The Reality of loneliness in Zevism (you are not alone)

[One Wire Phenomenon]

Thank you for this post. I’ve always been a loner, so the disconnect I’ve felt to people has never bothered me much. Not that I could live in a total vacuum, but most people tend to hold your progression back in some way or another. I’ve always felt better off without a group of friends.

What’s effected me more is that I’ve never been able to play into the system. It wears me down. I quit a well paying job recently because they were working me like a slave. I had no time for meditations and when I did, I felt too beat down and depressed to do them efficiently. I’d doze off as I was doing vibrations while sitting straight up. I can’t do it. It feels like no matter what I do, I’m playing into the Yehubor culture of work, sleep, consume. But I don’t want to be a homeless bum either, now that I’m an adult. I keep thinking I just need to work smarter, not harder. I have talents, but I feel like I hold myself back too. Or maybe I’m just too sensitive to the play the parts I need to play to be successful. But I know I want something different and I don’t want to settle for a life as a slave to the enemy system.

Hello Libra i feel the same in a lot of ways,but what has helped me is the Ritual
maby it will help you too.. It balances my scales...

 

[Aquarius]

This is better than stand up comedy :mrgreen: :mrgreen:

I love the way you express yourself. Haha

Thank you :lol:

 

[Sunny]

I agree, thanks for sharing Jack. In fact, today's society is very degenerate. The enemy has conditioned society to be a truly horrible society, where injustice reigns and people truly think that corruption is the right thing to do and that it is the greatest success they can make in life.

 

[Paladin of Khepu]

I was always alone. First after being beaten too many times in school, I brutally hurt my tormentors. Which got the Police involved. I converted to the Egyptian religion and shunned my Church and friends. I finished school in a program. As I was too violent. Then I spent years alone on a farm.

Had I never came to Zevism, that's where it would have ended. But instead I sought out other Zevists. Only to have falling outs, Suicide and yehuborim.

Now I feel Eternally alone. No matter who I'm around. Only to have others insult that fact. I was always a caring nice person. But the only thing I had left is Malice and Hatred.

With Black Magick many others have met with unfortunate circumstances. Like having people come in and stab to death their families.

I wish there was a world where I could love others, and be accepted. Perhaps that will turn around for me here soon. But woe to the mindless idiot that pushes me to far. For I have no qualms showing them what loneliness is really like.

Well that is definitely a rough past. I hope now that you are older you are able to surround yourself with mature and helpful people. Maybe you need to move or something, if the adults in your area act like that.

I hope you have some family that you can stay in contact with. If not, just start small by asking if they want to do something for the holidays, or maybe send them a card or something. The first interaction might seem awkward, but it could lead to a fruitful relationship. Getting friends might be a little hard, time wise, unless you have work acquaintances you like. Starting with family might be a little easier, in this sense.

Otherwise, you might consider working towards getting a partner of which you can start your own family with. Dating can more quickly lead to a relationship than working on building friendships would.

The OP is about some aspects of our nature that can promote for loneliness, but it shouldn't be a situation of complete isolation from the outside world; rather it is just harder than normal. If you genuinely feel eternally alone, then you should invest a little time into building relationships. You don't need to go crazy with it, rather just enough so you feel like you care about them, and they care about you back.

Btw, who insulted you? Normies don't understand and Zevism should know that we all have our own problems.

Very little family I care about. 2-3 people. I actually was invited by a friend to Thanksgiving. His wife speaks Russian, Yiddish and Hebrew. Isnt that lovely.

Everytime I find someone who wants to be my friend, it turns out to be a god damn Yehubor.

I mean really like who? The Biden supporting soft person? Perhaps the dumber then nails trump supporter? The goodie good christian? Or maybe the let's lift horns together Brotha!!! For Odins Beard!

If it's not someone involved with life on the level that i am, what's the point? Cuz a christian or something is going to stay with you, when you chant hours a day, the hebrew alphabet is dead!

I mean come the fuck on. Everything about this life is a joke. I either want shit to come the fuck on, or to be dead.

I can relate to you highly Aldrick. I have little family I really care about. It's an obstacle when they believe Yehubor's leader. I find it disgusting and to save me grief and annoyance, I stay way away from them. I find alot of people very slow, save the open-minded elders of society. They themselves I relate to more. I understand that normies are abundant at the time and it's best to be distant. At least talking on the forums can ease it a bit.

You're not the only one who's getting impatient with this war. Rather it be done with a big nuke on Pissrael.

 

[Wayofthegods]

Well that is definitely a rough past. I hope now that you are older you are able to surround yourself with mature and helpful people. Maybe you need to move or something, if the adults in your area act like that.

I hope you have some family that you can stay in contact with. If not, just start small by asking if they want to do something for the holidays, or maybe send them a card or something. The first interaction might seem awkward, but it could lead to a fruitful relationship. Getting friends might be a little hard, time wise, unless you have work acquaintances you like. Starting with family might be a little easier, in this sense.

Otherwise, you might consider working towards getting a partner of which you can start your own family with. Dating can more quickly lead to a relationship than working on building friendships would.

The OP is about some aspects of our nature that can promote for loneliness, but it shouldn't be a situation of complete isolation from the outside world; rather it is just harder than normal. If you genuinely feel eternally alone, then you should invest a little time into building relationships. You don't need to go crazy with it, rather just enough so you feel like you care about them, and they care about you back.

Btw, who insulted you? Normies don't understand and Zevism should know that we all have our own problems.

Very little family I care about. 2-3 people. I actually was invited by a friend to Thanksgiving. His wife speaks Russian, Yiddish and Hebrew. Isnt that lovely.

Everytime I find someone who wants to be my friend, it turns out to be a god damn Yehubor.

I mean really like who? The Biden supporting soft person? Perhaps the dumber then nails trump supporter? The goodie good christian? Or maybe the let's lift horns together Brotha!!! For Odins Beard!

If it's not someone involved with life on the level that i am, what's the point? Cuz a christian or something is going to stay with you, when you chant hours a day, the hebrew alphabet is dead!

I mean come the fuck on. Everything about this life is a joke. I either want shit to come the fuck on, or to be dead.

I can relate to you highly Aldrick. I have little family I really care about. It's an obstacle when they believe Yehubor's leader. I find it disgusting and to save me grief and annoyance, I stay way away from them. I find alot of people very slow, save the open-minded elders of society. They themselves I relate to more. I understand that normies are abundant at the time and it's best to be distant. At least talking on the forums can ease it a bit.

You're not the only one who's getting impatient with this war. Rather it be done with a big nuke on Pissrael.

Things keep getting better all the time. The Final has just made us impatient, because it's like wow imagine the life we could be living right now. Instead we have to tolerate their disgusting presence a bit longer.

I'm so sick of these things. I've got to see enough of their mindset.

 

[Head Guardian Blitzkreig]

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Satan wouldn't tell you that, simply because it would hinder your advancement to be put in prison, as well as inflicting overly harsh punishment on someone that wronged you. I think it more likely that something was trying to play on your weaknesses (you say the idea appeals to you and you feel psychopathic) by pushing you to do something that would only hurt you.

You should start a SaTaNaMa working to heal the issues you are undergoing. Something sounds not right with your emotions, both in how you feel and how you feel others. SaTaNaMa wholly heals and balances the soul, body, and mind, and so this will fix that if you continue it long enough.

Additionally, what do you feel when you meditate? Does your mood feel better? How do you feel after inhaling 5 or 10 good breaths of energy? Your mood and feelings are related to your power level, and so increasing your power so also increase your mood.

Know that any problems you face can always be solved. Don't give up, even if you feel bad in the moment. You need to keep fighting every day. With consistent effort and application of the right tools, your situation will turn around and stabilize.

Also, why do people call you a Yehubor or traitor? Was it because you posted about what you think Satan told you? He would never tell you to kidnap and kill someone, which is why some people maybe got offended and thought you were trying to blaspheme him.

 

[HauptSturm]

My only real friend was the person who told me about the ToZ website. I hope he's still out there. Haven't talked to him in a while.

 

[Anonymous]

Thanks Jack, I've been feeling very lonely lately, mostly due to high expectations from "normal" people, and then get disappointed when they obviously can't even meet half the expectations, and it's taking a toll in my mood, even bringing back depressive feelings I thought I had conquered... Thanks for putting things into perspective, I needed this.
Guess I should come to the forums more often and interact with you guys.
I know loneliness is a state of mind, but ultimately you need human interaction, physical touch, its been almost 10 years since the last time I was able to really connect with anyone....not having a partner or friends whatsoever, was really depressing for me. These days I have people I trust to some degree, and we talk about anything really that has to do with improving (otherwise I wouldn't be around them anyway) , but when the subject is religion, I always lie, because I know better this time. When the name Satan is spoken, people will either mock me, or fear me, or whatever... Even if I explain, so I'm done explaining... I just lie. Which is something I truly hate doing. So, to find a wife, is extremely hard to have that level of intimacy, I need to be my truly self, there's no other way around. Unless I want some fake relationship, which I do not.

 

[V12-POWER]

If it's not someone involved with life on the level that i am, what's the point? Cuz a christian or something is going to stay with you, when you chant hours a day, the hebrew alphabet is dead!

I mean come the fuck on. Everything about this life is a joke. I either want shit to come the fuck on, or to be dead.

I feel u bro I’m on the exact same position, it is inevitable once you begin to see how society is composed and built up to create degenerates, lazy fucks and communists

I have contact with a lot of people in my daily life but deep inside I don’t want to be around anybody. I enjoy being alone not surrounded by brainwashed npcs

I can sense all the fakeness in the air, I can sense the collapse is inevitable (in my country)

Everything and everyone is on that drug, instagram and materialistic shit ass social game

In the past 5 years I have met only ONE person who has drawn my attention, a girl which I had and then I lost because of self stupidity. I still miss her like no other, she taught me that even a rock like me could have feelings but even then, it was too long ago

It is true one advances and literally “rises” above others. There’s no point for me to go to gatherings and now clandestine parties. I go and most of the time I feel disgusted

I enjoy and feel fulfilled after a tough training session, after a long day at work or whatever makes me feel at peace with myself and distant from npcs

My life is pretty good and if I wasn’t a Zevist I would want to live like this forever, but I can’t stand the world that surrounds me. I mean, I want to fight, I want to crush the motherfuckers who did this to every potential person of the Gods. I don’t care if shit gets real tomorrow as long as this fake ass system gets the reboot that it needs

 

[Kinnaree]

It's lonely, but I tell myself I'm of Satan and the gods on his side. What a wonderful thing THIS reality is.

 

[Wayofthegods]

If it's not someone involved with life on the level that i am, what's the point? Cuz a christian or something is going to stay with you, when you chant hours a day, the hebrew alphabet is dead!

I mean come the fuck on. Everything about this life is a joke. I either want shit to come the fuck on, or to be dead.

I feel u bro I’m on the exact same position, it is inevitable once you begin to see how society is composed and built up to create degenerates, lazy fucks and communists

I have contact with a lot of people in my daily life but deep inside I don’t want to be around anybody. I enjoy being alone not surrounded by brainwashed npcs

I can sense all the fakeness in the air, I can sense the collapse is inevitable (in my country)

Everything and everyone is on that drug, instagram and materialistic shit ass social game

In the past 5 years I have met only ONE person who has drawn my attention, a girl which I had and then I lost because of self stupidity. I still miss her like no other, she taught me that even a rock like me could have feelings but even then, it was too long ago

It is true one advances and literally “rises” above others. There’s no point for me to go to gatherings and now clandestine parties. I go and most of the time I feel disgusted

I enjoy and feel fulfilled after a tough training session, after a long day at work or whatever makes me feel at peace with myself and distant from npcs

My life is pretty good and if I wasn’t a Zevist I would want to live like this forever, but I can’t stand the world that surrounds me. I mean, I want to fight, I want to crush the motherfuckers who did this to every potential person of the Gods. I don’t care if shit gets real tomorrow as long as this fake ass system gets the reboot that it needs

Same! The age of Satan Dawns before us!

 

[Satanic Path]

The only true place i feel at ease at being myself is at this forum because i have like-minded and intelligent people to converse with, about things that are actually important. In real life, i can easily converse with and influence almost anyone within reasonable doubt, however in that ordeal i have to act a certain way and portray a character in order to relate to the common people, which i feel i shouldn't have to do. But to function and exist in society i have to have a certain amount of leeway to be able to atleast converse with the common people.

Definitely agree. I would go insane without a place like this to express myself and speak with others. Though recently I am finding it harder to portray myself as a “normie”.

I have no interest in talking about non-spiritual person shit like celebrities, football games, gossip, etc.

Today a guy was talking about this very thing , something about a football team, then when he finished talking he laughed, and I did too because I didn’t want to be rude. But I could tell that he could tell I didn’t give AF.

I hate fake people so I hate being fake myself. I just can’t be bothered to keep the mask up any longer. It’s not autism or social anxiety, I just cannot talk to these people or relate to them at all so 99% of the time in a social setting I absolutely keep my mouth shut and observe what others are saying, only when I was with a group of friends would I be loud and funny, which I do enjoy. But my friends have been long gone and it’s really my fault, but whatever I’m not salty about it. I had already adapted to being a lone wolf before Zevism.

I always knew I'm not sick the way my doctor described me.
What is wrong in feeling superior than most people? Nothing. Because we are not standard people at all.
Then add it I like to be lonely, and here comes the Yehubor doctor with a bunch of pills.

 

[One Wire Phenomenon]

Thanks Jack, I've been feeling very lonely lately, mostly due to high expectations from "normal" people, and then get disappointed when they obviously can't even meet half the expectations, and it's taking a toll in my mood, even bringing back depressive feelings I thought I had conquered... Thanks for putting things into perspective, I needed this.
Guess I should come to the forums more often and interact with you guys.
I know loneliness is a state of mind, but ultimately you need human interaction, physical touch, its been almost 10 years since the last time I was able to really connect with anyone....not having a partner or friends whatsoever, was really depressing for me. These days I have people I trust to some degree, and we talk about anything really that has to do with improving (otherwise I wouldn't be around them anyway) , but when the subject is religion, I always lie, because I know better this time. When the name Satan is spoken, people will either mock me, or fear me, or whatever... Even if I explain, so I'm done explaining... I just lie. Which is something I truly hate doing. So, to find a wife, is extremely hard to have that level of intimacy, I need to be my truly self, there's no other way around. Unless I want some fake relationship, which I do not.

Its like you speaking out of my hart too hehe,but i still tell people why Satan is the real Creator,i have been in many fights about that with my family,i have even been sent to rehab two times and been physically assaulted but when i look back on how it was then and now,i can see i big difference.. They know im a Zevist and they just accept it and do nothing to me.. When i do something wrong yes they are quick to say you devil child hahaha but on the long term i surely have won.

 

[SouthernWhiteGentile]

I always knew I'm not sick the way my doctor described me.
What is wrong in feeling superior than most people? Nothing. Because we are not standard people at all.
Then add it I like to be lonely, and here comes the Yehubor doctor with a bunch of pills.

I wouldn’t even call it superiority. It’s just that the average person so LOW that someone like me who isn’t that advanced is elevated up to a higher status by default.

I’m not Yehuborim so when I see all of these frankly STUPID people who believe these enemy narratives and live bad lifestyles I don’t feel happy knowing that I’m better. I have pity for these people and wish they could be sitting at the table with us being aware of reality.

Most people hate themselves and their lives and they can’t even tell you exactly why so they start projecting. This is where ideas like socialism or antinatalism come from.

 

[Pan_Shaman]

The only true place i feel at ease at being myself is at this forum because i have like-minded and intelligent people to converse with, about things that are actually important. In real life, i can easily converse with and influence almost anyone within reasonable doubt, however in that ordeal i have to act a certain way and portray a character in order to relate to the common people, which i feel i shouldn't have to do. But to function and exist in society i have to have a certain amount of leeway to be able to atleast converse with the common people.

Definitely agree. I would go insane without a place like this to express myself and speak with others. Though recently I am finding it harder to portray myself as a “normie”.

I have no interest in talking about non-spiritual person shit like celebrities, football games, gossip, etc.

Today a guy was talking about this very thing , something about a football team, then when he finished talking he laughed, and I did too because I didn’t want to be rude. But I could tell that he could tell I didn’t give AF.

I hate fake people so I hate being fake myself. I just can’t be bothered to keep the mask up any longer. It’s not autism or social anxiety, I just cannot talk to these people or relate to them at all so 99% of the time in a social setting I absolutely keep my mouth shut and observe what others are saying, only when I was with a group of friends would I be loud and funny, which I do enjoy. But my friends have been long gone and it’s really my fault, but whatever I’m not salty about it. I had already adapted to being a lone wolf before Zevism.

I always knew I'm not sick the way my doctor described me.
What is wrong in feeling superior than most people? Nothing. Because we are not standard people at all.
Then add it I like to be lonely, and here comes the Yehubor doctor with a bunch of pills.

That makes more than two of us, it's the qi/willpower we posses and also the fact that we are very sensitive as humen beings. I m really putting a lot of effort in void meditation and alternate nostril, which cleans the soul from the weird symptoms of manic/depressive (but then again, feeling superior is not a syptmom, but ok, I am pretty sure you know what I mean by symptoms). Our only problem, us who take pills, is that this like you said Yehuborim doctor exists. We would be mantis/shamans or whatnot in the golden age, and also in the one to come. I am pretty darn positive half of the people here would be diagnosed with bipolar by this Sigmudian way of "Psychiatry"

We are winning though.

I started again for a 5th time a healing working (Thaurisas, Ansus,Wunjo). I can't really stop the pills cause I/we are addicted (but no worries, sooner than later the gods will heal us intuitively). I think always that Thoth is by my side... You should do the same!

 

[Enigmatic_Thinker]

The more I started to guide myself towards knowledge and wisdom, the more I started distancing myself from people in life. The feeling that I have when I am alone is much more relaxing for my soul, because my mind is able to focus on things that truly matter in life. Among your everyday ignoramuses, it is hard to remain in control when you look at their low awareness and concern for meaningless things in life. Before I became drawn to JOYS I felt lot of anger directed at the problems in life that people do not care about much. My period of loneliness has been made relaxing thanks to the fact that I know that the presence of Satan and demons is around me. I am not the typical person of my generation who will just hangs around social networks posting millions of pictures or sharing the trash that is promoted by the yehuborim.