Anti GoatFuckerV2
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In case you saw what I did to Mage adept, I am scared right now. If I have started a commotion on his message, then please read this. I know I am 100% anti Xtard, Jew and Mudslime and personally I apply the rules of going against them totally. I should have been more positive before but what scares me is being over positive. You may know me as the guy who went full blown insane after offending someone in the JoS heavily for being over positive. I tried staying off the negative and well...it happened. I don't like how I'm handling this right now, I don't feel right in here if you know me. I just wanted a happy life.
Well, THEN I MUST WORK FOR IT, buuuuuut not overwork myself also. I'll do better. I'll just do better. Or I'll just shut up forever. I am just in extreme emotion and still up to now for bullshitting an SS. I'm hardcore SS like absolutely into it. I thought it was a good idea to sacrifice a bit of meditation schedule to keep my image clear and my hands clean with school. I was about to get a lot of prominence but every damn time I almost get there, I end up falling no matter how hard I try not to fall. I'm sorry for loosing the battle with my weaknesses again. I'm fucking pathetic anyways, I'm useless, a fucking weak and idiotic delusional piece of shit who goes mad over little stuff, wanting to even kill myself. I really just can't think right but things were worse back then before I was here, I used to try to make myself bleed out by cutting myself back then out of Xtard insanity, I thought I was useless and all, I was a fucking insane emo, I was way worse and cringey back then.
I'm done being a bitch. And I'll try to rehabilitate from this behavior ONE LAST time with so much effort like I do with trying to get a good job and future for myself(I want to escape Xtard home, but I'm in a rural area). I'll make up for it all of you. You guys are the best family, NO, battalion ever. I don't want to sound like a kid or be called one if that offends me to the core. Life is hard but sometimes, I get blatant signs from Satan and the gods not to fall into madness, well guess what I got in my birthday which was yesterday when I opened my clock, the number 555, LOL!!! I should have let those conquer the extreme negative emotions I get. I just don't know now. I'll pay for all of it. I'll be nicer from there on. And more disciplined. This is the perfect time for me to hammer this into my head being freshly 18 years old now. Thanks for everything comrades, and also. I feel better now venting things out.
Can I just say somethings to all of you?
Fancy, eversince I came here after given perfect time to prepare my stability enough before coming to the groups since I was erratic AF before, thanks for being lolz in my life everytime I read your posts on the forums and here.
ARV2, I might have made you known for the "king and queen" a lot after the positive side of me or child me wanted to say hi to you, he said hi too much and caused ragnarok to happen. Or the end of a universe.
Stormblood, wotanwarrior, thanks for joining in team lolz at that time.
HPHC, thanks for picking me up after being trapped by the aftermaths of that shit storm. Also for getting me to stop hyperventilating after net neutrality fell before my eyes but lol, we still won. I think...how's America by the way?
HPMageson, I'll try to help myself get better. I just have a future to invade or it will get me. And to start real early, I just started game developing and creating comics alone. I just hope I'll get the hell out of my spot. I just need time to get the hang of Csharp, I've done it with java and I'll do it again with Csharp. And yes, I said in my message that I was useless and stuff, but I immediately don't feel bad anymore typing to you guys.. It's just me in a panic before but now, I feel like I will need to redeem myself for it. I'll try to be good. I'll stop being emotionally weak.
Light Yagami(aka Tapa)Thanks for standing with me, I guess we share the same story, same with Ancientshadow666 on the JoS forums.
Going back, sorry for causing bullshit and thank you for 4 years for keeping me here. I've been through so much and I want to talk to all of you. I want to mention ALL OF YOU FOR IT ALL. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. Thank you for being the best battalion I have served. Thanks for helping me see my positives, and yes, sorry for forgetting to not be hard on myself. I don't know if I am alone here but how bad is it having a "secretly-sensitive" type of dude in here? Welp, I'll just say it, I'll stop acting up like a bitch now. Or maybe whenever I turn into a nervous wreck like: https://www.askideas.com/media/35/Anima ... cebook.jpg
Well I know what to do now. I'm going to reboot the 40 day meditation I fucked up with. Like said, I won't let even myself even bother me. Nothing will stop me this time. I may have fallen but I will not let all of it hurt me. I may have Xtards fucking with me but they'll get their shit flung back at them. It's time my stupidity ends. Over and over again, I will be better. One last thing before I will be gone until May first. If the ban hammer shall fall on me, I will just say it was a good run and maybe kill myself(I feel real sick being stupid or doing anything wrong, or offending anyone here). Thanks for helping us Mage Adept, Goodbye.
Well, THEN I MUST WORK FOR IT, buuuuuut not overwork myself also. I'll do better. I'll just do better. Or I'll just shut up forever. I am just in extreme emotion and still up to now for bullshitting an SS. I'm hardcore SS like absolutely into it. I thought it was a good idea to sacrifice a bit of meditation schedule to keep my image clear and my hands clean with school. I was about to get a lot of prominence but every damn time I almost get there, I end up falling no matter how hard I try not to fall. I'm sorry for loosing the battle with my weaknesses again. I'm fucking pathetic anyways, I'm useless, a fucking weak and idiotic delusional piece of shit who goes mad over little stuff, wanting to even kill myself. I really just can't think right but things were worse back then before I was here, I used to try to make myself bleed out by cutting myself back then out of Xtard insanity, I thought I was useless and all, I was a fucking insane emo, I was way worse and cringey back then.
I'm done being a bitch. And I'll try to rehabilitate from this behavior ONE LAST time with so much effort like I do with trying to get a good job and future for myself(I want to escape Xtard home, but I'm in a rural area). I'll make up for it all of you. You guys are the best family, NO, battalion ever. I don't want to sound like a kid or be called one if that offends me to the core. Life is hard but sometimes, I get blatant signs from Satan and the gods not to fall into madness, well guess what I got in my birthday which was yesterday when I opened my clock, the number 555, LOL!!! I should have let those conquer the extreme negative emotions I get. I just don't know now. I'll pay for all of it. I'll be nicer from there on. And more disciplined. This is the perfect time for me to hammer this into my head being freshly 18 years old now. Thanks for everything comrades, and also. I feel better now venting things out.
Can I just say somethings to all of you?
Fancy, eversince I came here after given perfect time to prepare my stability enough before coming to the groups since I was erratic AF before, thanks for being lolz in my life everytime I read your posts on the forums and here.
ARV2, I might have made you known for the "king and queen" a lot after the positive side of me or child me wanted to say hi to you, he said hi too much and caused ragnarok to happen. Or the end of a universe.
Stormblood, wotanwarrior, thanks for joining in team lolz at that time.
HPHC, thanks for picking me up after being trapped by the aftermaths of that shit storm. Also for getting me to stop hyperventilating after net neutrality fell before my eyes but lol, we still won. I think...how's America by the way?
HPMageson, I'll try to help myself get better. I just have a future to invade or it will get me. And to start real early, I just started game developing and creating comics alone. I just hope I'll get the hell out of my spot. I just need time to get the hang of Csharp, I've done it with java and I'll do it again with Csharp. And yes, I said in my message that I was useless and stuff, but I immediately don't feel bad anymore typing to you guys.. It's just me in a panic before but now, I feel like I will need to redeem myself for it. I'll try to be good. I'll stop being emotionally weak.
Light Yagami(aka Tapa)Thanks for standing with me, I guess we share the same story, same with Ancientshadow666 on the JoS forums.
Going back, sorry for causing bullshit and thank you for 4 years for keeping me here. I've been through so much and I want to talk to all of you. I want to mention ALL OF YOU FOR IT ALL. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. Thank you for being the best battalion I have served. Thanks for helping me see my positives, and yes, sorry for forgetting to not be hard on myself. I don't know if I am alone here but how bad is it having a "secretly-sensitive" type of dude in here? Welp, I'll just say it, I'll stop acting up like a bitch now. Or maybe whenever I turn into a nervous wreck like: https://www.askideas.com/media/35/Anima ... cebook.jpg
Well I know what to do now. I'm going to reboot the 40 day meditation I fucked up with. Like said, I won't let even myself even bother me. Nothing will stop me this time. I may have fallen but I will not let all of it hurt me. I may have Xtards fucking with me but they'll get their shit flung back at them. It's time my stupidity ends. Over and over again, I will be better. One last thing before I will be gone until May first. If the ban hammer shall fall on me, I will just say it was a good run and maybe kill myself(I feel real sick being stupid or doing anything wrong, or offending anyone here). Thanks for helping us Mage Adept, Goodbye.
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