This is mostly an account of something that has happened ever since I dedicated, some 5 years ago.
My dedication was nothing as extraordinary as many people seem to experience, probably because of my own spiritual obstructions, but since that day I've started noticing many things differently. One of these things, and probably the strongest of all, is the feeling I started having whenever I so much as see a Yehuborim name. The same goes for pictures of Yehuborim or people with any amount of Yehuborim blood, even when they don't have remarkable Yehuborim traits.
It's weird. Weird actually describes the feeling very well because it's nothing like anger, or hatred; it's awkward, feels like something's wrong, uncomfortable - alien, even.
Being such a well defined feeling, I noticed I could track Yehuborim anywhere, and with time I got better at it. It got more and more reliable, and with some research I would always find out I was guessing correctly. It has reached a point where I can even feel that something's wrong when I see products of Yehuborim work, whatever that is, and it's kind of unsettling because I get this feeling pretty much _everywhere_. Everything is laden with Yehuborim energy.
A curious fact is that, having had some ups and downs in my life since I dedicated, I noticed that, whenever I was disconnected from Enki (i.e. himself, his teachings, meditations etc), the feeling wasn't nearly as strong as it would be when I was attuned to him.
I wonder if this is all due to racial heritage, gentile blood, an instinctual reaction to our enemy, or if it's spiritual, probably from past lives, a neverending grudge against Yehuborim oppression/aggression over many lifetimes. Maybe it's both, but I wonder if spiritually open people who don't know Enki can feel it too, somehow.
I believe the feeling can be different for each person. Has anyone experienced anything like that?
My dedication was nothing as extraordinary as many people seem to experience, probably because of my own spiritual obstructions, but since that day I've started noticing many things differently. One of these things, and probably the strongest of all, is the feeling I started having whenever I so much as see a Yehuborim name. The same goes for pictures of Yehuborim or people with any amount of Yehuborim blood, even when they don't have remarkable Yehuborim traits.
It's weird. Weird actually describes the feeling very well because it's nothing like anger, or hatred; it's awkward, feels like something's wrong, uncomfortable - alien, even.
Being such a well defined feeling, I noticed I could track Yehuborim anywhere, and with time I got better at it. It got more and more reliable, and with some research I would always find out I was guessing correctly. It has reached a point where I can even feel that something's wrong when I see products of Yehuborim work, whatever that is, and it's kind of unsettling because I get this feeling pretty much _everywhere_. Everything is laden with Yehuborim energy.
A curious fact is that, having had some ups and downs in my life since I dedicated, I noticed that, whenever I was disconnected from Enki (i.e. himself, his teachings, meditations etc), the feeling wasn't nearly as strong as it would be when I was attuned to him.
I wonder if this is all due to racial heritage, gentile blood, an instinctual reaction to our enemy, or if it's spiritual, probably from past lives, a neverending grudge against Yehuborim oppression/aggression over many lifetimes. Maybe it's both, but I wonder if spiritually open people who don't know Enki can feel it too, somehow.
I believe the feeling can be different for each person. Has anyone experienced anything like that?
