Question #3896: I am such an embarrassment!

[Ask Satya Operator]

Why do I even exist? And why do I even bother! All I do is make a complete idiot of myself! And it's because of my fucking grammar! I would literally pay anybody?! Just spend a couple of hours with me and help me with my grammar

 

[Ask Satya Operator]

I really really really need! To go back to school! And brush up on all and everything I have learned! And I mean everything that I have learned from a to z! From my childhood on up! MY GRAMMER SUCKS!!!!
And I feel like a complete idiot! Laugh out loud I'm giving these people the impression that I am some fucking baby! Here I'm 52 years old laugh out loud! And yes I admit that I need to go back to school!

 

[Ask Satya Operator]

My grammar!!!!!

It sucks!!!

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

So get some paper and pens and start practicing writing. And it will get better. It's bad because you haven't been using it, but you will get better again when you do it.

 

[Epiphany]

Dragonheart, nobody here thinks you're an asshole and nobody is spending even a fraction of the amount of time and energy that you are spending on obsessing and agonizing over these things.

There's no need to impress anybody and no need to be embarrassed. You're accepted as you are and you can only grow at your own pace. Just take deep breaths and be yourself and take small steps to change the things that you want to change. Hating yourself will not help anybody, you have to try to be more kind to yourself.

Most importantly, you must meditate and/or do yoga at least, to ground yourself. Clean your soul, it makes a huge difference, and try to start an exercise routine. Just do a little bit to build a habit each day.

If you feel bad about your writing, there are adult education classes you can take that will help you improve it. They are easy going and a wide variety of people take them. I took one once when I was younger but didn't finish it because I felt embarassed about my writing and didn't feel that it was worth sharing, even just to turn in for grades. It wasn't until later, with more experience, that I gained the confidence to just do the best I can and be okay with putting it out there.

Some problems can seem like one thing on the surface but are really driven by something else, something deeper inside. Insecurity can do a number on self expression. Some people overload and say way too much. Others shut down. Sometimes it's both. Something to think about.

 

[Dragonheart666]

Whatever helps! I am going to do it. Thank you!

 

[Dragonheart666]

Thank you!!

 

[Dragonheart666]

Thank you!!...well at least got it all out now...lol...And now perhaps? I can chill out.

 

[Dragonheart666]

Aaaaarrrgggg,!!!!!@#% And now I think?
I know what my problem is.
Let me PLEASE take care of it.
You have given me every reason to take a step back here. And think.
Pluse! you all have given plenty of advice. And things that i can do here.
Montas i can use to help me. Meditations and I can do a sun square. And just let me chill out now.. and work on my problems here now..
I said what I had to say. Now it out of the way.

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

Your therapist told you to get paper and write all of this on paper. Not post it all here so all of us have to sort through it.

 

[AFODO]

Read and STUDY each of these points and try to implement all of them every time you want to write something here.

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[Aquarius]

Can you buy yourself a jornal and write your complaints there? This forum isn't your diary. Nobody cares about your grammar, i actually think you write quite well, but it's the fact that you're treating this forums as your personal blog that makes people annoyed at you.

 

[Dragonheart666]

YES!!!!❤❤❤❤ by they way. There are like' two or three : more posts! On the way,. BUT THEY were sent a couple" of days ago " to ..THE TALK TO SATAN FORM. So just to let you know before hand. And THANK YOU! ❤❤❤❤ I am going to get busy! With my homework here.

 

[Dragonheart666]

And if you need to talk to me.
Just message me. ❤ Hail Satan!

 

[Dragonheart666]

And YES! It would be better to write" on paper. And keep my person rants. "To myself". Instead ! of blasting" my self ,.to" The talk to Satan form."
Because....it ends up on the site for all to see, INCLUDING" the enemy" Who is also getting a good laugh" at my rants! and huge posts....the
Pour grammar, and are properly copying it and looking to use it against me as a weapon of some kind.? Too. And that is creepy to think about.
And as a Spiritual Satanist! My personal problem/ Problems should be discussed with Satan in privacy. When I write to him in my personal, gernal and pray. And Meditate. That way. I would be safer. And so will everyone else on here. AND keep this website clean. And friendly.
And inviting to others who need help. And only go to Talk to Satan? When it is necessary. For conversation topics that are more important to the website. And yes I was abused as a child. By teachers and my Folks Who was overly corrective. So that I admit. I am still so trying to recover from all that. The PTSD is still very strong to this very day. And I do have attention deficit disorder as well. And OCD. I took medications for that and it never helped. And that smoked marijuana " instead when I got older.
And ended up. Getting" into other things too. Long story short.
Trying to find happiness. And trying to be the better person.
So I have come here to relern and get mental, emotional, and spiritual evaluation. I appreciate you people! And thank you for listening!