--- In , "lydia_n_666" <liddynavillus@... wrote:
The "exorcist" thing will not happen. Just don't use the 9 foot circle, it's disrespectful. The only thing I can say is to keep reading the site, as you are doing
. And it sound like you're going to throw caution to the wind (the part where you said you will die trying to find the truth), which is great. Seriously. Don't be afraid, just make sure to be respectful at all times. I've seen many times in these groups and on the site, "fear = failure". All this knowledge is addicting, and you will continue to find truth.
And talk to Father Satan often. Do rituals thanking him for the knowledge that is available to you, for what the meditations are doing for you, etc. Even if you can't feel his presence yet, as that will take time. He can hear you. And you don't need all the ritual tools, he understands that many of us can't yet afford some things, or the xians make some things difficult to obtain, or we live with xian parents who won't understand, to say the least. I suggest making an astral temple (the link is in the "Satanic Ritual" section, in the "New to Satanism" link on the main page). They're great for improving our astral senses, and you can go there anytime, since it's basically in your head.
I just realized, I *just* answered another of your posts lol.
Hail Satan!
--- In , "ihave.found_home" <ihave.found_home@ wrote:
PLEASE DO NOT BE ANGRY WITH ME OR THE THINGS I SAY, THIS IS MY JOURNEY AND I AM ONLY SHARING MY THOUGHTS ALOUD AND SHARING MY STORY... I do not mean to offend by sharing what I share, I come with respect and greatly appreciate everyone's help in my journey.
Whenever I ask a question, I feel silly for asking it, cause I usually end up realizing the answer, or finding it out on the site, BUT STILL, thank you guys for helping me out.
( By the way, I was surprised to see That High Priestess Pythia, had replied to a post of mine, I must say that I felt wonderful while I was reading it, I felt at peace... I wish to Thank you, Pythia, Let my tears be a testament to my appreciation )
One other question I have currently after reading what High Priestess Pythia has taken the time to write for us, is that, why did The Gods need to be freed? What was wrong? who put them in a place where they needed to be freed from? I don't understand, but I hope that I will soon. Don't bother answering this question unless you really feel like it or think it's important, I am going to read more on the site where I will mostly figure it out anyway
But if anyone has anything to add, of course feel free.
I also want to express that I haven't yet dedicated my soul to Satan, I do wish to do the Ritual as soon as I have the right items, but I am having a slight problem that is holding me back...
You know what I just realized while sitting here... The Enemy can't stop me from searching for Truth... All they can do is corrupt what is all ready there and turn it to what they like, BUT WHY? why would they do that? to hold power in the hands of a few? WHAT POWER? are you trying to tell me that some of these people who are high up and running the churches, that they know the truth? I mean the real truth? and by them knowing the real truth, they have power? Can they hurt me with this power? How Can I stop them?
Bleh, Never mind all that I will find out on my own, and I have a feeling it will be sooner that I expect.
I have so many questions and so much I want to know, I guess the only way for me to know what I want to know 100%, is to ask Satan and his demons myself when I am able to... Right?
I mean, what can possibly go wrong? lets say for instance I end up going all crazy like in the "exorcist" movie. I WILL SAY THIS. I would rather end up like that then live my life constantly blind folded never knowing Truth.
I have been in pain my whole life, because nobody can answer my questions, I have prayed to Jesus (When I was corrupted) And guess what? HE DIDN'T DO A FUCKING THING FOR ME!, these stupid people say to have faith and to also fear god, I SAY FUCK THAT NOISE RIGHT NOW!.
WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I FEAR JESUS AND HIS GOD??? WHY SHOULD I LIVE MY LIFE IN PAIN AND FEAR... THAT IS SICK, FUCK YOU JESUS.
!!! The more I read the JoS Site, The more I feel my hatred for the bible returning. I feel empowered, and it feels a lot better then pain and fear.!!!
I am tired of living in pain, I am tired of all the lies, If Satan really is the path to truth and freedom and knowledge, Then I WILL FIND IT, OR ACCORDING TO CHRISTIANITY< I WILL DIE TRYING ... I refuse to let Fear stand in my way, if it means that eventually I will have my answers, in this life, then so be it.
Anyway, thanks for letting me ramble on and think out loud on the forums.
And thank you Pythia, Without all you have done, I would still be lost, I wish you could see my tears, my tears of happiness.
