Aldrick said:
Aldrick, I love your post and felt compelled to relate something that happened the same night you posted, as I also go through doubt phases.
Something was stopping me from falling into a proper deep sleep, i could see a face I did not recognize but instinctively knew it was someone I did not like / someone with ill intent. This presence was holding back my visualization as I tried to fight it myself with blue fire. I found out I had a very difficult time even just visualizing Satan's sigil. I felt like nothing I did was working and all sorts of possible explanations ran through my head and I could have went into a severe depression just from listening to them.
So I sat up and did a few SATANAS to calm my mind. When I calmed down (didn't take very long), I used my memory and focused as HARD as I could on his sigil and said repeatedly "I think someone is blocking me from communicating with you".
After the fifth repetition I received a gentle and obvious sign that he could hear my words and I also felt very appreciated for my efforts to desire him greatly in my life (because this act compounds onto other signs I have received prior). Knowing he was present, I did pointy gun fingers (the Italian in me shines through, aayyyyyy) and proclaimed "that was awesome, thank you for letting me know its alright after all" and my mood swiftly improved thereafter.
I have no concrete explanation as to what that blockage was exactly, but if it was the enemy (and not me in some confused stupor, somehow imagining someone) it suddenly stopped the moment Satan sent me a clear signal. As I could not fall asleep due to insomnia that same night, I decided to have a look at JOS to keep my mind occupied a bit. That is when I saw your post and thought it was oddly and circumstantially relatable. Almost as if I needed to read something through you after this all transpired.
So thank you for writing this post as it further emboldens my spiritual resolve.