I had a different problem--trying to dispense the blood. Not only I didn't have the dry pen to dispense blood, but I could get almost no blood out (I knew I was probably going to have this problem, but I did the best I could with what I had to work with). I decided that, if for whatever reason I couldn't get any or enough blood or dispense it properly, I would use a red pen and let that represent the blood I could not get out. I ended up doing that, after doing the best I could. However, I was not going to let such a detail stop me from dedicating my soul to Father Satan or be an excuse to put it off--I was ready for the Eve of Beltane, and was going to dedicate on the Eve of Beltane no matter what. Everything else went quite well. I did have to improvise on the candle holder, but I managed to find a source for black candles (they were almost 5 toilet paper dollars for 2, but I got premium beeswax candles in true black). I bought a stainless steel bowl (30 cm diameter) for burning, and the paper burned without even setting off the smoke alarm. I didn't feel much, since I have been closed off psychically by constant spiritual abuse as a child, my spell in the Jehovah's Witless cult, and possible heavy involvement in Christi-SCAM[/B]-ity or Islam in a past life. But, needle-wimp aside and not having proper equipment to dispense whatever blood I could get out, I was not going to let such a little detail deter me from dedicating my soul to Satan, and in a timely manner. I do not have any regrets about dedicating to Father Satan--I know that, between right-hand path religion and those filthy angels trying to destroy whatever energy is coming in or out from Father Satan and/or the Universe, I am going to have problems here. However, I would rather follow Father Satan and have limited success than be a superstar in Christi-SCAM[/B]-ity or Islam. At least I can stop backsliding spiritually and start making some progress. I look forward to the day when every single one of the filthy angels is bound tightly, and I can progress without their interference (whether frontal attack or, as I am experiencing, interference with energy transmission).
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--- In , Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@... wrote:
Welcome!the pain is only temporary. It is just a little prick and is a test of your strength and character.
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On Mon, Jul 9, 2012 12:31 PM EDT Teena wrote:
Well tonight is the big night, the night I dedicate my soul the Father Satan and to be honest this is the first time in a long time that I am happy and looking forward to something, this is the RIGHT move for me, I am however a little nervous about pricking my finger for the blood, I have always had a weak stomach and gotten queasy but for Father, I WILL do it.
Hail Satan
