. I had no reason to feel like what I was feeling.--- In , "demonic_fury29" <demonic_fury29@... wrote:
Fuck it's real complicated...all I can say Ive been having these real strong urges to just run from all this: Father and Gods, JoS in general, this group, tempted to give up on meditations, etc.
I mean one afternoon after work when I got home I was really tired so I laid down and took a 2 1/2 hr nap. When I woke up, I suddenly had this huge hatred for everything that's JoS related. What was worse was I actually believed it and felt it to be true
Im not sure if Im being attacked or if it's just...normal but it's torture!
I hate it!
I keep telling myself to keep going but its strong enough that I really AM TEMPTED to give up! Not to mention I have this urge to go back and be an atheist again! Ugh!
The hells going on here? Its awful!
HAIL SATAN!!!
--- In , "En Haradren Amlug" <hecktic_shadow@ wrote:
Both happen. The Gods test us, the enemy torture us, or try.
It depends, can't really tell without knowing what specifically is happening to you.
-En Haradren Amlug.
--- In , "demonic_fury29" <demonic_fury29@ wrote:
Is it true that when you've been Dedicated for awhile or new in general that you COULD be tested?
Or tortured lol.
Im not sure whats going on but Im sensing Im either being tested...or tortured by the enemy.
Does this happen to all new people?
HAIL SATAN!!!
On 8/8/13, Reliant Gorgoth <darkfury211@... wrote:
When stuff like that happens, just raise energy, clean your aura.
Apparently, covering yourself in the Aether, the Quintessence, removes
thoughts that aren't your own. As you'll find, that bullshit mmore
than likely isn't. The sun, is great for stuff like this. Also, meditating
on Father Satan, can help a lot.
As for your last sentence, En Haradren Amlug , I find that I don't realize
that meditating daily helps so much when I slack off, but more so, when I
start again and can see the difference.
Hail Satan!
Ave Zeus!
________________________________
From: En Haradren Amlug <hecktic_shadow@...
To:
Sent: Wednesday, August 7, 2013 9:55 PM
Subject: Re: tested or tortured
This does sound like an attack, especially that you suddenly changed after
sleeping. When we are sleeping, we are much more open to attack, and
programing. This is why its a good reason to do an aura of protection and
cleansing before sleep, and in the morning.
What is a test, is to see weather you can last. That is purly up to you. Be
persistant, and keep pushing through the hardship, and you will certainly
happier for it. Don't let the enemy get to you, and make you give in. Just
keep pushing forwards.
Make sure you're meditating daily, this helps so much, and often we only
realise once we stop meditating.
-En Haradren Amlug.
--- In mailto:, "demonic_fury29"
<demonic_fury29@... wrote:
Fuck it's real complicated...all I can say Ive been having these real
strong urges to just run from all this: Father and Gods, JoS in general,
this group, tempted to give up on meditations, etc.
I mean one afternoon after work when I got home I was really tired so I
laid down and took a 2 1/2 hr nap. When I woke up, I suddenly had this
huge hatred for everything that's JoS related. What was worse was I
actually believed it and felt it to be true
like what I was feeling.
Im not sure if Im being attacked or if it's just...normal but it's
torture!
I hate it!
I keep telling myself to keep going but its strong enough that I really AM
TEMPTED to give up! Not to mention I have this urge to go back and be an
atheist again! Ugh!
The hells going on here? Its awful!
HAIL SATAN!!!
--- In mailto:, "En Haradren Amlug"
<hecktic_shadow@ wrote:
Both happen. The Gods test us, the enemy torture us, or try.
It depends, can't really tell without knowing what specifically is
happening to you.
-En Haradren Amlug.
--- In mailto:, "demonic_fury29"
<demonic_fury29@ wrote:
Is it true that when you've been Dedicated for awhile or new in
general that you COULD be tested?
Or tortured lol.
Im not sure whats going on but Im sensing Im either being tested...or
tortured by the enemy.
Does this happen to all new people?
HAIL SATAN!!!
--- In , Allison P <apocalypseofjon@... wrote:
Oh yes, definitely an attack by angels. Ignore it and move on! Don't
fucking give up, as that is exactly what the enemy wants! Be strong!
On 8/8/13, Reliant Gorgoth <darkfury211@... wrote:
When stuff like that happens, just raise energy, clean your aura.
Apparently, covering yourself in the Aether, the Quintessence, removes
thoughts that aren't your own. As you'll find, that bullshit mmore
than likely isn't. The sun, is great for stuff like this. Also, meditating
on Father Satan, can help a lot.
As for your last sentence, En Haradren Amlug , I find that I don't realize
that meditating daily helps so much when I slack off, but more so, when I
start again and can see the difference.
Hail Satan!
Ave Zeus!
________________________________
From: En Haradren Amlug <hecktic_shadow@...
To:
Sent: Wednesday, August 7, 2013 9:55 PM
Subject: Re: tested or tortured
This does sound like an attack, especially that you suddenly changed after
sleeping. When we are sleeping, we are much more open to attack, and
programing. This is why its a good reason to do an aura of protection and
cleansing before sleep, and in the morning.
What is a test, is to see weather you can last. That is purly up to you. Be
persistant, and keep pushing through the hardship, and you will certainly
happier for it. Don't let the enemy get to you, and make you give in. Just
keep pushing forwards.
Make sure you're meditating daily, this helps so much, and often we only
realise once we stop meditating.
-En Haradren Amlug.
--- In mailto:, "demonic_fury29"
<demonic_fury29@ wrote:
Fuck it's real complicated...all I can say Ive been having these real
strong urges to just run from all this: Father and Gods, JoS in general,
this group, tempted to give up on meditations, etc.
I mean one afternoon after work when I got home I was really tired so I
laid down and took a 2 1/2 hr nap. When I woke up, I suddenly had this
huge hatred for everything that's JoS related. What was worse was I
actually believed it and felt it to be true
like what I was feeling.
Im not sure if Im being attacked or if it's just...normal but it's
torture!
I hate it!
I keep telling myself to keep going but its strong enough that I really AM
TEMPTED to give up! Not to mention I have this urge to go back and be an
atheist again! Ugh!
The hells going on here? Its awful!
HAIL SATAN!!!
--- In mailto:, "En Haradren Amlug"
<hecktic_shadow@ wrote:
Both happen. The Gods test us, the enemy torture us, or try.
It depends, can't really tell without knowing what specifically is
happening to you.
-En Haradren Amlug.
--- In mailto:, "demonic_fury29"
<demonic_fury29@ wrote:
Is it true that when you've been Dedicated for awhile or new in
general that you COULD be tested?
Or tortured lol.
Im not sure whats going on but Im sensing Im either being tested...or
tortured by the enemy.
Does this happen to all new people?
HAIL SATAN!!!
--- In , Allison P <apocalypseofjon@... wrote:
Oh yes, definitely an attack by angels. Ignore it and move on! Don't
fucking give up, as that is exactly what the enemy wants! Be strong!
On 8/8/13, Reliant Gorgoth <darkfury211@... wrote:
When stuff like that happens, just raise energy, clean your aura.
Apparently, covering yourself in the Aether, the Quintessence, removes
thoughts that aren't your own. As you'll find, that bullshit mmore
than likely isn't. The sun, is great for stuff like this. Also, meditating
on Father Satan, can help a lot.
As for your last sentence, En Haradren Amlug , I find that I don't realize
that meditating daily helps so much when I slack off, but more so, when I
start again and can see the difference.
Hail Satan!
Ave Zeus!
________________________________
From: En Haradren Amlug <hecktic_shadow@...
To:
Sent: Wednesday, August 7, 2013 9:55 PM
Subject: Re: tested or tortured
This does sound like an attack, especially that you suddenly changed after
sleeping. When we are sleeping, we are much more open to attack, and
programing. This is why its a good reason to do an aura of protection and
cleansing before sleep, and in the morning.
What is a test, is to see weather you can last. That is purly up to you. Be
persistant, and keep pushing through the hardship, and you will certainly
happier for it. Don't let the enemy get to you, and make you give in. Just
keep pushing forwards.
Make sure you're meditating daily, this helps so much, and often we only
realise once we stop meditating.
-En Haradren Amlug.
--- In mailto:, "demonic_fury29"
<demonic_fury29@ wrote:
Fuck it's real complicated...all I can say Ive been having these real
strong urges to just run from all this: Father and Gods, JoS in general,
this group, tempted to give up on meditations, etc.
I mean one afternoon after work when I got home I was really tired so I
laid down and took a 2 1/2 hr nap. When I woke up, I suddenly had this
huge hatred for everything that's JoS related. What was worse was I
actually believed it and felt it to be true
like what I was feeling.
Im not sure if Im being attacked or if it's just...normal but it's
torture!
I hate it!
I keep telling myself to keep going but its strong enough that I really AM
TEMPTED to give up! Not to mention I have this urge to go back and be an
atheist again! Ugh!
The hells going on here? Its awful!
HAIL SATAN!!!
--- In mailto:, "En Haradren Amlug"
<hecktic_shadow@ wrote:
Both happen. The Gods test us, the enemy torture us, or try.
It depends, can't really tell without knowing what specifically is
happening to you.
-En Haradren Amlug.
--- In mailto:, "demonic_fury29"
<demonic_fury29@ wrote:
Is it true that when you've been Dedicated for awhile or new in
general that you COULD be tested?
Or tortured lol.
Im not sure whats going on but Im sensing Im either being tested...or
tortured by the enemy.
Does this happen to all new people?
HAIL SATAN!!!
--- In , "gundard11709" <gundard11709@... wrote:
oh yes and could this also be a test?
--- In , Allison P <apocalypseofjon@ wrote:
Oh yes, definitely an attack by angels. Ignore it and move on! Don't
fucking give up, as that is exactly what the enemy wants! Be strong!
On 8/8/13, Reliant Gorgoth <darkfury211@ wrote:
When stuff like that happens, just raise energy, clean your aura.
Apparently, covering yourself in the Aether, the Quintessence, removes
thoughts that aren't your own. As you'll find, that bullshit mmore
than likely isn't. The sun, is great for stuff like this. Also, meditating
on Father Satan, can help a lot.
As for your last sentence, En Haradren Amlug , I find that I don't realize
that meditating daily helps so much when I slack off, but more so, when I
start again and can see the difference.
Hail Satan!
Ave Zeus!
________________________________
From: En Haradren Amlug <hecktic_shadow@
To:
Sent: Wednesday, August 7, 2013 9:55 PM
Subject: Re: tested or tortured
This does sound like an attack, especially that you suddenly changed after
sleeping. When we are sleeping, we are much more open to attack, and
programing. This is why its a good reason to do an aura of protection and
cleansing before sleep, and in the morning.
What is a test, is to see weather you can last. That is purly up to you. Be
persistant, and keep pushing through the hardship, and you will certainly
happier for it. Don't let the enemy get to you, and make you give in. Just
keep pushing forwards.
Make sure you're meditating daily, this helps so much, and often we only
realise once we stop meditating.
-En Haradren Amlug.
--- In mailto:, "demonic_fury29"
<demonic_fury29@ wrote:
Fuck it's real complicated...all I can say Ive been having these real
strong urges to just run from all this: Father and Gods, JoS in general,
this group, tempted to give up on meditations, etc.
I mean one afternoon after work when I got home I was really tired so I
laid down and took a 2 1/2 hr nap. When I woke up, I suddenly had this
huge hatred for everything that's JoS related. What was worse was I
actually believed it and felt it to be true
like what I was feeling.
Im not sure if Im being attacked or if it's just...normal but it's
torture!
I hate it!
I keep telling myself to keep going but its strong enough that I really AM
TEMPTED to give up! Not to mention I have this urge to go back and be an
atheist again! Ugh!
The hells going on here? Its awful!
HAIL SATAN!!!
--- In mailto:, "En Haradren Amlug"
<hecktic_shadow@ wrote:
Both happen. The Gods test us, the enemy torture us, or try.
It depends, can't really tell without knowing what specifically is
happening to you.
-En Haradren Amlug.
--- In mailto:, "demonic_fury29"
<demonic_fury29@ wrote:
Is it true that when you've been Dedicated for awhile or new in
general that you COULD be tested?
Or tortured lol.
Im not sure whats going on but Im sensing Im either being tested...or
tortured by the enemy.
Does this happen to all new people?
HAIL SATAN!!!
