This is going to be a long message and I'm not sure if I am even sending this to the correct people. I have read all the information and been studying the JOS sight. I guess for most of my life I had been raised Christian not really ever fully accepted it just lived in the house. Not sure what to believe in anymore. I can say for a damned fact I have seen no miracles or anything significant other than my mother bawl her eyes her entire life over my handicap younger brother. What I am getting at is basically lol how real is this? Everything I have read seems very convincing but almost like a fairy tale and too good to be true. If I dedicated myself to Satan would I be able to get what I want out of this life. Ha I am not afraid to admit that I am very materialistic and desire fame mainly to be an actor. I would have no problems dedicating if I knew how real this was and I would even do what he wanted me to do in return. Mainly there are certain things in my life that I want that seem unobtainable and if all it takes is dedicating myself and do his will and keeping in his favor than I am in. I am 19 going on 20 and I have heard both sides of the religion now and really haven't seen anything yet from what I have been doing. So I don't know what I am getting at but any help and advice is greatly appreciated. Sidenote as well what is with all this magic stuff? Sounds incredible but seems a bit out of touch with reality. Lol or maybe I am.