Questions Of A Newbie

[streamjordan]

1. How many people actually see these entities?
2. How long did it take you to get there if so?
3. I would like to see some examples to know what to shoot for. Like a video or something.
4. I don't feel "Human" if I wasn't would I know? Or do I have to meditate on it?
5. Where should I go from here? Just meditate? For how long?
6. I would like to talk to maxine or some high priest/ess or do they not mingle with the noobies?

I feel like I was drawn here on purpose. I have a feeling that satan wants me to dedicate but knows I wouldn't be happy without looking at all the details... Like I just feel something hanging over me even as I type this... When I was young I was different. I was completely different person. I was taken and put into a mental hospital at age 5. There horrible things happened. I was drugged and feel like I was purposely being, what's the word?....altered. When I finally got out after years of abuse of all forms. What came out was a robot. Anyway I could go on and on about me... If you wish to know anything about me just ask.