, a place abundant in male energy, male competition and a masculine way of doing things.

I am not sure if you happen to be of those women who have greater male energies than normal, but I will just suppose you are like the majority. That is: a woman with a majority of female energy.

Do you know what that means? To work, study and basically compete in the IT field, you must use up all of your male energies, which are of lesser quantity than the female energies.

This will lead to burnout. I bet you can also look up for statistics about burnout in women in many other careers.

Women in careers (and serious about it) tend to burnout easily and more severely.

Careers and the hard competition in them are more in the male side of things. Cooperation, on the other hand, is more on the female side.

I think you should follow your intuition. That's strong in women, after all, so it is your strength too.

Find another way to have an IT career, something that doesn't come at the cost of your mental health and energy.

And if you don't want to burnout, find a feminine way. Don't just try to copy the men or the women trying to be like men (career-wise, competing, "doing the same work"). That way, you will be using your feminine energies, which are more.

I may be repetitive, but being a woman is not a fact to be discounted. Just look at Astarte. She is the epitome of femininity, yet a Goddess of War. She is Powerful in being female.

Plus, think ahead. Don't you want to have children? Find a way in the IT field that also allows you to have time for them in the future, without sacrificing the career.

I don't think you are "losing an opportunity" and "so stupid because of it". Many times things don't go as planned (or as socially expected). Also think again if this "opportunity" is what you truly desire.

So, I say calm down, think what will you do (or feel your way out, more feminine) and get out of there. You may not need to do this immediately, but be sure you are going to leave that job and find a way to be truly successful.

Think something else, make a plan. I hate seeing a woman suffering in a career. If you love it, make that your drive, not whatever society or other people expects you to do to achieve their own definition of success.

Of course, check your natal chart again for more vocational advice, where to make money, where you would best fit, if it would be better to just make your own path and so on.

And research more about femininity and feminine energy (not just the superficial part of how to dress, although it may help).

On a side note:

Why do you say *some* experience or intelligence? Is this a way of implying you are stupid in some way? Is experience the same as intelligence?

You are intelligent or you are not and, from what I gather, you are actually smart. They are just making you feel stupid, it seems. Please, do not diminish yourself because of some person.


I may have also vented a little, but whatever, feelings are important too. Hope you do better in the near future.

 

[Deleted member 60793]

Perform the binding ritual on your boss: https://www.joyofsatan.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Binding_Spell.html

You don't need to walk away. Take control of the situation with magick.

Here is a spell I crafted for you. Start this on the Full Moon today, or wait until the next cycle of Waxing Moon dates. July 6th could work well when the Moon is Waxing in Libra.

Vibrate:
Raidho
Ansuz
x20

Affirm:
"I am now respected and listened to by the people I work with. I am treated fairly by the people in my life at all times."
x5

AUM

Visualize something like golden scales balancing and harmonizing the threads of your relationships and filling them with positive golden light.

do you have any magic or spells for an unwanted xian voice?

 

[Henu the Great]

If self employment / freelancing is an option for you, then that would be one path to choose from. Is there an option to finish studies in another job? If your studies would halt based on unemployment, then it would be high price to pay for resigning from the position. Magick could be an answer...

I am in a terrible position right now and I do not want this boss to think he has power over me, lest my woes get worse.
I was thinking about doing binding/repelling curses.... or perhaps some rituals for money and opportunity... it is just so much energy for 1 buffoon I'd rather leave in the dust.It appears for now there is no other option and it appears he knows this.
As for freelancing, admittedly I am not knowledgeable enough yet but I have had thoughts about starting my own business one day.

I must admit that the excact issue here evaded me. The approach depends on the issue. If there is abuse, yes, binding would be in place. Repelling curses however? Is he cursing you? Does not seem like the best approach for low key cases. If this is about mismatch in communication, yes you can bind as well, but you could also use runes to improve your relation with each other. Here is a brief post about runes for relationships.

 

[Blitzkreig [TG]]

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Although what you posted would still work and bring positive benefits, don't forget Gebo or Wunjo, as they specifically pertain to harmonious relationships, either between partners or communities.

 

[Blitzkreig [TG]]

What would you do? Or, what would you advise?

Although this position would not be good in the long term, you should probably hold your position for the time being while you can prepare alternatives or other solutions. Quitting now would ultimately be a larger inconvenience unless you have a ready position.

If you are in a position of low experience or an otherwise lackluster resume, then you should probably try to withstand this situation to improve your professional outlook.

Unfortunately, you may have to deal with the emotional stress of having a shitty boss. However, try not to let this reflect too much on you. Unless he is directly sabotaging you, you can deal with him being weird towards you.

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If you are not taken seriously, make sure that your Sun or Mars are not afflicted, even Saturn to some degree. They may be picking up on a lack of self-confidence. Otherwise, a bad aspect or degree on these planets/houses can also harm relationships with men.

I also say the above because you are distraught over this situation, which could point to you being more sensitive than others. Earth would reduce this sensitivity, and fire would instill natural confidence and happiness.

You could, for instance, invoke fire with a positive affirmation before dealing with him or others, or when you are feeling down about yourself. Otherwise, lean on other coworkers who may be more empathetic to you in regards to emotional support.

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Perhaps you are bottling up your feelings, but you are not in a position to directly express anger towards him. You could instill (with the help of fire) express passion towards your career, such as by profusely thanking him and expressing a strong desire for success. This might seem silly, but it is a grandiose way of asserting power over a situation.

Long-term solutions involve increasing your personal ability to confidently deal with others, as well as further blessing your career/wealth outlook to provide for more positive situations. If you are not doing this already, you should seriously look at the Mars in Aries squares, or the upcoming Summer Solstice/Sun in Leo Squares.

Perhaps Mars is in an unrelated house to your career, but that does not mean you cannot use it as such. Despite Aries being typically described as wild, I have found good success by using it to amplify my ambition, drive, and energy toward my Satanic career.

The Sun in Leo is more of a natural and more harmonious level of self-confidence, which also brings with it an improved wealth outlook. In comparison, Mars is much more focused on raw action and power. Both are useful here.

Good luck Soul Wings. I hope this situation resolves positively for you. You are not like 50% of IT women, nor are you what your coworkers think of you. Personally, I believe they do not understand the depth of your emotions over this issue, because if they did they would certainly respect you more.

 

[Flowers of Adonis]

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Although what you posted would still work and bring positive benefits, don't forget Gebo or Wunjo, as they specifically pertain to harmonious relationships, either between partners or communities.

I considered those Runes initially when I was trying to craft the spell. I also considered the Kenaz Rune for a different approach, but I scrapped that idea.

For my thought process: I contemplated what the OP described with her boss. It sounded to me like he could be an unscrupulous manipulator engaging in power tripping behavior. This is why I leaned towards the Ansuz Rune. I didn't want to advise her to use magick for potentially deepening a relationship that is unstable.

Best of all about this spell is that it will engrave in her soul if she does it as a 40 day working, and then the results will follow her through her life in other jobs as well. For this reason, the number of vibrations can be increased for more potency if desired.

It could also be noted the possibility of karma being at play here for the OP. This could be something to overcome. If she binds her boss then it will be possible for her to stand up to him without worrying for her job and other things.

 

[Soul Wings]

I must admit that the excact issue here evaded me. The approach depends on the issue. If there is abuse, yes, binding would be in place. Repelling curses however? Is he cursing you? Does not seem like the best approach for low key cases. If this is about mismatch in communication, yes you can bind as well, but you could also use runes to improve your relation with each other. Here is a brief post about runes for relationships.

Apologies, that was my wording there. Binding to reduce harm and sabotage, and a repelling ... ritual to try and prevent him from treating me weirdly. I do not expect miracles for the latter, I must find a way to mentally deal with this better in general.

 

[Henu the Great]

Apologies, that was my wording there. Binding to reduce harm and sabotage, and a repelling ... ritual to try and prevent him from treating me weirdly. I do not expect miracles for the latter, I must find a way to mentally deal with this better in general.

Yeah sure, why not. As for the second part, refer to Blitzkreigs advice as he has covered the aspect of self improvement which can play major role how people perceive and treat you.

 

[956GOD]

Make the most money you can and get the GOLD.