GD. said:
Indeed spirituality had been took away from us forcefully in the past, but we've come a long way with everything we do, and some information even managed to survive which is incredible.
Not only information but spirituality itself, it can be seen especially in little kids as I saw, but it goes away with age. I can always see, when I go to supermarket, toddlers looking at me and smiling to me, to which I always take my mask off to smile back at them. They are extremely happy to see actual people, especially in these hard times, that I do not care for anyone's reaction, children need humans to be humans. It is pretty clear to me that they do feel energy and this ability goes away as time passes, even if I may be wrong.
Compared to 20 or more years ago, I do feel a very defining difference in the world. Once, I loved the idea of learning psychic powers (powers of the mind we all called them, ignoring they all come from the Human Soul), and this was luckily also what brought me to the JoS in the first place. Thought more than once that the Gods wanted me to look for another hopeless "telekinesis tutorial" the day I typed the word and found the Telekinesis page in the JoS. One click after and finding the JoS Homepage, I decided I was going to be a Spiritual Satanist and never looked back to anything else.
Back then, however, I wanted this (psychic powers) but couldn't feel a thing. When I started with basic meditations just to feel something and then quickly enough increased the difficulty, the number of breaths and the level of the meditations, I found to my horror that I somehow couldn't access the very CORE of what is Spiritual Satanism: I could feel no energy, or if I could I was the one somehow blocking it, or blocking myself from feeling it.
Talk about wrong mindset, huh?
In the end, what solved the entire thing for me was basically three things: 1. doing the Final Ritual.. I could feel the tiny 'flowing' of energy whereas before it was silence and dead, 2. forcefully analyzing myself and working on removing this wrong mindset that "I can't feel energy".. which without a doubt stopped me so far from even starting to feel.. and 3. LOVING the Gods (this is something extremely important, but it also comes with issues before one can actually do it.. in other words, I feared that by loving someone I couldn't see or feel I was more like a xtian who 'loves' a fake 'god' he can never feel (but will defend past the point of absolute shame and self deceit). Knowing this, I didn't want to really "feel delusional" (I'd make Aquarius proud now lol) by developing strong unconditioned feelings for beings I didn't know existed for sure. I had to develop myself but mostly removing obstacles to let my Soul be restored (as much as I could) before feeling something and knowing the Gods were close and hadn't given up on my sorry ass.
Now I'm at the point where after an orgasm I can feel the flow in my base chakra and it's like a little river of energy, spiraling, becoming active, and it's so noticeable if I focus on it, it becomes more like a 'humming' sound, but tactile if you know what I mean.. and for me to feel JUST this after an orgasm, it makes me really wonder just how much I've been corrupted in the past to only feel this effect. This is obviously the easiest to notice after my energy peaks (I can't imagine how a rising Serpent feels like yet, but I can't wait to find out... that's also what made me wanna try that "Breath of Fire Ritual" I told you about before), but I have felt this happening a lot after doing the three Serpent Rituals in January, and NOW I can feel this effect starting randomly, even as I sit at the table after lunch and relax a moment. It's there...
So, a LOT is changing. The Age of Aquarius isn't an easy one as it still requires constant self sacrifice and effort and strong, unwavering belief, but it DOES lead out of the dark ages, it DOES lead us back to our beloved Gods.
As for children, this comment of yours has got the BEST of timing.
I was going for groceries yesterday and twice I had some little girl (like 7 or 8 years old I guess) either saluting me completely out of the blue or waving at me like I was a long time friend... :O
I was pretty surprised because although kids seem to really like me since I was like 14 or so, I don't get that kind of attention now, not from complete strangers, not in public like in the book store where this child walked past me after saying "hi" to my face and smiling... I DID KNOW this was an energy thing.
I do know my Serpent is slowly uncoiling and rising. (Can't wait to read HP HC's new post about Dragons. Always felt drawn to dragons my entire life, also snakes actually.. I read the same book on snakes as a child over and over and over again. I felt something "click" in me every time I touched it, now that I think in retrospection.)
As you say, indeed children have got a stronger knack from abilities. I remember loving having imaginary cartoon friends when I was probably younger than 7, and I hated how my parents thought I was abnormal, that I wasn't developing correctly. One day, especially, I felt as if my parents had 'broken' this thing I did, and I couldn't do it anymore because otherwise I was deemed to be broken myself, stupid, wrong, or damaged. To tell you the truth, it felt exactly like I was being forbidden from going to a world I felt I belonged. I don't know how that had to do with what I know now, the Gods, the astral, multiple dimensions, but in 2003 I did discover I had a knack for creating thoughtforms with very little effort. To this day, that is probably the number one ability I should think of when I think of what I can do. The last time (I made a post on thoughtforms if you want to know more about it) I had the most unexpected success as my newly created thoughtform already started stimulating my pineal gland, so I do assume that I can create pretty strong thoughtforms.
Children have a much better time sensing the astral and naturally wanting to learn from it, be part of it. But I don't think they necessarily "lose" the abilities they have at birth and discover as children... I merely believe that these abilities become sacrificed, as in buried, for the "greater good", which simply means they are not accepted as normal by others until the refuse to be this part of themselves that they feel is perfectly normal (because if is of course).
But nothing stops them from wanting to rediscover this part of themselves years after, when they feel something is lacking in their lives and no matter the amount of money they make or career or life satisfactions seem to satisfy that "urge" for the astral.
You can't "kill" the Human Soul, you can only bind it. (I don't know if this is exactly correct, but I strongly feel this to be a fact. Satan made us to be immortal. I refuse to believe a corrupted system could kill anything Satan created.)
GD. said:
That's what I was wondering... how much can one learn in as little or as much (it's relative) as let's say 20 years.
I guess it wasn't that easy at the beginning. When I discovered the JoS in 2002 I didn't have my own computer, I had to wait until my sister was done chatting with her bullshit friends to log on and read from the JoS keeping an eye out for those that felt like I'd do something stupid. And although 20 years may be a long time, there are a lot of pages I still couldn't reach in the JoS. Mostly from the library, of course, as I don't have as much time to read as I'd like (especially now between ritual schedules and RL work and other things, having to sacrifice personal meditation time to read from the JoS, read in the Forum, etc), but I suppose this is also something that makes you aware of what you really want...
In my case, I think I visited the meditation page and the Demons page at least thousands of times. This, when I take a step back, tells me what I crave the most is contact with the Gods and to develop my Soul so I can reach them. This however only really got a good boost since last year (or two years) when I started to believe more that I had a right to meet the Gods (gave myself the right, breaking that stupid mindset) and after I started doing consistent Rituals.
Also, coupling meditation and Yoga has helped a lot. There is truly a lot about the physical that we should all consider more as important to reach spirituality at its finest.
GD. said:
I will read some messages on the "Regarding Elements" topic that you said about. But for my experience with elements, I don't know if I am going to work with them just for now. Last time I did, almost 2 years ago, I was in a trance state, and I was breathing in fire, I tried to invoke the fire element, and I did like 3 breaths of it (which took obviously a few seconds) and I already found myself sweating like crazy. As I know it can be dangerous I decided to stop. The other experiences with elements weren't that intense but still very powerful, and the only element I never tried to invoke was earth. I will invoke them all again when I think I am ready.
This is just a theory I have developed, but don't take it too seriously as there are also cases where this is meaningless.
In my observation of myself and others, I feel that a person (someone who meditates and uses Soul powers) has either a knack for Perceiving energy or Projecting energy.
In your case it's probably the first: you seem to be very skilled at sensing the astral, have easily enough (compared to me at least) managed to develop your astral sight and found your incubus, and when doing as little as 3 fire absorption breaths you sweat like crazy.... in my opinion, you have a very sensitive Soul 'system' but have to build up your resistance to a lot of energy types, and in this regard I do suggest you periodically train with even just one breath of each Element.
Don't know what your natal chart is like or if you know what Elements are dominant and weakest in your Soul, but you should probably experiment (in a very easy and relaxed way!) with them and see if there's something you can learn about yourself over a number of sessions.
I find the Elements to be very good teachers as they 'push' you in extreme directions and force you to face parts of you that only deal with some features in the Soul. But of course this is also possibly the most intense kind of energy so do ignore this advice or just build a semi immunity to strong energy by using other meditations before coming back to these 4 purest forms of energy.
As for Earth, I'm not sure I know what to suggest here. In my experience, (perhaps because in me this is the weakest Element) Earth is the one that caused the most spiritual contacts: I felt roots in the ground, insects, a connection with plants to the point of realizing they communicate in an impossibly perfect way, making no two plants in the entire world disconnected from the 'plant matrix' so to speak, and I also learned a lot from spiders and how the sense of touch (something Earth teaches about) can be used to 'bridge' a person and other dimensions. Also, Earth is said to be an Element that causes death (by slowing the heart rate past the point of no return, technically) so do not overdo this even if you're confident. Talk to your incubus or your Guardian about it if you need to, but your safety comes first.
Me, I'm the other way around: I can't see astral or any Gods unless I REALLY empty my mind with closed eyes and manage to summon a brief flashing vision which I can later recall.. kind of like a polaroid photograph in a way, I only hear astral sounds even more rarely, the greatest and perhaps only real success I had in 2012 when I asked a Goddess her name and heard her voice distinctly (although with a lot of echoing), and my only real astral sense for the past 20 years has been the ability to pick up scents... but this still didn't help as it is more like a sort of "remote viewing" but with scents, meaning I could tell what kind of shampoo my friend in Oregon had used but I couldn't tell a thing about the Gods (I could somehow smell greys to the point of almost 'tasting' their disgusting rotten meat bodies... that was one way of telling when they posed as someone friendly in a dream gone slightly lucid). All this perceptive stuff, I royally suck at. On the other hand: I can create thoughtforms that take me a couple seconds to make but that perceptive enough people on the other side of the world will feel as almost physical and highly energetic, had a decent grip on manipulating the weather until I decided to stop because I could also do a lot of damage in some region.. (no joke.. the weather is a massive weapon, just look at Texas and how the HAARP has made ice that won't even melt with fire), my best ever "magick" has been of the healing kind (I'll leave it at that as I did say too much in one of my first posts), and I can probably absorb Elements until I decide to stop without feeling any discomfort.
So.. Perceptive and Projecting. I guess this is one of the most beautiful things about sharing information with other Brothers and Sisters, we get to help those that are in need of answers we have, and we receive the answers we're longing for in return. Constantly evolving. Until the Gods will finally come back and we'll evolve so much faster this current reality will probably seem like a nearly impossible bad dream we're finally leaving for good.
GD. said:
About the revealing part that you said, I would never put personal information on a forum (in general), especially in a place where enemies are closely watching. This is why, even in the beginning of my last message in this topic here, I was generally speaking about myself, even if I do know exactly who I was, I hesitated, and I will continue to, as it can reveal a lot about myself now, putting me in an extreme danger. But asides of that, it is an indescribable pleasure to share with my brothers and sisters whatever I feel like sharing if it is in both of our interest and benefit, or at least in theirs.
You're absolutely right, it's safer not to give some information (and I did probably say too much in this one
but I'm now very well protected and know how to deal with attacks much better than I did last year or the years before), so only ever say as much as you're comfortable saying, and don't be too direct making it easier for others (the enemy) to filter messages by keywords. But I agree, it is an indescribable pleasure to share more with Brothers and Sisters. We are normally surrounded by NPCs that we can't tell anything about and it does get lonely when one isn't the best at reaching the Gods on a whim (for me it is at least), so this is a really nice change. And of course there's another factor at play, something newbies love: knowing other Zevism have already accomplished some magickal feats serve as a personal boost, either because it (usually) proves something CAN be done (cuz others did before us) and it also makes us want to give our best because we don't want to be left behind, and treat these people as 'older' brothers and sisters in real life, to a degree.
We're all a huge, marvelous, Satanic Family. One day we will all personally know each other.
Always good to talk with you, Sister.
HAIL SATAN FOREVER!
