Re: invasive thoughts, need help

[Ash Troff]

same shit is happening to me and everytime I reach a certain level something would happen like I have do go somewhere or be with family [follows the same pattern] or I would do something that would harm my aura then it throws me back and it seems like forever to get back to where I was. I realy work my ass off just to loose it all [it feels like that] They just wont leave me alone. one night they woke me up with there racket dragging their feet along the floor, shuffling. pulling my bed sheats of me, playing with the hot and cold water when I shower. I ignore them and it usualy stops as soon as it started but when these things stop they attack me psychicly. I saw one it had big black chinese like eyes, small girl like face sticking out of n shadow just staring at me. sometimes I would realy loose fokus to the point that I think spirituality is a load of shit, obviously not coming from me, so I just ignore it, I mean the shit they can come up with makes
me believe they have now fucking intelegence at all. I cant believe how fucking persistant they are, they ruined my life but still they wont give up. its like a place invested with ants.. when you turn your back they have found a new bread crumb then the whole fucking ant nest is there, out off nowere no warning just the fucking anoying ants so you have to clean up everywhere all the time. always having something unexpected to distract me with. And I failed to finish the warfare training for the third time now. Cant remember the last time I did a ritual, but I do pray. I love Father so much. but I cant help but feel that when I do the ritual that I wont be honest enough or not myself even, like pretending that nothing is wrong, I know I am strong. my real concern is that I dont want to be annoying. I dont want to have to ask for help. I see vibrations. I see auras, I sense them, I detect other peoples emotions and thoughts, I see sounds, but some how I
always feel weak. only way I guess to stop this pattern is to just be strong and persistent keep fixing my power at higher levels. I know now that it takes time for my soul to get use to the kundalini energy. I promised Father that no matter what I will always love and follow him. Im switching to fulltime dedication. Im getting rid of every distraction. I have a strong feeling that my gaurdian is Dantalion, but why do I feel that I dont want to bother the demons?. I do curse the enemy and I hate them with all my heart. The demons are doing more than im doing afterall. so why do I deserve theire attention. I fucking hate the fact that all of this needs to be so fucking complicated just because the fucking enemy took our gods away from us. but I know with each day I get stronger, they might thro me back a few feet but ill be sprinting back towards them, I aint scared of shit. Im taking back whats mine. Father showed me how to hack my soul and take back my
birth right, ill pay my debt 666 times over. these Fucking alien basterds should start bleeding if they know whats good for them.

On Sun Jul 10th, 2011 11:15 PM PDT High Priestess Maxine Dietrich wrote:


I have forwarded this post any my reply to all of the JoS e-groups, as many have experienced these sorts of problems:

***

First off, don't blame yourself for this shit. It's the enemy. They do this sort of thing to many of us, so you are not alone. They also then imbed certain thoughts in our minds that repeat themselves at certain times- anything from annoying and stupid to much worse, and all kinds of crap. The best way to combat this is to do void meditation. I have found this helps greatly. Our Gods understand and know what is in our hearts. Also, I have noted, when one can really concentrate, it is much more difficult for the enemy to get in with their filth. They attack us with their crap remotely, for one, especially in cases when one is working on something extremely damaging to the enemy and their agenda.

Anopther tactic they use is their own thoughtforms that are more potent than those a human being can usually produce. These can be seen around one's head and also detected, as the nasty filth it produces comes in from one side. Then, they use these thoughtforms to also impersonate our Gods in some cases and also to mess up our astral communications. It is important to know WHO you are communicating with.

They attack people who are new because most are vulnerable. They work to create confusion and doubt. Anything they can do to try to turn you away from Satan. Like I wrote above, our Gods know this and know what is in our hearts. In my own experience, I have found void meditation to be extremely helpful, but when we are really doing things that are seriously threatening to them, they still get through at times.

Thoughtforms and negative energy takes a hold because, like with anything else- stagnation and inattention to the targeted area. For example, cleaning one's aura every day, helps to protect, as negative energy cannot get a foot-hold so to speak. Whenever something is left on its own, it is vulnerable and a fertile spot for the enemy to plant and embed their shit.
I will write more on this following this post here.


High Priestess Maxine Dietrich
http://www.joyofsatan.org



--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "freeman1124" <kalnip1@... wrote:

so lately i have been having some negative and nefarious thoughts interupt me during my meditations, and even come into my astral temple, as well as my regular thoughts throughout the day. i will be about to praise satan and then a thought like "i hate satan" comes in, i know this is invasive because this is not how i feel about father and not true to my heart and soul, i try to replace the thought with a positive one but these damn things keep coming in interupting me and causing stress, there was this one time that i was loving gremory and the fucking thoughts interupted me, in which i called her my angel, this really pisses me off, not only these but today when i was in my astral temple and was envisioning me shaking father's hand i slashed him, this is the complete oppisite of my intentions and how i feel but these trash thoughts just keep coming, there invasive and hurting my relationship with father, i will always love SATAN and his demons and i
have a loyalty to him that will never be broken but i feel like these thoughts are driving a wedge between me and him. i need help with this and can an expeienced person tell me, or at least give me an idea of how father would feel about this, these thoughts come in at the worst time, i don't want to offend satan and i want my relationship with him to be stronger than blood, these thoughts say things that are really offensive to me and certianly to him, please help. i will list some more just to show bad they are, i've got a theory that the xianty knows that i will never side with them, so instead they're trying to sabotage my relationship with father
" i believe satan is ficticious"
"i hate satan" "i love all of hells angels"
"fuck satan" "this isn't working"- this happened as i was opening my third eye
"fuck enlil"- this happened right as i was cursing jehova
also my thoughts will say hail satan even when it is some thing negative, thus causing this praise to loose it's value
but on the positive side no more pro christian statements, i would rather die than adhere to jehova.

 

[Sequoia]

Well if it's any help, you're not alone in this. Many if not most of us have been through it or are going through it right now.

Anyway, although the Gods are very busy that doesn't mean they don't have time to help us when we require it. Yes, we are to empower ourselves and become independent, taking care of things as we need to. BUT ... not everything can be boot-strapped. The enemy is strong, wily, and persistent.

There is nothing wrong in calling on your Guardian Demon for help. You believe it is Dantalion; ask yourself this: why would he (or any other Demon) reveal himself to you in any way if it wasn't that he WANTS to help you, teach you and guide you?

Our Guardian Demons can give us advice and instruction that is geared specifically to us and our particular situation and/or problems. This is part of our progression, part of the learning process and our spiritual development. They are even more happy to help, it seems, when they see how much we are also trying to help ourselves -- which you are definitely doing.

Independence and self-empowerment, yes. Definitely. But that, too, is a progression as we all know. Get in touch with your Guardian Demon. I can't emphasize that enough.

Also, if you do nothing else, never fail to do a daily chakra and aura cleanse and protection. It's basic, I know, and for that very reason, sometimes we get busy with more "advanced" things and sometimes let it slide. But it needs to be done at least once daily and as many times as you feel you need to. Conditions need not be ideal but fortunately it requires only a few moments. I remember more than once having to retreat to a bathroom stall at work to gain enough privacy to do that.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Ash Troff <ashtroff@... wrote:

same shit is happening to me and everytime I reach a certain level something would happen like I have do go somewhere or be with family [follows the same pattern] or I would do something that would harm my aura then it throws me back and it seems like forever to get back to where I was. I realy work my ass off just to loose it all [it feels like that] They just wont leave me alone. one night they woke me up with there racket dragging their feet along the floor, shuffling. pulling my bed sheats of me, playing with the hot and cold water when I shower. I ignore them and it usualy stops as soon as it started but when these things stop they attack me psychicly. I saw one it had big black chinese like eyes, small girl like face sticking out of n shadow just staring at me. sometimes I would realy loose fokus to the point that I think spirituality is a load of shit, obviously not coming from me, so I just ignore it, I mean the shit they can come up with makes
me believe they have now fucking intelegence at all. I cant believe how fucking persistant they are, they ruined my life but still they wont give up. its like a place invested with ants.. when you turn your back they have found a new bread crumb then the whole fucking ant nest is there, out off nowere no warning just the fucking anoying ants so you have to clean up everywhere all the time. always having something unexpected to distract me with. And I failed to finish the warfare training for the third time now. Cant remember the last time I did a ritual, but I do pray. I love Father so much. but I cant help but feel that when I do the ritual that I wont be honest enough or not myself even, like pretending that nothing is wrong, I know I am strong. my real concern is that I dont want to be annoying. I dont want to have to ask for help. I see vibrations. I see auras, I sense them, I detect other peoples emotions and thoughts, I see sounds, but some how I
always feel weak. only way I guess to stop this pattern is to just be strong and persistent keep fixing my power at higher levels. I know now that it takes time for my soul to get use to the kundalini energy. I promised Father that no matter what I will always love and follow him. Im switching to fulltime dedication. Im getting rid of every distraction. I have a strong feeling that my gaurdian is Dantalion, but why do I feel that I dont want to bother the demons?. I do curse the enemy and I hate them with all my heart. The demons are doing more than im doing afterall. so why do I deserve theire attention. I fucking hate the fact that all of this needs to be so fucking complicated just because the fucking enemy took our gods away from us. but I know with each day I get stronger, they might thro me back a few feet but ill be sprinting back towards them, I aint scared of shit. Im taking back whats mine. Father showed me how to hack my soul and take back my
birth right, ill pay my debt 666 times over. these Fucking alien basterds should start bleeding if they know whats good for them.

On Sun Jul 10th, 2011 11:15 PM PDT High Priestess Maxine Dietrich wrote:


I have forwarded this post any my reply to all of the JoS e-groups, as many have experienced these sorts of problems:

***

First off, don't blame yourself for this shit. It's the enemy. They do this sort of thing to many of us, so you are not alone. They also then imbed certain thoughts in our minds that repeat themselves at certain times- anything from annoying and stupid to much worse, and all kinds of crap. The best way to combat this is to do void meditation. I have found this helps greatly. Our Gods understand and know what is in our hearts. Also, I have noted, when one can really concentrate, it is much more difficult for the enemy to get in with their filth. They attack us with their crap remotely, for one, especially in cases when one is working on something extremely damaging to the enemy and their agenda.

Anopther tactic they use is their own thoughtforms that are more potent than those a human being can usually produce. These can be seen around one's head and also detected, as the nasty filth it produces comes in from one side. Then, they use these thoughtforms to also impersonate our Gods in some cases and also to mess up our astral communications. It is important to know WHO you are communicating with.

They attack people who are new because most are vulnerable. They work to create confusion and doubt. Anything they can do to try to turn you away from Satan. Like I wrote above, our Gods know this and know what is in our hearts. In my own experience, I have found void meditation to be extremely helpful, but when we are really doing things that are seriously threatening to them, they still get through at times.

Thoughtforms and negative energy takes a hold because, like with anything else- stagnation and inattention to the targeted area. For example, cleaning one's aura every day, helps to protect, as negative energy cannot get a foot-hold so to speak. Whenever something is left on its own, it is vulnerable and a fertile spot for the enemy to plant and embed their shit.
I will write more on this following this post here.


High Priestess Maxine Dietrich
http://www.joyofsatan.org



--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "freeman1124" <kalnip1@ wrote:

so lately i have been having some negative and nefarious thoughts interupt me during my meditations, and even come into my astral temple, as well as my regular thoughts throughout the day. i will be about to praise satan and then a thought like "i hate satan" comes in, i know this is invasive because this is not how i feel about father and not true to my heart and soul, i try to replace the thought with a positive one but these damn things keep coming in interupting me and causing stress, there was this one time that i was loving gremory and the fucking thoughts interupted me, in which i called her my angel, this really pisses me off, not only these but today when i was in my astral temple and was envisioning me shaking father's hand i slashed him, this is the complete oppisite of my intentions and how i feel but these trash thoughts just keep coming, there invasive and hurting my relationship with father, i will always love SATAN and his demons and i
have a loyalty to him that will never be broken but i feel like these thoughts are driving a wedge between me and him. i need help with this and can an expeienced person tell me, or at least give me an idea of how father would feel about this, these thoughts come in at the worst time, i don't want to offend satan and i want my relationship with him to be stronger than blood, these thoughts say things that are really offensive to me and certianly to him, please help. i will list some more just to show bad they are, i've got a theory that the xianty knows that i will never side with them, so instead they're trying to sabotage my relationship with father
" i believe satan is ficticious"
"i hate satan" "i love all of hells angels"
"fuck satan" "this isn't working"- this happened as i was opening my third eye
"fuck enlil"- this happened right as i was cursing jehova
also my thoughts will say hail satan even when it is some thing negative, thus causing this praise to loose it's value
but on the positive side no more pro christian statements, i would rather die than adhere to jehova.

 

[Ash Troff]

Didnt think anyone would reply to that. Appreciate that. Thanks. Hail Satan.

On Thu Jul 28th, 2011 2:42 AM PDT Sequoia wrote:

Well if it's any help, you're not alone in this. Many if not most of us have been through it or are going through it right now.

Anyway, although the Gods are very busy that doesn't mean they don't have time to help us when we require it. Yes, we are to empower ourselves and become independent, taking care of things as we need to. BUT ... not everything can be boot-strapped. The enemy is strong, wily, and persistent.

There is nothing wrong in calling on your Guardian Demon for help. You believe it is Dantalion; ask yourself this: why would he (or any other Demon) reveal himself to you in any way if it wasn't that he WANTS to help you, teach you and guide you?

Our Guardian Demons can give us advice and instruction that is geared specifically to us and our particular situation and/or problems. This is part of our progression, part of the learning process and our spiritual development. They are even more happy to help, it seems, when they see how much we are also trying to help ourselves -- which you are definitely doing.

Independence and self-empowerment, yes. Definitely. But that, too, is a progression as we all know. Get in touch with your Guardian Demon. I can't emphasize that enough.

Also, if you do nothing else, never fail to do a daily chakra and aura cleanse and protection. It's basic, I know, and for that very reason, sometimes we get busy with more "advanced" things and sometimes let it slide. But it needs to be done at least once daily and as many times as you feel you need to. Conditions need not be ideal but fortunately it requires only a few moments. I remember more than once having to retreat to a bathroom stall at work to gain enough privacy to do that.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Ash Troff <ashtroff@... wrote:

same shit is happening to me and everytime I reach a certain level something would happen like I have do go somewhere or be with family [follows the same pattern] or I would do something that would harm my aura then it throws me back and it seems like forever to get back to where I was. I realy work my ass off just to loose it all [it feels like that] They just wont leave me alone. one night they woke me up with there racket dragging their feet along the floor, shuffling. pulling my bed sheats of me, playing with the hot and cold water when I shower. I ignore them and it usualy stops as soon as it started but when these things stop they attack me psychicly. I saw one it had big black chinese like eyes, small girl like face sticking out of n shadow just staring at me. sometimes I would realy loose fokus to the point that I think spirituality is a load of shit, obviously not coming from me, so I just ignore it, I mean the shit they can come up with makes
me believe they have now fucking intelegence at all. I cant believe how fucking persistant they are, they ruined my life but still they wont give up. its like a place invested with ants.. when you turn your back they have found a new bread crumb then the whole fucking ant nest is there, out off nowere no warning just the fucking anoying ants so you have to clean up everywhere all the time. always having something unexpected to distract me with. And I failed to finish the warfare training for the third time now. Cant remember the last time I did a ritual, but I do pray. I love Father so much. but I cant help but feel that when I do the ritual that I wont be honest enough or not myself even, like pretending that nothing is wrong, I know I am strong. my real concern is that I dont want to be annoying. I dont want to have to ask for help. I see vibrations. I see auras, I sense them, I detect other peoples emotions and thoughts, I see sounds, but some how
I
always feel weak. only way I guess to stop this pattern is to just be strong and persistent keep fixing my power at higher levels. I know now that it takes time for my soul to get use to the kundalini energy. I promised Father that no matter what I will always love and follow him. Im switching to fulltime dedication. Im getting rid of every distraction. I have a strong feeling that my gaurdian is Dantalion, but why do I feel that I dont want to bother the demons?. I do curse the enemy and I hate them with all my heart. The demons are doing more than im doing afterall. so why do I deserve theire attention. I fucking hate the fact that all of this needs to be so fucking complicated just because the fucking enemy took our gods away from us. but I know with each day I get stronger, they might thro me back a few feet but ill be sprinting back towards them, I aint scared of shit. Im taking back whats mine. Father showed me how to hack my soul and take back
my
birth right, ill pay my debt 666 times over. these Fucking alien basterds should start bleeding if they know whats good for them.

On Sun Jul 10th, 2011 11:15 PM PDT High Priestess Maxine Dietrich wrote:


I have forwarded this post any my reply to all of the JoS e-groups, as many have experienced these sorts of problems:

***

First off, don't blame yourself for this shit. It's the enemy. They do this sort of thing to many of us, so you are not alone. They also then imbed certain thoughts in our minds that repeat themselves at certain times- anything from annoying and stupid to much worse, and all kinds of crap. The best way to combat this is to do void meditation. I have found this helps greatly. Our Gods understand and know what is in our hearts. Also, I have noted, when one can really concentrate, it is much more difficult for the enemy to get in with their filth. They attack us with their crap remotely, for one, especially in cases when one is working on something extremely damaging to the enemy and their agenda.

Anopther tactic they use is their own thoughtforms that are more potent than those a human being can usually produce. These can be seen around one's head and also detected, as the nasty filth it produces comes in from one side. Then, they use these thoughtforms to also impersonate our Gods in some cases and also to mess up our astral communications. It is important to know WHO you are communicating with.

They attack people who are new because most are vulnerable. They work to create confusion and doubt. Anything they can do to try to turn you away from Satan. Like I wrote above, our Gods know this and know what is in our hearts. In my own experience, I have found void meditation to be extremely helpful, but when we are really doing things that are seriously threatening to them, they still get through at times.

Thoughtforms and negative energy takes a hold because, like with anything else- stagnation and inattention to the targeted area. For example, cleaning one's aura every day, helps to protect, as negative energy cannot get a foot-hold so to speak. Whenever something is left on its own, it is vulnerable and a fertile spot for the enemy to plant and embed their shit.
I will write more on this following this post here.


High Priestess Maxine Dietrich
http://www.joyofsatan.org



--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "freeman1124" <kalnip1@ wrote:

so lately i have been having some negative and nefarious thoughts interupt me during my meditations, and even come into my astral temple, as well as my regular thoughts throughout the day. i will be about to praise satan and then a thought like "i hate satan" comes in, i know this is invasive because this is not how i feel about father and not true to my heart and soul, i try to replace the thought with a positive one but these damn things keep coming in interupting me and causing stress, there was this one time that i was loving gremory and the fucking thoughts interupted me, in which i called her my angel, this really pisses me off, not only these but today when i was in my astral temple and was envisioning me shaking father's hand i slashed him, this is the complete oppisite of my intentions and how i feel but these trash thoughts just keep coming, there invasive and hurting my relationship with father, i will always love SATAN and his demons
and i
have a loyalty to him that will never be broken but i feel like these thoughts are driving a wedge between me and him. i need help with this and can an expeienced person tell me, or at least give me an idea of how father would feel about this, these thoughts come in at the worst time, i don't want to offend satan and i want my relationship with him to be stronger than blood, these thoughts say things that are really offensive to me and certianly to him, please help. i will list some more just to show bad they are, i've got a theory that the xianty knows that i will never side with them, so instead they're trying to sabotage my relationship with father
" i believe satan is ficticious"
"i hate satan" "i love all of hells angels"
"fuck satan" "this isn't working"- this happened as i was opening my third eye
"fuck enlil"- this happened right as i was cursing jehova
also my thoughts will say hail satan even when it is some thing negative, thus causing this praise to loose it's value
but on the positive side no more pro christian statements, i would rather die than adhere to jehova.