Soooo Confused... Please Help

[taylorhoward473]

I dedicated my soul to Father roughly 3 weeks ago, and I'm a bit worried the ritual wasn't valid, or maybe I'm just so stressed lately that I'm making a big deal for nothing.. But anyway, on to the point.

I did the ritual with a red candle, since I have no black candles and my blue one refused to light -_- . I wrote/recited the prayer, and when it came time to draw my blood, I couldn't seem to do it... ): and I feel like such a loser and a coward. Not to mention I was rushing because I had no clue if my mom would randomly come in my room like she loves to do. That pissed me off that I couldn't get some damn blood, so I scratched open a cut on my left leg i had gotten previously, and then the blood kept falling off my pen!!! :/ so I signed my name with a sharpie and tried to go over that in a bit of blood..

So next I tried to burn the paper, but it smoked a lot and I nearly got caught by my mom, so I didn't burn the whole paper... I really feel stupid for the way the ritual went, and I know now I really should have done it in my astral temple ... Should I do it again? did this ritual still count? I'm so embarrassed by the way I did this, I doubt I can even call myself a true dedicated Satanist... Help please?

HAIL SATAN!

 

[Allison P]

Dont worry about it, dude! It's perfectly valid. You did the best you
could. You are obviously sincere, and that is what our Father is
really looking for, not how much blood touched the paper, or what
colour your candle was. In short, as long as you love our great Father
and swear allegiance to him, you are a dedicated Spiritual Satanist.
Welcome to the family!

On 7/14/12, taylorhoward473 <taylorhoward473@... wrote:
I dedicated my soul to Father roughly 3 weeks ago, and I'm a bit worried the
ritual wasn't valid, or maybe I'm just so stressed lately that I'm making a
big deal for nothing.. But anyway, on to the point.

I did the ritual with a red candle, since I have no black candles and my
blue one refused to light -_- . I wrote/recited the prayer, and when it came
time to draw my blood, I couldn't seem to do it... ): and I feel like such a
loser and a coward. Not to mention I was rushing because I had no clue if my
mom would randomly come in my room like she loves to do. That pissed me off
that I couldn't get some damn blood, so I scratched open a cut on my left
leg i had gotten previously, and then the blood kept falling off my pen!!!
:/ so I signed my name with a sharpie and tried to go over that in a bit of
blood..

So next I tried to burn the paper, but it smoked a lot and I nearly got
caught by my mom, so I didn't burn the whole paper... I really feel stupid
for the way the ritual went, and I know now I really should have done it in
my astral temple ... Should I do it again? did this ritual still count? I'm
so embarrassed by the way I did this, I doubt I can even call myself a true
dedicated Satanist... Help please?

HAIL SATAN!

 

[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]Again Satan does not care how it did or did not go.He only cares that you did it.The only thing that would stop it is if you are not a Gentlile.But if you are then congrats and welcome to the family.


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From: taylorhoward473 <taylorhoward473@...;
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Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Soooo Confused... Please Help
Sent: Sat, Jul 14, 2012 11:38:35 PM

<td val[/IMG]   I dedicated my soul to Father roughly 3 weeks ago, and I'm a bit worried the ritual wasn't valid, or maybe I'm just so stressed lately that I'm making a big deal for nothing.. But anyway, on to the point.

I did the ritual with a red candle, since I have no black candles and my blue one refused to light -_- . I wrote/recited the prayer, and when it came time to draw my blood, I couldn't seem to do it... ): and I feel like such a loser and a coward. Not to mention I was rushing because I had no clue if my mom would randomly come in my room like she loves to do. That pissed me off that I couldn't get some damn blood, so I scratched open a cut on my left leg i had gotten previously, and then the blood kept falling off my pen!!! :/ so I signed my name with a sharpie and tried to go over that in a bit of blood..

So next I tried to burn the paper, but it smoked a lot and I nearly got caught by my mom, so I didn't burn the whole paper... I really feel stupid for the way the ritual went, and I know now I really should have done it in my astral temple ... Should I do it again? did this ritual still count? I'm so embarrassed by the way I did this, I doubt I can even call myself a true dedicated Satanist... Help please?

HAIL SATAN!

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[enemyofjezzuz]

--- In [email protected], "taylorhoward473" <taylorhoward473@... wrote:

I dedicated my soul to Father roughly 3 weeks ago, and I'm a bit worried the ritual wasn't valid, or maybe I'm just so stressed lately that I'm making a big deal for nothing.. But anyway, on to the point.

I did the ritual with a red candle, since I have no black candles and my blue one refused to light -_- . I wrote/recited the prayer, and when it came time to draw my blood, I couldn't seem to do it... ): and I feel like such a loser and a coward. Not to mention I was rushing because I had no clue if my mom would randomly come in my room like she loves to do. That pissed me off that I couldn't get some damn blood, so I scratched open a cut on my left leg i had gotten previously, and then the blood kept falling off my pen!!! :/ so I signed my name with a sharpie and tried to go over that in a bit of blood..

So next I tried to burn the paper, but it smoked a lot and I nearly got caught by my mom, so I didn't burn the whole paper... I really feel stupid for the way the ritual went, and I know now I really should have done it in my astral temple ... Should I do it again? did this ritual still count? I'm so embarrassed by the way I did this, I doubt I can even call myself a true dedicated Satanist... Help please?

HAIL SATAN!

A red candle is fine--the only candles I would even question would be those kike sabbath candles (and that's because some rabbi could have fucked them up with a blessing that would send angels your way, angels that you do not want).  Even a birthday candle would work fine. Getting any blood is enough--even a trace.  If you cannot seem to get the needle to go through, at least make every good-faith effort you can.  If you don't have any success in getting enough blood on the paper from the pen, for whatever reason, you can sign in red ink.  This can happen if you are afraid of getting cut (and, if you have hemophilia or some susceptibility to infections, you may have valid grounds to be afraid).  Also, lack of a proper instrument to dispense it could be a problem.  In that case, a mark of blood in lieu of a X would do, and then sign in red ink.  You might also worry about a cut if your parents would catch you because of it.  If you have diabetes and use a lancet for testing, that would be ideal (even if you do not have diabetes, a diabetes lancet is perfect but most of us don't have them).  And never do something that risks a severe cut (that is, one bad enough to put you in the hospital) just to get blood out--a good faith effort is enough. About burning the paper:  If you worry about being caught, that is valid.  Ideal is to put it into a metal bowl and light it with the candle, using an instrument to let it burn completely.  However, if the paper will not catch or burn fully, you lack equipment to burn it safely, or your fire alarm might burp, your shredder will accomplish pretty much the same thing.  This is necessary if you must use a LED candle--which would be better than nothing if you can't get real ones or all you have are those kike sabbath candles and you do not trust them.  Many people have problems getting the candles to stay lit--this is a problem with paraffin candles, but not the beeswax candles found on Duat Designs.  Keeping the wick at least 6 mm long will help with that. Maxine has said it before, and Satan is not particular with the details.  You are better off with a ritual where you fuck up every detail that can be fucked up, but you mean it, than a technically perfect ritual where you are only half certain.  It's the meaning it that really counts.  Aside that, if you did everything else to the reasonable best of your ability, it is good enough.  Remember also, Satan doesn't want you losing a finger, putting yourself in the hospital, or burning down your house to get the technicalities perfect. Hail Satan![/B]

 

[Jessica Sisk]

So can u use a purple one? I don't have any red blue or black and I have no money to get them would it still be ok to use those?Sent via BlackBerry by AT&TFrom: Allison P <apocalypseofjon@... Sender: [email protected] Date: Sun, 15 Jul 2012 04:35:36 -0700To: <[email protected]ReplyTo: [email protected] Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Soooo Confused... Please Help
  Dont worry about it, dude! It's perfectly valid. You did the best you
could. You are obviously sincere, and that is what our Father is
really looking for, not how much blood touched the paper, or what
colour your candle was. In short, as long as you love our great Father
and swear allegiance to him, you are a dedicated Spiritual Satanist.
Welcome to the family!

On 7/14/12, taylorhoward473 <taylorhoward473@... wrote:
I dedicated my soul to Father roughly 3 weeks ago, and I'm a bit worried the
ritual wasn't valid, or maybe I'm just so stressed lately that I'm making a
big deal for nothing.. But anyway, on to the point.

I did the ritual with a red candle, since I have no black candles and my
blue one refused to light -_- . I wrote/recited the prayer, and when it came
time to draw my blood, I couldn't seem to do it... ): and I feel like such a
loser and a coward. Not to mention I was rushing because I had no clue if my
mom would randomly come in my room like she loves to do. That pissed me off
that I couldn't get some damn blood, so I scratched open a cut on my left
leg i had gotten previously, and then the blood kept falling off my pen!!!
:/ so I signed my name with a sharpie and tried to go over that in a bit of
blood..

So next I tried to burn the paper, but it smoked a lot and I nearly got
caught by my mom, so I didn't burn the whole paper... I really feel stupid
for the way the ritual went, and I know now I really should have done it in
my astral temple ... Should I do it again? did this ritual still count? I'm
so embarrassed by the way I did this, I doubt I can even call myself a true
dedicated Satanist... Help please?

HAIL SATAN!

 

[hells666steward]

No worries.

Satan is God. He understands all things. Do you think he cannot see the dedication in your heart? The will you had to complete the ritual, imperfect though it may have been, against all odds?

He sees what is inside of you. Your ritual was a success.

HAIL SATAN!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "taylorhoward473" <taylorhoward473@... wrote:

I dedicated my soul to Father roughly 3 weeks ago, and I'm a bit worried the ritual wasn't valid, or maybe I'm just so stressed lately that I'm making a big deal for nothing.. But anyway, on to the point.

I did the ritual with a red candle, since I have no black candles and my blue one refused to light -_- . I wrote/recited the prayer, and when it came time to draw my blood, I couldn't seem to do it... ): and I feel like such a loser and a coward. Not to mention I was rushing because I had no clue if my mom would randomly come in my room like she loves to do. That pissed me off that I couldn't get some damn blood, so I scratched open a cut on my left leg i had gotten previously, and then the blood kept falling off my pen!!! :/ so I signed my name with a sharpie and tried to go over that in a bit of blood..

So next I tried to burn the paper, but it smoked a lot and I nearly got caught by my mom, so I didn't burn the whole paper... I really feel stupid for the way the ritual went, and I know now I really should have done it in my astral temple ... Should I do it again? did this ritual still count? I'm so embarrassed by the way I did this, I doubt I can even call myself a true dedicated Satanist... Help please?

HAIL SATAN!