Re: I'm conflicted, a story of reflection and regret.

[heathendante]

I was wondering? do you have a copy of Anton Levey's Satanic Bible? We really are social animals and it seems to me that you are missing your friends good opinion of you, and that is ok and normal. You are just not considering yourself right now and we all do that from time to time. I see a lot of things about you in your post that speak well of you as a Satanist. You are bi-lingual and even write in a foreign language. You had the courage to try something completely different at a young age. You took on responsibilities and made some errors in judgement but we all do that in our lives. It won't be the last time! lol! The point is, you tried to do something you did not know how to do, that takes balls and all Satanists respect that.

You also have the courage to take the Spiritual Satanist path and reject the herd mind and it's mind virus conditioning via the buybull and judeo/xtian thought control. This is a tough path, few attempt it, most are content to stay in the herd. You seek knowledge and self development, that's why you are here. That is a quality to be proud of. Satanists learn to like and love ourselves first, take care of ourselves first, because we are no good to anyone if we are no good to ourselves. See the good and strong in yourself, keep learning, and be proud of what you attempt to do even if it dosen't work out. You learn from everything, see the lessons in it all.

Hail Satan
Dante