still meditating but not getting no where

[Mike Leskela]

<td val[/IMG]Hopefully nobody will get offended on here but my life is still miserable.Ive been dedicated over a year and Ive also been meditating all this time.Now,I have had periods of time that I stopped meditating in between but only for very short periods of time,like a week or two.I am also in therapy and taking psychiatric meds and they are not helping either.I also quit taking drugs but I still drink every now and then.The therapy sessions and the meds arent doing shit for me.Im still miserable.I am beginning to think maybe Satan rejected me when I did my dedication over a year ago,if thats the case Then Im really fucked.I never got along with my biological father so chances are Satan probably doesnt like me either.I cant have any relationships with people and make any friends whatsoever.Ive been a failure and a quitter all my life.I have tried to do the Yehubor destruction  monthly rituals on here and I cant even do them right.The last one I did the I made a few errors on it.I dont do rituals or talk to Satan because I personally dont have anything to say to him.I never ask Satan for help because I have too much pride in me and prefer to do things my own way and so far Im going to keep going in that direction.I wont do rituals or talk to satan,but I will keep meditating,even if it takes 2 or more lifetimes to raise my kundalini.
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[Brian Gibbons]

Mike,First of all if you are not a Yehubor,then Satan excepted your dedication period.Not trying to judge here because I am not perfect at meditation either,but I could never miss a week or two,my energy would be so zapped if I did.Now I will admit I might miss a day,put I log it in our black book when I do,and even then feel bad about it.No mind altering substances are good for your aura,and that includes alcohol.So you might want to consider stopping drinking altogether.Now about your meds,only you and your doctor can decide whats best for you there,but there are some on here,that have stopped them all together.Keep in mind that even doctors can be wrong.You might even want to get a second opinion.And as far as talking to Satan,brother you gotta know that He is the only one that really cares about you,besides our Gods,so don't feel ashamed to ever talk to Him,like He is your best friend,because believe me Mike He is your best friend.So hang in there brother,my first year of dedication was very hard too,but as you make it to your second year,if you keep meditating and doing rituals,you will see just how amazing your life can get. Hail Satan
Brian 

From: Mike Leskela <mleskela@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Thursday, July 26, 2012 11:46 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] still meditating but not getting no where

 

<td style="font:[/IMG]Hopefully nobody will get offended on here but my life is still miserable.Ive been dedicated over a year and Ive also been meditating all this time.Now,I have had periods of time that I stopped meditating in between but only for very short periods of time,like a week or two.I am also in therapy and taking psychiatric meds and they are not helping either.I also quit taking drugs but I still drink every now and then.The therapy sessions and the meds arent doing shit for me.Im still miserable.I am beginning to think maybe Satan rejected me when I did my dedication over a year ago,if thats the case Then Im really fucked.I never got along with my biological father so chances are Satan probably doesnt like me either.I cant have any relationships with people and make any friends whatsoever.Ive been a failure and a quitter all my life.I have tried to do the Yehubor destruction  monthly rituals on here and I cant even do them right.The last one I did the I made a few errors on it.I dont do rituals or talk to Satan because I personally dont have anything to say to him.I never ask Satan for help because I have too much pride in me and prefer to do things my own way and so far Im going to keep going in that direction.I wont do rituals or talk to satan,but I will keep meditating,even if it takes 2 or more lifetimes to raise my kundalini.
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I am out here dear and I Love U more than u knw...wht could be ur problem might be tht u putting pressure on urself nd i think u do ur workings with negative mind take time nd prepare to meet H.I.M

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From: Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@...
To: "[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Friday, July 27, 2012 9:03:26 AM GMT-0700
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] still meditating but not getting no where

Mike,
First of all if you are not a Yehubor,then Satan excepted your dedication period.Not trying to judge here because I am not perfect at meditation either,but I could never miss a week or two,my energy would be so zapped if I did.Now I will admit I might miss a day,put I log it in our black book when I do,and even then feel bad about it.No mind altering substances are good for your aura,and that includes alcohol.So you might want to consider stopping drinking altogether.Now about your meds,only you and your doctor can decide whats best for you there,but there are some on here,that have stopped them all together.Keep in mind that even doctors can be wrong.You might even want to get a second opinion.And as far as talking to Satan,brother you gotta know that He is the only one that really cares about you,besides our Gods,so don't feel ashamed to ever talk to Him,like He is your best friend,because believe me Mike He is your best friend.So hang in there brother,my
first year of dedication was very hard too,but as you make it to your second year,if you keep meditating and doing rituals,you will see just how amazing your life can get.

 
Hail Satan
Brian 

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From: Mike Leskela <mleskela@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Thursday, July 26, 2012 11:46 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] still meditating but not getting no where


 
Hopefully nobody will get offended on here but my life is still miserable.Ive been dedicated over a year and Ive also been meditating all this time.Now,I have had periods of time that I stopped meditating in between but only for very short periods of time,like a week or two.I am also in therapy and taking psychiatric meds and they are not helping either.I also quit taking drugs but I still drink every now and then.The therapy sessions and the meds arent doing shit for me.Im still miserable.I am beginning to think maybe Satan rejected me when I did my dedication over a year ago,if thats the case Then Im really fucked.I never got along with my biological father so chances are Satan probably doesnt like me either.I cant have any relationships with people and make any friends whatsoever.Ive been a failure and a quitter all my life.I have tried to do the Yehubor destruction  monthly rituals on here and I cant even do them right.The last one I did the I made a

few errors on it.I dont do rituals or talk to Satan because I personally dont have anything to say to him.I never ask Satan for help because I have too much pride in me and prefer to do things my own way and so far Im going to keep going in that direction.I wont do rituals or talk to satan,but I will keep meditating,even if it takes 2 or more lifetimes to raise my kundalini.

 

[littlejoker666]

I just want to know how much time aday do you spend Meditating? and what kind of program you got going? Are you empowering your Chakras daily? Are you cleaning and protecting your aura daily? Do you meditate on Satan or his symbols? Do you use runes or the SATAN'S MAGICKAL SQUARES? if not your might want to start doing all that. And another thing don't think that Satan hates you thats just the enemy fucking with you. and try having some confident in your self, don't think so bad about everything.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Mike Leskela <mleskela@... wrote:

Hopefully nobody will get offended on here but my life is still miserable.Ive been dedicated over a year and Ive also been meditating all this time.Now,I have had periods of time that I stopped meditating in between but only for very short periods of time,like a week or two.I am also in therapy and taking psychiatric meds and they are not helping either.I also quit taking drugs but I still drink every now and then.The therapy sessions and the meds arent doing shit for me.Im still miserable.I am beginning to think maybe Satan rejected me when I did my dedication over a year ago,if thats the case Then Im really fucked.I never got along with my biological father so chances are Satan probably doesnt like me either.I cant have any relationships with people and make any friends whatsoever.Ive been a failure and a quitter all my life.I have tried to do the Yehubor destruction  monthly rituals on here and I cant even do them right.The last one I did the I made a
few errors on it.I dont do rituals or talk to Satan because I personally dont have anything to say to him.I never ask Satan for help because I have too much pride in me and prefer to do things my own way and so far Im going to keep going in that direction.I wont do rituals or talk to satan,but I will keep meditating,even if it takes 2 or more lifetimes to raise my kundalini.

 

[Allison P]

Cobra is right. Don't give up! Do not be a failure, as you put it. And
you ought to talk with Father Satan. And by that I don't mean beging
him for help, but simply talk to him. Do a basic ritual It needn't be
elaborate. Light a candle, sit before it, and pour your heart out. He
is always there to listen to his beloved ones. He does not hate you.
Why should he, if you are loyal to him, and it sounds as though you
are and that you love him. So, hold your head up and be strong, like
him! For part of him is in you. Hail Father Satan always!

On 7/27/12, littlejoker666 <littlejoker666@... wrote:
I just want to know how much time aday do you spend Meditating? and what
kind of program you got going? Are you empowering your Chakras daily? Are
you cleaning and protecting your aura daily? Do you meditate on Satan or his
symbols? Do you use runes or the SATAN'S MAGICKAL SQUARES? if not your might
want to start doing all that. And another thing don't think that Satan hates
you thats just the enemy fucking with you. and try having some confident in
your self, don't think so bad about everything.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Mike Leskela <mleskela@... wrote:

Hopefully nobody will get offended on here but my life is still
miserable.Ive been dedicated over a year and Ive also been meditating all
this time.Now,I have had periods of time that I stopped meditating in
between but only for very short periods of time,like a week or two.I am
also in therapy and taking psychiatric meds and they are not helping
either.I also quit taking drugs but I still drink every now and then.The
therapy sessions and the meds arent doing shit for me.Im still miserable.I
am beginning to think maybe Satan rejected me when I did my dedication
over a year ago,if thats the case Then Im really fucked.I never got along
with my biological father so chances are Satan probably doesnt like me
either.I cant have any relationships with people and make any friends
whatsoever.Ive been a failure and a quitter all my life.I have tried to do
the Yehubor destruction  monthly rituals on here and I cant even do them
right.The last one I did the I made a
few errors on it.I dont do rituals or talk to Satan because I personally
dont have anything to say to him.I never ask Satan for help because I have
too much pride in me and prefer to do things my own way and so far Im
going to keep going in that direction.I wont do rituals or talk to
satan,but I will keep meditating,even if it takes 2 or more lifetimes to
raise my kundalini.

 

[Walls of Teardrops]

Don't [/IMG]
From: Allison P <apocalypseofjon@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Sunday, July 29, 2012 2:53 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: still meditating but not getting no where

  Cobra is right. Don't give up! Do not be a failure, as you put it. And
you ought to talk with Father Satan. And by that I don't mean beging
him for help, but simply talk to him. Do a basic ritual It needn't be
elaborate. Light a candle, sit before it, and pour your heart out. He
is always there to listen to his beloved ones. He does not hate you.
Why should he, if you are loyal to him, and it sounds as though you
are and that you love him. So, hold your head up and be strong, like
him! For part of him is in you. Hail Father Satan always!

On 7/27/12, littlejoker666 <mailto:littlejoker666%40yahoo.com wrote:
I just want to know how much time aday do you spend Meditating? and what
kind of program you got going? Are you empowering your Chakras daily? Are
you cleaning and protecting your aura daily? Do you meditate on Satan or his
symbols? Do you use runes or the SATAN'S MAGICKAL SQUARES? if not your might
want to start doing all that. And another thing don't think that Satan hates
you thats just the enemy fucking with you. and try having some confident in
your self, don't think so bad about everything.

--- In mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com, Mike Leskela <mleskela@... wrote:

Hopefully nobody will get offended on here but my life is still
miserable.Ive been dedicated over a year and Ive also been meditating all
this time.Now,I have had periods of time that I stopped meditating in
between but only for very short periods of time,like a week or two.I am
also in therapy and taking psychiatric meds and they are not helping
either.I also quit taking drugs but I still drink every now and then.The
therapy sessions and the meds arent doing shit for me.Im still miserable.I
am beginning to think maybe Satan rejected me when I did my dedication
over a year ago,if thats the case Then Im really fucked.I never got along
with my biological father so chances are Satan probably doesnt like me
either.I cant have any relationships with people and make any friends
whatsoever.Ive been a failure and a quitter all my life.I have tried to do
the Yehubor destruction  monthly rituals on here and I cant even do them
right.The last one I did the I made a
few errors on it.I dont do rituals or talk to Satan because I personally
dont have anything to say to him.I never ask Satan for help because I have
too much pride in me and prefer to do things my own way and so far Im
going to keep going in that direction.I wont do rituals or talk to
satan,but I will keep meditating,even if it takes 2 or more lifetimes to
raise my kundalini.

 

[benf406]

Dude chill it's okay you've got so much more time on your clock your acting like it's the end of the world
I think the meds and therapy are causing more problems than they solve just go 4 weeks without any meds or drugs no therapy some good music and meditation EVERY day things will get better and when your feeling positive go ahead and talk to satan but don't ask him to make your life better because you and only you can truly experience that its like asking a blind guy to tell you what he can see you may ask for money or friendship or whatever is the problem and then "feel" that energy on you never be afraid to talk to him hope I helped.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Mike Leskela <mleskela@... wrote:

Hopefully nobody will get offended on here but my life is still miserable.Ive been dedicated over a year and Ive also been meditating all this time.Now,I have had periods of time that I stopped meditating in between but only for very short periods of time,like a week or two.I am also in therapy and taking psychiatric meds and they are not helping either.I also quit taking drugs but I still drink every now and then.The therapy sessions and the meds arent doing shit for me.Im still miserable.I am beginning to think maybe Satan rejected me when I did my dedication over a year ago,if thats the case Then Im really fucked.I never got along with my biological father so chances are Satan probably doesnt like me either.I cant have any relationships with people and make any friends whatsoever.Ive been a failure and a quitter all my life.I have tried to do the Yehubor destruction  monthly rituals on here and I cant even do them right.The last one I did the I made a
few errors on it.I dont do rituals or talk to Satan because I personally dont have anything to say to him.I never ask Satan for help because I have too much pride in me and prefer to do things my own way and so far Im going to keep going in that direction.I wont do rituals or talk to satan,but I will keep meditating,even if it takes 2 or more lifetimes to raise my kundalini.