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On Mon, 10 Oct, 2016 at 4:57 am, pilgrim_lefthandpath@... [JoyofSatan666]<[email protected] wrote: Hello and greetings,allow me to introduce myself and share some thoughts,my name is tiago, and i have been on a quest of my own for some time now, that quest being ( finding the truth about religion) doubt has consumed me for a long time now,i was raised by a christian/jehovah's witness parent/(grandma), and even though i was forced to go to they`r congregation meetings several times every week i never grew intrested on they´r fanatic and restrictive doctrine.when i became 14 yo i decided that it was enough and i spoke to my parent and said i was leaving them, immediately my parent tryed to scare me with the usual " armagedon is near we are living in the end times , dont you want to see your dead parents again in paradise?what will jehovah think of you, you have to cultivate your intrest in god , when it is too late you will not be able to return to us and you will die in the armagedon",for a short while some of the high ranking members(elders) from the congregation tryed to convince me to return, and i asked them,("what kind of loving father abandons his children to suffering and death?why doesnt he save us now? if he is so powerfull why didnt he destroy the "devil" a long time ago?) and they said god gave us free will and we sinned, we are paying for adam and eve´s original sin ,and must prove ourselves worthy of salvation and worship jehovah, my answer was simple even if jehovah was real i would rather die than worship such a foul being, my grandma was bitter to me ever since and we had several heated arguments about religion and she in her arrogance never gave in,her´s was the true religion and all others were false made by the devil to lead people away from jehovah, some years later i secretly started my research,my curiosity for satanism was growing,for a long time i was feeling a calling within me, so i decided to go for it breaking away from the fear inducing christian dogmas, shortly after that my grandma died, even though i did not wish her death despite her choice of religion she raised me when she could have just left me in a orphanage, however i could not help but to feel relieved i was finally free to pursue the calling of my heart, my nature.i started to research lavey`an satanism and despite the fact that he was a talented and charismatic man and his philosophy was leagues better than any christian faith, i felt that something was missing lavey´s philosophy was nice but felt too hollow, so i continued my search and ended on the joy of satan website, and here am i, in search of true knowledge,sorry for the great wall of text i needed to get this out of me needed to share it with people that can understand how i am, once again thank you for your patience , if anyone has advice for newcomers i would be thankful.