Rather distressing thought.

[Jonathan1]

i've noticed that i even though i have been a Satanist for about 3 years now, i still haven't had any "serious" indication that Satan or the demons are around me. I mean, i've been thinking this before and all the sudden a string of good events occur, and of course, i attribute this to Satan and his demons trying to help encourage me, but still. No words from Satan in my dreams, no dreams about guardian demons, no strange repetitions or signs. unless i'm just not paying attention. and i've been meditating and trying to open my chakras, although, that's a practice that's been difficult to maintain, due to the way things are in my life. i dunno. sometimes i get the thought that i'm just mimicking xianity by putting faith into something i'm not getting much proof of. i'm likely wrong, and just have ignored things around me, but still.

 

[Watar]

Firstly, you should never put your faith into something you don't believe in 100%. Faith is basically hoping something is true, without having any evidence to back it up.

Secondly, meditation needs to be done everyday. Once you start, you need to continue trying to raise your Kundalini, bringing in more energy, etc. A lot of people who start meditating expect instant results, and it could take many MANY more years of meditating DAILY to feel said energies.

Lastly, if you are ever in doubt of Father Satan, start researching. The information is hard to find, but its out there, and google can be your best ally.

You need to stay strong. It took Xianity thousands of years to master their lies, so realizing the truth is not any easy journey.

Hail Satan!
J. Watar

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Jonathan" <phenex_the_fallen@... wrote:

i've noticed that i even though i have been a Satanist for about 3 years now, i still haven't had any "serious" indication that Satan or the demons are around me. I mean, i've been thinking this before and all the sudden a string of good events occur, and of course, i attribute this to Satan and his demons trying to help encourage me, but still. No words from Satan in my dreams, no dreams about guardian demons, no strange repetitions or signs. unless i'm just not paying attention. and i've been meditating and trying to open my chakras, although, that's a practice that's been difficult to maintain, due to the way things are in my life. i dunno. sometimes i get the thought that i'm just mimicking xianity by putting faith into something i'm not getting much proof of. i'm likely wrong, and just have ignored things around me, but still.

 

[Lewis Peden]

you know what john, I just got kicked out for telling my room mate that i was studying researching whatever the hell ya wanna call it Satanism.  I'm glad that I had a place to go afterward, but I'm not even a Satanist, and I feel denied.  On the other hand I lost my job in 06 (and trust me buddy I busted my ass) because I became a born again Pentacostal and was trying to share the holy spirit and some teachings of the Bible with others at work.  Now they didn't say that in so many words that it was because I was openin my mouth about Christ and stuff, but that definitely had somethin to do with it.  So you see, either way I approached it I was still swallowed up and spit out on the New Jersey turn pike.  And I can't just deny the existance of supernatural beings such as GOD and Satan, but I'm bitter at both ends.  What do you think man?  Wierd huh?

From: Jonathan <phenex_the_fallen@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Tue, September 28, 2010 3:06:24 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Rather distressing thought.

  i've noticed that i even though i have been a Satanist for about 3 years now, i still haven't had any "serious" indication that Satan or the demons are around me. I mean, i've been thinking this before and all the sudden a string of good events occur, and of course, i attribute this to Satan and his demons trying to help encourage me, but still. No words from Satan in my dreams, no dreams about guardian demons, no strange repetitions or signs. unless i'm just not paying attention. and i've been meditating and trying to open my chakras, although, that's a practice that's been difficult to maintain, due to the way things are in my life. i dunno. sometimes i get the thought that i'm just mimicking xianity by putting faith into something i'm not getting much proof of. i'm likely wrong, and just have ignored things around me, but still.

 

[Blaise Parnell]

If you don't believe things are true because you are not developed enough to experience them then I guess that says something. Maybe you should really knuckle down, and don't deny even 10 minutes of meditation a day. I mean, I just graduated from an all boys boarding anglican school with a military background, I still found the time. Everyone complains they don't have the privacy or time, but if they were truly dedicated, then how about you wake up 30 minutes earlier and meditate while everyone is sleeping? People will say "But I need that 30 minutes to get my energy". I think thats stupid, I mean what is most meditations based around? ABSORBING ENERGY, you will get the right amount, if not more energy meditating for a while than sleeping. The reason people don't experience things is simple, if you need miracles happening around you every spare moment then you are not strong in yourself. Satanism is about independence and doing things for yourself, not expecting Satan or his Demons to perform miracles every chance they get, they are busy too and unless you can give them a good reason for it, there is no real reason why they should manifest themselves before you.
From: Lewis Peden <lewiswpeden@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Thu, 30 September, 2010 10:28:13 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Rather distressing thought.

  you know what john, I just got kicked out for telling my room mate that i was studying researching whatever the hell ya wanna call it Satanism.  I'm glad that I had a place to go afterward, but I'm not even a Satanist, and I feel denied.  On the other hand I lost my job in 06 (and trust me buddy I busted my ass) because I became a born again Pentacostal and was trying to share the holy spirit and some teachings of the Bible with others at work.  Now they didn't say that in so many words that it was because I was openin my mouth about Christ and stuff, but that definitely had somethin to do with it.  So you see, either way I approached it I was still swallowed up and spit out on the New Jersey turn pike.  And I can't just deny the existance of supernatural beings such as GOD and Satan, but I'm bitter at both ends.  What do you think man?  Wierd huh?

From: Jonathan <phenex_the_fallen@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Tue, September 28, 2010 3:06:24 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Rather distressing thought.

  i've noticed that i even though i have been a Satanist for about 3 years now, i still haven't had any "serious" indication that Satan or the demons are around me. I mean, i've been thinking this before and all the sudden a string of good events occur, and of course, i attribute this to Satan and his demons trying to help encourage me, but still. No words from Satan in my dreams, no dreams about guardian demons, no strange repetitions or signs. unless i'm just not paying attention. and i've been meditating and trying to open my chakras, although, that's a practice that's been difficult to maintain, due to the way things are in my life. i dunno. sometimes i get the thought that i'm just mimicking xianity by putting faith into something i'm not getting much proof of. i'm likely wrong, and just have ignored things around me, but still.



 

 

[serlya666]

you know what? i never actually thought of that, "Everyone complains they don't have the privacy or time,
but if they were truly dedicated, then how about you wake up 30 minutes earlier and meditate while everyone is sleeping?" now that ive seen that i feel stupid for not thinking about it sooner, thanks =) ill do that.
Hail SATAN and the mighty Demons of Duat!
Stay Strong

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Blaise Parnell <blaiseparnell@... wrote:

If you don't believe things are true because you are not developed enough to
experience them then I guess that says something. Maybe you should really
knuckle down, and don't deny even 10 minutes of meditation a day. I mean, I just
graduated from an all boys boarding anglican school with a military background,
I still found the time. Everyone complains they don't have the privacy or time,
but if they were truly dedicated, then how about you wake up 30 minutes earlier
and meditate while everyone is sleeping? People will say "But I need that 30
minutes to get my energy". I think thats stupid, I mean what is most meditations
based around? ABSORBING ENERGY, you will get the right amount, if not more
energy meditating for a while than sleeping. The reason people don't experience
things is simple, if you need miracles happening around you every spare moment
then you are not strong in yourself. Satanism is about independence and doing
things for yourself, not expecting Satan or his Demons to perform miracles every
chance they get, they are busy too and unless you can give them a good reason
for it, there is no real reason why they should manifest themselves before you.



________________________________
From: Lewis Peden <lewiswpeden@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Thu, 30 September, 2010 10:28:13 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Rather distressing thought.


you know what john, I just got kicked out for telling my room mate that i was
studying researching whatever the hell ya wanna call it Satanism. I'm glad that
I had a place to go afterward, but I'm not even a Satanist, and I feel denied.
On the other hand I lost my job in 06 (and trust me buddy I busted my ass)
because I became a born again Pentacostal and was trying to share the holy
spirit and some teachings of the Bible with others at work. Now they didn't say
that in so many words that it was because I was openin my mouth about Christ and
stuff, but that definitely had somethin to do with it. So you see, either way I
approached it I was still swallowed up and spit out on the New Jersey turn
pike. And I can't just deny the existance of supernatural beings such as GOD
and Satan, but I'm bitter at both ends. What do you think man? Wierd huh?




________________________________
From: Jonathan <phenex_the_fallen@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Tue, September 28, 2010 3:06:24 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Rather distressing thought.


i've noticed that i even though i have been a Satanist for about 3 years now, i
still haven't had any "serious" indication that Satan or the demons are around
me. I mean, i've been thinking this before and all the sudden a string of good
events occur, and of course, i attribute this to Satan and his demons trying to
help encourage me, but still. No words from Satan in my dreams, no dreams about
guardian demons, no strange repetitions or signs. unless i'm just not paying
attention. and i've been meditating and trying to open my chakras, although,
that's a practice that's been difficult to maintain, due to the way things are
in my life. i dunno. sometimes i get the thought that i'm just mimicking xianity
by putting faith into something i'm not getting much proof of. i'm likely wrong,
and just have ignored things around me, but still.

 

[Jonathan1]

I actually had to search the site for my past messages to find this. I thought it never even made it up. But thank all of you. I guess that was kind of a low point in life, and my words expressed it. I sorted myself out, though. although i'm back at the place where i had to leave for practicing openly, at least i have a place to continually and without disturbance practice in secret. Anyway, thanks for the support you guys.


Hail Enki!