Yeah some communication mistakes on my part. We do draw upon Satans power and also we have our own power, but without Satans backing we are pretty much helpless against the higher enemies.
Before I dedicated to Satan I spend two years doing power meditations, not the ones from the JoS, but quite a few things I was doing were quite similar, to some of the beginner meditations on the JoS. It was based on vizualization a lot and also had to do with chakra spinning, energy projecting and other things. Certainly not amazing compared to the stuff we have on the JoS, but much better than 90% of other stuff on the web..
During those two years I was undedicated, I'm guessing not many people here have been in that kind of situation, where one tries to advance spiritually while not dedicated to Satan. In those two years I was on my own, no help and no spiritual protection from any higher beings and I know just how helpless you really are without the Gods...
At that point I was spiritually powerful enough to heal myself, heal others and also read aura's, see energy and other basic things. So I wasn't even very weak, in fact compared to the average person I knew a lot about energy projecting and using energy, protecting yourself astrally and such.
I was under constant assault by what I now know are angel thoughtforms. They destroyed me. They played with me like I was a toy, messing with my mind, playing both sides, pretending to be helpful but really just out for my destruction. I fought against them every day, my will against their will. Physically I got attacked constantly too, like being suffocated at night, having burns or scratches that came from nothing, having my lights explode, my electrical outlets explode, being assaulted with nightmares every night, being kept up by entities speaking to me and cursing me, telling me to kill myself and worse for two years straight.
I had to protect myself, with the limited knowledge I had, and so I did. I did the best I could, which was slowly lose my sanity and slowly getting devoured by these bitches. At the time I thought I was batteling some kind of incredibly dangerous astral beings, but they were the lowest of the low, just mere angel thoughtforms, not even a single grey ever came to harrass me during those times before my dedication.
And like I said, I might not have had a very good understanding of the occult, but I knew how to use my energy, I knew how to heal myself and such things, so I wasn't weak per say, but I was helpless regardless.
I used to invoke solar energy daily and do void meditation during those times to try and keep them away from me and to try and keep my self sane, to push out those thoughts and the constant non stop harrasment.
Imagine hearing 20 different people yelling in your ears 24/7 and telling you the most depraved things, then imagine being harrased by those people day and night, have them suffocate you, scratch you, hit you and whatever, not even being able to fight back. That was fun I guess.
That was my first experience with the occult, and I thought it was normal, but not once did I fear them, in fact no matter what they tried I pushed through but it was all for naught in the end, I nearly lost my sanity and nearly got to the point where I became depressed.
Then one day another voice spoke to me, she called herself Kali. I was interested in the Hindu pantheon most back then and most of the meditations I was doing were based on the ancient Dharma they use, basically the second best thing to true power meditation.
I thought she was just another one of those filthy bitch entities trying to mess with me but she told me she'd help me out. And she did. After I spoke with her I wasn't attacked for three months, literally for the first time in two years I felt at peace, my mind was calm and the voices were gone, it was calm and peaceful. It was such a relief.
Then Shortly after that I found the Joy of Satan and dedicated myself. I can tell you from personal experience, the Gods protect us extremely much. Without them all of us would eventually succumb to their attacks. Even the angel thoughtforms can destroy you if you are on your own, because they are nearly limitless in their numbers.
We are stronger than those thougtforms, which is why I lasted two years on my own and was able to fight back while on my own for that long, but their numbers are pretty much endless, they will keep comming back if they can untill you simply can't take it anymore.
I am very strong mentally and from all this I learned how to defend myself, but I know the enemy isn't weak.
That experience I had with that enemy Nordic was my first experience with one of them and it was very humbling, because it made me realize even more just how much at a disadvantage we really are. My GD did commend me for fighting well and not getting immedietly overwhelmed by him, but that was all I could do and so I have much to learn.
After dedicating I have dealth with reptillians 2 times, and greys a number of times, but I don't know how many.
Greys I have learned to defend myself against, they don't get to me easily, but the reptillians are another thing entirely, again they are not to be underestimated...
I can't say for sure if I dealth with them by myself or not when they showed up to me, but I do think I was assisted by my GD.
Right now I'm much more capable spiritually than I was before during those two years before I found the JoS and I would hate to think what could have happened if a reptillian or an enemy nordic had shown up to take me out before I could find the JoS and become a potential threath in the future.
I'm not saying you should be scared of them. I am never scared of the enemy, but I don't blindly believe myself to be powerful enough to destroy them and just like Aldric, I don't waste my time thinking I can go killing hundrends (or even a couple) of them on the astral...
Maybe we can damage their astral bodies, but that is hard to say for sure. The astral is a strange place to observe, it's very malleable, things can change very quickly there and it's not like the physical at all.
The astral body is extremely sturdy and resilliant, because it's a higher dimensional aspect of you and it needs to be sturdy because what happens on the astral all carries a lot more power than what does on the physical.
If hypothetically your physical body would be attacked directly by an astral attack of the enemy you can say good bye to your body.. It's simply going to get destroyed, the astral body is build to last in the astral, but this means the enemies who attack you there are also build to last, their astral bodies are also extremely though, much more so than our own.
I don't know all the specifics of this, this is more just my own observation, but I'm sure the exact knowledge regarding this will become known to us in time.
Just make sure you protect your self as best you can using one of the many methods of the JoS, this will get you a long way and when you get to the point where more powerful enemies will catch wind of you and feel the need to go after you personally you will get advanced protection techniques from your GD to help you ward of the more dangerous enemies.