Seeking Help - Burnout

[Sketches]

I made an account for advise, and the first thing I wanted to do was to personally seek help to one of the High Priests privately by searching their email and found this instead:

https://ancient-forums.co/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=60667&p=269280&hilit=Email+hp.Zevios Metathronos&sid=7bf0e1327db7058aa2eca75bea0d1d8c#p269280

https://ancient-forums.co/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=60296&p=267220&hilit=Ghost+in+the+Machine&sid=7bf0e1327db7058aa2eca75bea0d1d8c#p267220


How bad is this forced advancement I'm going through? Ironically, it's the same as GITM described unto someone who was forcing the kundalini in this post:

https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=43891&p=192460&hilit=Eczema#p192460

Since I'm worried for my health, I want to ask some things I have not received the answers to:


1) Is it fine to exercise and do yoga fifteen minutes each for physical health purposes? Should I do them separately? Or no yoga at all since I'm increasing witch power, which is NOT what I want to do until I healed up?

And is it advisable to just state eight affirmations of the AoP by Inanna and just leave it at that?


2) What should I do? Should I seek medical and psychological health? I feel that I am schizophrenic, suffering spasms, have "triggers" that makes me think I'm being astrally assaulted, and it only calmed down when I have been competent on Void Meditation. This condition is only "present" when I think about the astral, or when I'm by myself.


Any advice is welcome, thanks.

 

[Sketches]

I forgot to add that this has apparently started mildly around October where I received a few physical symptoms when I started cleaning my whole soul and seven main chakras for four minutes each, but I continued on the small repetitions, until I decided to do one Returning Curses in let's say, cleaning out the dirt five or seven times.

But the above feels like a slap on the face once there was a crisis to three beloved pets of mine and I decided to do a healing working for each of them, which was decreased when I asked for Lord Enlil and Lady Bastet's help regarding this situation around January, halting my healing workings (I did Forty Days of Healing Working in low repetitions, but meditated on their soul an additional few minutes)


The voices suddenly toppled around the half month of April, where I then... increased it to fourty-four out of paranoia, sometimes bordering around eighty-eight. I was lucky to decide to stop for a few days, but the "astral assaults" suddenly came in and that's where I took action the most.


I wanted to ask these questions because there's not much topic regarding burn-out and thought that these were all psychic attacks. I also relied more on the search function in these forums to see if I can find the answer I'm looking for.

Once I receive an answer here, I'll post yet another topic regarding pets, which would explain my situation further as to why I went down this drain in the first place.

 

[Lunar Dance 666]

What does a "burnout" have to do with this?

A burnout happens when you're overdoing things. You're exhausted, and often your nervous system starts to malfunction as a result of the damage you're doing to yourself, not taking enough rest.


Yes yoga increases chi, but it also opens up to proper energy flow and the extra energy can be directed for healing, so I wouldn't recommend on not doing that.

If you feel overwhelmed, you need to take a rest. The issue with Power Meditation is, once you lower the energy you can end up in a depression, if it is too sudden especially.
So no, don't stop, but on some things you could decrease the repetitions /efforts. Depending on what though. Dont stop cleaning aop or any workings that are super important.

If you want to ask for help about pets specifically try to ask in the special pets forum also.

 

[Sketches]

Thank you, fellow Spiritual Satanist.

The reply you posted to me reassured me to continue my meditations except for yesterday (which I will explain.)


I decided to meditate, and I became my positive self again. As it turns out, I think I accumulated enough dross to place me in a depressive state. I also found out that I had to sit out destructive rituals since it seems impossible for me to push down the dross, and I had to allow my Guardian Demon to do it all for me.

The next big surprise for me is that I can somewhat hear what my Gods are saying to me as soon as I meditated again and conversed with them. But how though? All I did over the past two years was that I cleaned and only empowered my solar plexus for this year.


This is probably one of the reasons why I became paranoid. If I can hear the Gods = maybe also their enemies.


But something happened yesterday that fucked up my already fine schedule, and I realized this once it was 3 am.

What does a "burnout" have to do with this?

A burnout happens when you're overdoing things. You're exhausted, and often your nervous system starts to malfunction as a result of the damage you're doing to yourself, not taking enough rest.

It turns out that I have overworked myself to do my meditations that neglects my sleep schedule. I needed to eat more (because I found out my calories was low enough for this), I suffered both lack of sleep hours and insomnia, became much more stressful and... guess the other...?
Hallucinations, both auditory and visual, explaining why the fuck I can see the enemies of Father Satan on every corner of my room despite me always calling for his name when they "attack" me.



So your advice is actually spot on, I need to focus on the important meditations for myself first. Because as much as I want to do our current ritual schedule? I need to do another meditation that concerns my pets, which would be explained once that post has been approved, and will be providing the link once I see it.



And another thing, can someone suggest what vitamins I need in order to get rid of insomnia, muscle spasms that triggers the hallucinations, and other things? I suspect melatonin, and maybe that Pineal Meditation since it triggers complete relaxation? I'm also planning to add maybe magnesium and potassium as well.


I exercise and do yoga for fifteen to twenty minutes each for additional information.

 

[Lunar Dance 666]

Thank you, fellow Spiritual Satanist.

The reply you posted to me reassured me to continue my meditations except for yesterday (which I will explain.)


I decided to meditate, and I became my positive self again. As it turns out, I think I accumulated enough dross to place me in a depressive state. I also found out that I had to sit out destructive rituals since it seems impossible for me to push down the dross, and I had to allow my Guardian Demon to do it all for me.

The next big surprise for me is that I can somewhat hear what my Gods are saying to me as soon as I meditated again and conversed with them. But how though? All I did over the past two years was that I cleaned and only empowered my solar plexus for this year.


This is probably one of the reasons why I became paranoid. If I can hear the Gods = maybe also their enemies.


But something happened yesterday that fucked up my already fine schedule, and I realized this once it was 3 am.

What does a "burnout" have to do with this?

A burnout happens when you're overdoing things. You're exhausted, and often your nervous system starts to malfunction as a result of the damage you're doing to yourself, not taking enough rest.

It turns out that I have overworked myself to do my meditations that neglects my sleep schedule. I needed to eat more (because I found out my calories was low enough for this), I suffered both lack of sleep hours and insomnia, became much more stressful and... guess the other...?
Hallucinations, both auditory and visual, explaining why the fuck I can see the enemies of Father Satan on every corner of my room despite me always calling for his name when they "attack" me.



So your advice is actually spot on, I need to focus on the important meditations for myself first. Because as much as I want to do our current ritual schedule? I need to do another meditation that concerns my pets, which would be explained once that post has been approved, and will be providing the link once I see it.



And another thing, can someone suggest what vitamins I need in order to get rid of insomnia, muscle spasms that triggers the hallucinations, and other things? I suspect melatonin, and maybe that Pineal Meditation since it triggers complete relaxation? I'm also planning to add maybe magnesium and potassium as well.


I exercise and do yoga for fifteen to twenty minutes each for additional information.

Magnesium would be good. But try to find why you're having these spasms in the first place.
Is it a surge of energy?
Is it lack of sleep and/or an overstimulated nervous system?

Why are you having insomnia? Is it something that has been with you for long or something that happened lately? Also look on the health forum. Search for relevant info or start a topic of your own.

As for melatonin supplements.. Regular use coold trick the body into not producing enough melatonin by itself. Use with care.

 

[Head Guardian Sophiles Phylax]

It turns out that I have overworked myself to do my meditations that neglects my sleep schedule. I needed to eat more (because I found out my calories was low enough for this), I suffered both lack of sleep hours and insomnia, became much more stressful and... guess the other...?
Hallucinations, both auditory and visual, explaining why the fuck I can see the enemies of Father Satan on every corner of my room despite me always calling for his name when they "attack" me.



So your advice is actually spot on, I need to focus on the important meditations for myself first. Because as much as I want to do our current ritual schedule? I need to do another meditation that concerns my pets, which would be explained once that post has been approved, and will be providing the link once I see it.



And another thing, can someone suggest what vitamins I need in order to get rid of insomnia, muscle spasms that triggers the hallucinations, and other things? I suspect melatonin, and maybe that Pineal Meditation since it triggers complete relaxation? I'm also planning to add maybe magnesium and potassium as well.


I exercise and do yoga for fifteen to twenty minutes each for additional information.

Not eating or sleeping consistently, insomnia, muscle spasms, ungroundedness, getting burnt out easily, etc... These all suggest too much air in the physical body. If you are of a skinny-build, then this is almost 100% the case.

You should focus on balancing with earth energy, working on the base chakra, and doing more permanent workings for earth characteristics. Uruz, Nauthiz, or Jera, for example.

Physically, you should eat a diet that is "Vata" (air) pacifying, which is an ayurvedic concept. Basically eating foods that are denser and moistening to the body. In addition, you must be eating and drinking consistently, even if just a snack. See if this pertains to you: Understanding the Vata Dosha.

Daily yoga is critical for daily health, especially in your case. I would suggest doing hatha yoga as the 1st priority. Following this, you can also try yoga nidra, or trance sleeping, to calm yourself down. Of course, sleep is also crucial and one should only be about 1.5hrs max of sleep deprivation (on a daily basis), otherwise, that is just asking for trouble.

I would suggest pressing the spleen 6 acupoint, which one of the most popular acupoints because it actually stimulates the yin meridians of 3 organs: spleen, kidney, and liver. Together, this point is awesome for building and circulating blood (yin fluid), as well as building up the yin of these organs (which are commonly depleted when someone is overworked).

Here is how to find it:

It is located behind the bone, not over it or on the front of the knee. It should feel like a little divet or hole. Push with moderate pressure, and push as long as possible, basically. Only stop if you start feeling tired (which is a sign that you used up a lot of energy towards the actions that the spleen 6 point performs).

This point is also great for insomnia as well. Read more about spleen 6 here

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The muscle spasms, in particular, are something the liver is responsible for (as the liver regulates the flow of energy in the body). In the case of someone who is Vata-prone and likely to be yin deficient, the liver can have a blood deficiency. This lack of blood results in "wind" aka excess air in the body, which manifests as spasms.

The spleen 6 point will create lots of blood in general. If you want a more targeted approach, then use the Liver 3 point (located on the foot). This point specifically creates liver blood, as opposed to blood for the whole body.

Lastly, acupuncture is a means of directing energy towards healing, but you cannot do much healing if you are lacking basic resources. In other words, this is another reason why you must be eating. If you are really lacking in time, I would suggest canned soups, which are quick to make and relatively dense.

Hope this helps, good luck.

 

[Sketches]

( Moderators, please approve my first reply on this topic before this one, thank you )

I also want to say to those who is planning to do my strategy above is that you should only be doing it AFTER raising energies for a couple of days, maybe even weeks, depending on your spiritual level, is to do the above IF needed.


I found another sermon and link I can give that will summarize what I mean:

HP. Zevios Metathronos wrote:

This can look like a huge mountain to overcome when you enter your attic, but rest reassured, after all that is said and done, it will only literally take 15 minutes of your daily time, figuratively speaking.

In the end, sporadic cleaning only helps as an emergency measure, but it does not solve anything. One has to be deliberate and persistent here.

From this sermon:

https://ancient-forums.co/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=18085&hilit=satanic+healing&sid=37bdb344f58c12c037045500ffcc25cf


My strategy did worked, but I still needed to take a rest. I can only do:

15 minutes of exercise

15 minutes of Hatha Yoga while I clean my aura in ×36 reps (my usual routine)

And 15 minutes of Aura of Protection in ×44 reps.


No Rituals were made because I felt that I needed to take a rest.

Anyways, I'll try to make steady progress now, thanks again, everyone.