Man,you know what ,the fuckin courts are really on my ass and Im under alot of stress and I feel like Im putting father Satan on the backburner by neglecting my meditations and studies on the JOS this last week and I have a xian friend I cant get rid of AND HES TRYING TO DRAIN MY ENERGY and I WANT HIM OUT OF MY LIFE BEFORE HE REALLY GETS IN MY WAY OF MY STUDIES INTO THE OCCULT.i DONT WANT TO KILL HIM or hurt him,I just want him out of my life thats it.My anger and anxiety is getting worse every day and I really just want to just grab the next person that pisses me off and beat the living crap out of him.I look at everybody around me as the enemy.I dont trust no one.I dont think I can trust other Satanists either.I want to curse AA,THE COURT SYSTEM AND ALL MY ENEMIES AROUND ME.I dont think it will help.I quit taking my psych meds a month ago and I just dont give a fuck about me or anybody.I am wondering if Satan and the Demons can see whats going on with me.I dont want to do what the courts suggest either.I want to do what I want fuck everybody else.I have a bad attitude right now and I dont want to change it.
