grell.thereaper
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I am a lost child. I am trying my best to study about Father Enki and let go of this fear within me. I cannot do any rituals, because I'm afraid of the consequences, by that I mean...having problems with the enemy. Yes, I'm afraid of the enemy, and I'm afraid that I won't be strong enough to fight them off. I haven't done the dedication ritual, because I am in need of a few things. It isn't about not doing it, its about having the proper things. And I fear that...since I haven't dedicated, that I'll be under attack by the enemy.
This fear was so drilled into my head, that...I feared and still fear everything around me. I'm scared of the dark, scared to be by myself outside at night. I'm scared of my surroundings when I'm by myself. This is what xtians and their Judeo/Christian god did to me. I want to escape, to be free..
I'm only writing this to vent out.
Hail Father Enki
This fear was so drilled into my head, that...I feared and still fear everything around me. I'm scared of the dark, scared to be by myself outside at night. I'm scared of my surroundings when I'm by myself. This is what xtians and their Judeo/Christian god did to me. I want to escape, to be free..
I'm only writing this to vent out.
Hail Father Enki