Re: I'm not sure where to begin, but I have a problem

[saripoulonzi]

I feel for you... i'm sure you'll get better soon.

I've got some advice about your "bastard killer ex"

I've noticed, in my experience, that every time i hate someone (and i mean intense feelings of hatred not just disliking someone) all of these feelings consume me and i become covered with negativity. This directed negativity is good way to show your hatred, and express your feelings... but it's not healthy to be constantly in this state of mind.

Every time i get consumed in negative feelings i lose my focus in life and some times in my life it was so intense that i got ill from this (entities can attack you easier, because you are vulnerable when you're this way).

I would suggest to forget for a minute your problems... and try to erase the negativity from your mind (i know it's easier said than done)... i'm sure you have qualities that you're proud of yourself... like novel writing as you've said... focus on them, focus on today. Explore yourself. Try to find things you're good at. Try to be better at things you're good at.

And what's bad, with living with your parents... just because society says it.. it's supposed to be bad? NO! I live with my parents also.. and i don't feel bad at all. I really enjoy spending time with them (not all the time, but you get what i'm trying to say ). Ignore everything the society tries to impose on you. Don't feel bad for what others saying! It's their problem not yours.

Feel good about yourself. In everything in life you gain something and you lose something. It's not good or bad, it is choice and results. Don't feel bad for your choices and don't feel bad for things that happen to you. Just try to become better.

Everyone struggles in their life, with problems that happened. No one likes it. But you need to keep your focus and become better... not just for yourself... but to help the important persons in your life. If we become strong we can use our strength to help each other.

Think about it... i've encountered many problems in my life and i'm sure that i'll encounter even more. But Father helped me... i found my way... this forum gave me advise in the same way i'm giving you advise now. I'm stronger now and i'm trying to help you. You need to believe in yourself, become stronger because in the future you'll be the one that will help someone.

Father protects all of his children. Feel safe and just go forward.

I hope this helps

ps. sorry for the long text.. but i really felt it!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Susan" <susansmith6949@... wrote:

For about the last month, I have been waking up having seizures. I have seen three different doctors about this issue, and they keep telling me there is nothing they can do.

I have visited three doctors in the last month, just to have each charge me 75-100 dollars for wasting my time.

I am so frustrated it isn't funny at this point. I have had epilepsy since I was eighteen. I'm sick and tired of it.

All the people in my life keep spewing Christian filth at me like this happened to you for a reason, your being tested, and all that.

I find myself wondering sometimes if I am being punished for something, but then I think to myself this is a Christian idea, isn't it?

I have epilepsy because this idiot that I dated briefly right after I graduated from high school tried to kill me. I hate the bastard more than anyone on this planet. I don't know why I haven't cursed him or something exactly.

I'm sick and tired of trying to make the measily disability check I make every month stretch to pay the bills. I hate having to live with my parents. I'm 31 years old, and it just feels lame.

As if I didn't have enough problems this month, my mother threw away my debit card for some reason, and now I have to order a replacement card.

I'm working on getting a novel written, and I am beginning to look into publishers. I keep fighting with my dad because he wants me to find a Publisher in Michigan. Well the only Publishers in Michigan I have found publish Christian filth. As I am a Satanist, and have been for years now, this is obviously not going to happen.

Anyway I just don't know what to do. Any help or advice would be appreciated.

 

[debbie poston]

I had seizures to when I was young. I ask Father and the Gods for help. They help and I no longer have seizures. Are you taking any medican? If so, let Father and the Gods tell you how to take it. Don't lesson to the Doctors. HAIL SATAN

On Sun, Sep 12, 2010 at 1:39 AM, Susan <susansmith6949@... wrote:

  For about the last month, I have been waking up having seizures. I have seen three different doctors about this issue, and they keep telling me there is nothing they can do.

I have visited three doctors in the last month, just to have each charge me 75-100 dollars for wasting my time.

I am so frustrated it isn't funny at this point. I have had epilepsy since I was eighteen. I'm sick and tired of it.

All the people in my life keep spewing Christian filth at me like this happened to you for a reason, your being tested, and all that.

I find myself wondering sometimes if I am being punished for something, but then I think to myself this is a Christian idea, isn't it?

I have epilepsy because this idiot that I dated briefly right after I graduated from high school tried to kill me. I hate the bastard more than anyone on this planet. I don't know why I haven't cursed him or something exactly.

I'm sick and tired of trying to make the measily disability check I make every month stretch to pay the bills. I hate having to live with my parents. I'm 31 years old, and it just feels lame.

As if I didn't have enough problems this month, my mother threw away my debit card for some reason, and now I have to order a replacement card.

I'm working on getting a novel written, and I am beginning to look into publishers. I keep fighting with my dad because he wants me to find a Publisher in Michigan. Well the only Publishers in Michigan I have found publish Christian filth. As I am a Satanist, and have been for years now, this is obviously not going to happen.

Anyway I just don't know what to do. Any help or advice would be appreciated.

 

[Ryan Ohayre]

I also made a mistake and misdrected my response should have been been directed to susan .


From: debbie poston <dpbymyself720@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Mon, September 13, 2010 1:04:38 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] I'm not sure where to begin, but I have a problem



I had seizures to when I was young. I ask Father and the Gods for help. They help and I no longer have seizures. Are you taking any medican? If so, let Father and the Gods tell you how to take it. Don't lesson to the Doctors. HAIL SATAN

On Sun, Sep 12, 2010 at 1:39 AM, Susan <susansmith6949@... wrote:

  For about the last month, I have been waking up having seizures. I have seen three different doctors about this issue, and they keep telling me there is nothing they can do.

I have visited three doctors in the last month, just to have each charge me 75-100 dollars for wasting my time.

I am so frustrated it isn't funny at this point. I have had epilepsy since I was eighteen. I'm sick and tired of it.

All the people in my life keep spewing Christian filth at me like this happened to you for a reason, your being tested, and all that.

I find myself wondering sometimes if I am being punished for something, but then I think to myself this is a Christian idea, isn't it?

I have epilepsy because this idiot that I dated briefly right after I graduated from high school tried to kill me. I hate the bastard more than anyone on this planet. I don't know why I haven't cursed him or something exactly.

I'm sick and tired of trying to make the measily disability check I make every month stretch to pay the bills. I hate having to live with my parents. I'm 31 years old, and it just feels lame.

As if I didn't have enough problems this month, my mother threw away my debit card for some reason, and now I have to order a replacement card.

I'm working on getting a novel written, and I am beginning to look into publishers. I keep fighting with my dad because he wants me to find a Publisher in Michigan. Well the only Publishers in Michigan I have found publish Christian filth. As I am a Satanist, and have been for years now, this is obviously not going to happen.

Anyway I just don't know what to do. Any help or advice would be appreciated.

 

[Ryan Ohayre]

Hello Debbie you are not alone we all have things that we struggle with.I can offer you moral support and tell you not to give up on your self as satanists we feel alot stronger than most and internalize alot more than most keep pushing to do the right thing for your self I am not a doctor or a therapist but i am your brother in a matter of speaking and am here to support you. I can offer you a little bit more advice maybe you can talk to one of the highpriests or priestess on this sight and they can do more to help you.Be kind to your self not so hard .


From: debbie poston <dpbymyself720@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Mon, September 13, 2010 1:04:38 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] I'm not sure where to begin, but I have a problem



I had seizures to when I was young. I ask Father and the Gods for help. They help and I no longer have seizures. Are you taking any medican? If so, let Father and the Gods tell you how to take it. Don't lesson to the Doctors. HAIL SATAN

On Sun, Sep 12, 2010 at 1:39 AM, Susan <susansmith6949@... wrote:

  For about the last month, I have been waking up having seizures. I have seen three different doctors about this issue, and they keep telling me there is nothing they can do.

I have visited three doctors in the last month, just to have each charge me 75-100 dollars for wasting my time.

I am so frustrated it isn't funny at this point. I have had epilepsy since I was eighteen. I'm sick and tired of it.

All the people in my life keep spewing Christian filth at me like this happened to you for a reason, your being tested, and all that.

I find myself wondering sometimes if I am being punished for something, but then I think to myself this is a Christian idea, isn't it?

I have epilepsy because this idiot that I dated briefly right after I graduated from high school tried to kill me. I hate the bastard more than anyone on this planet. I don't know why I haven't cursed him or something exactly.

I'm sick and tired of trying to make the measily disability check I make every month stretch to pay the bills. I hate having to live with my parents. I'm 31 years old, and it just feels lame.

As if I didn't have enough problems this month, my mother threw away my debit card for some reason, and now I have to order a replacement card.

I'm working on getting a novel written, and I am beginning to look into publishers. I keep fighting with my dad because he wants me to find a Publisher in Michigan. Well the only Publishers in Michigan I have found publish Christian filth. As I am a Satanist, and have been for years now, this is obviously not going to happen.

Anyway I just don't know what to do. Any help or advice would be appreciated.