Master said:
Meteor said:
Thank you for clarifying; I hope your friend is alright now. The same happened before to a friend of my brother. It's honestly terrifying what kind of atrocities people can get away with. I hope that they will all be met with justice in the end, or become better people.
Putting that aside, I'm unable to move past my disappointment for now. I think it's better for us to ignore each other. I'm sorry for bringing you up a lot in my recent points; I just needed to get the things off my chest that I'd been bottling up. I'll leave you be now unless others bring you up and I feel like replying to them. I suppose it's already clear by now, but I'm not looking for issues.
As for what's going to happen in society, I've looked extensively into the effects of covid and the vaccines, including what you mention about blood clots. I've concluded that less than 1% of young adults is going to die within the next several years, from any cause, regardless of whether or not they're vaccinated. As we've both stated, there is no point in further debating this as the outcome of the current situation is literally fact, and it is only a matter of time for it to become apparent. We can discuss it again in a few years.
What can't you overcome?
Are you referring to my inability to move past my disappointment, and that I don't think I can get along well with Jack?
I don't really want to keep dragging this out, so I'll try my best to explain clearly why it's impossible for me to get along with him.
There are several values that I've always held. I could say it's because of my chart, which would be correct, but I don't think that matters here. The point is that these are things that I've fundamentally believed in since my childhood and to this day. For me to change those convictions over a mere disagreement, would be completely unnatural and atrocious. The following are relevant here:
- Trying to bring innocent people down mentally through intimidation, manipulation and/or bullying is something that I've never been able to tolerate.
- When someone makes a mistake, that is an opportunity to learn. If the mistake is understood, one should apologise to those that were harmed by it. The inability to admit or show remorse for one's mistakes is something I've never been able to tolerate.
- Pressuring others to integrate false beliefs is something I've never been able to tolerate.
When I was little and not able to control my emotions well, seeing anything like that pissed me off so much that it caused me to have violent outbursts. I usually kept my composure and only inflicted as much pain as I felt was appropriate as retribution, but sometimes I was so enraged that I went berserk, for example when I beat up five boys my age at once after I saw them harassing a girl from my class and they refused to leave her alone, saying I couldn't stop them. That is not to brag, but to make it clear just how much these things matter to me. Nowadays, I'm able to detach from things and keep my emotions under control much better.
With that in mind, I'll explain in which ways some of Jack's actions are incompatible with those values, causing me to conclude that it's best if I don't interact with him much anymore. Directly interacting with him too much, especially when he is doing things I'm morally incompatible with (which has been often lately), would mean choosing not to detach. NakedPluto helped me realise recently that even just having violent thoughts about someone counts as cursing them; so far I've never had that kind of thought about Jack, but considering how overwhelming my sense of justice can be and that things add up, I really don't want to take any risks here. To think that way about a fellow SS who takes meditation so seriously, is something I would have a very hard time forgiving myself for.
He explained why he decided to mock and insult a teenage girl for being raped. I wasn't expecting him to ever apologise for it, and as I thought, he didn't. His explanation lets me know why he did it, and what he thought he was doing, but that doesn't change his actions. In this case, both what he said to that girl, and his conviction not to apologise for it, are things that I can't look past, because:
- His thoughtless actions hit someone who is in the process of healing from a traumatic experience, where it hurts the most. The things he said are commonly said to rape victims by people who want to instill self-doubt in them in order to manipulate them so that it's easier for people to get away with raping them again. This is incompatible with value 1.
- The extent or lack of ill will doesn't make a difference in his actions after the fact.
- He at least admitted he made a mistake out of ignorance, but then refused to apologise for it. See value 2.
Regarding the debate about love back then: I think it's good that he has changed his stance, or the way he words it, to something more reasonable, at least for his own sake. But that doesn't change that he tried to convince others that they are wrong for believing that love exists. This is incompatible with value 3. I don't really care anymore about what he said about America being some kind of example for the world. The culture is just very different, and I understand why it would be difficult to see that when he doesn't know what it's really like to grow up in Europe. As for his apocalyptic fantasies, I have no issue overlooking that either.
Everyone here is trying to figure out important things in their own ways, so it's common for there to be delusions and misunderstandings here and there. However, calling other people delusional for disagreeing with him is somewhat incompatible with values 1 and 3, although I find it understandable from his point of view so I can overlook it. But it creates a bias in his views that makes it difficult to talk about societal trends in general (which is a topic that he brings up often), because he is going by the assumption that there is going to be a reset soon, and that people like him will seize control of the government and world. But even if I underestimated how different America is from the rest of the world and such a thing actually happened there, this still wouldn't affect the rest of the world as their military would be too unorganised after such a mess to succeed in enacting anything internationally.
For him to believe those things does not directly go against my values. However, it makes it pointless for me to debate such topics with him, as we're on a completely different page about what the future looks like, so any attempt at meaningful discussion would likely devolve into disagremeents on what we both consider to be basic facts.
I take back what I said about his sexual preferences disturbing me. I'm no longer bothered by it, thanks to tabby helping me understand sexual freedom even on an emotional level, meaning I no longer have to put up with a feeling of disgust just to be polite. It was rude of me to bring it up anyway, but it did genuinely bother me until now, so I'm glad I was able to get over that.
Misrepresenting reality (regarding a person or situation) by making far-fetched comparisons can be an effective way to bring people down mentally, while simultaneously manipulating them into integrating incorrect beliefs. This describes the way he worded things when he criticised tabby's and jrvan's relationships and incorrectly assumed that they aren't doing what would make them the happiest (failing to realise just how much their Demon partners have helped both of them, and how happy and fulfilled they are in that arrangement), and is incompatible with values 1 and 3. His attempts to dissuade them from standing up for themselves by incorrectly stating that the only reason they might want to do so is because they agree with him, were also incompatible with values 1 and 3.
He keeps saying he has all these good intentions behind his mistakes, yet he never seems to make any effort to learn from it or apologise if he did anything wrong. He hardly ever even admits it was a mistake. This is incompatible with value 2.
Putting aside the specifics of what he wrote in the thread about sewing, what happened there saddened me a lot. It was going to be such a positive and cheerful thread, mainly for women, to talk about a relaxing hobby and share tips. That's still what happened in-between, but Jack ruined almost everyone's mood by bringing up topics that are irrelevant to most SS, especially women. For him to so heavily pollute a thread that was made with me in mind, by someone I appreciate for always being so friendly, really hurt my feelings.
If perhaps there are people reading from the shadows, looking to villify me in their emails for villifying Jack, then please feel free to mock me for having emotions. I like that more than being mocked for struggling to express them. And it wasn't really my intention to make him seem like a bad person. It's just that I was asked to explain why I'm personally unable to move past this and get along with him. It ended up being a bit long, but at least writing this helped me understand my own morals better, so it's fine.
Anyway, I hope that answers your question. As I explained, his personality is incompatible with my sense of justice; but he is exempt from my righteous wrath by virtue of being SS, meaning there is no healthy outlet. I noticed when I tried to explain in multiple ways to him last year why I'm certain that love exists, that confronting him about anything that we disagree on or that bothers me will only cause both of us to double down, so there is no way to talk things out. As such, it's better to avoid contact.